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I watched as Naru softly let out a sigh. His black attire still hadn't changed from the first day I met him. Is he still mourning Gene? Or is it that he's gotten used to black all the time?

Naru has raven hair. It's a contrast to his pale white skin which makes it stand out even more. I have the strangest urge to touch and stroke those soft locks. I could lose myself for hours playing with them...

He always wears a black attire. A black shirt, jeans, shoes, and finally a black coat. His coat's smell is just like him. Yes, I've smelled it before. It was before I found out who he was and he left. Once when no one was at the office- Naru had gone for lunch with Masako and she insisted on him taking off his coat- I had wrapped myself up in it and imagined what it would have been like if it were Naru's arms around me instead. The sweet smell of tea had surrounded me, enchanted me, even. Luckily I had taken the coat off five minutes before the couple came back.

Naru's notebook is one of the mysteries of our office. It appears out of nowhere- you never see him take it out. He's always scribbling on it. I've always wondered what was written in it. Maybe case related things. Maybe things he finds interesting. Maybe it's a journal. Maybe it's filled with anything and everything!

Black hair, black shirt, black coat, black jeans, black shoes, black notebook. Heck- I think he even wears black socks! The only other color I've seen him wear is that time at the Urado case where he was wearing blue pajamas. Why blue, anyway? Was he trying to match his eyes?

That would make sense. His eyes are cold, freezing blue. They pierce through you, seeing everything that you want to hide. I've only seen one other type of eyes like that. But those eyes are a soft, reassuring blue. The kind that makes you relax even if you're in the same room as them. I wonder why I couldn't have fallen in love with the happy eyes instead of the frigid ones.

Sometimes I wind up thinking. What would have happened if I had chosen Gene instead of him and Gene had been alive. Would I have been happier? Maybe. Would I have been content? I don't know. I do know that I like my life now. Naru's brought a whole new life for me with him.

I have a family again. A place to belong. I don't think even he knows the extent of what he did for me. Without him, I would still be that lonely orphan girl that worked hard to make ends meet. Sure, I had friends but they weren't the same as the family I have now. I didn't tell them everything and count on them to save my life. Monk, Ayako, John, Yasu and a tiny tiny piece of Masako are the people that I feel I can count on during the most dangerous situations.

And then there's Naru. The 'Big Boss', famous narcissist, Oliver Davis, Shibuya Kazuya. The one who's responsible for making me happy and breaking my heart. The one who still holds my heart. The one who asked the stupid necessary question: "Me or Gene?

Oh that question. It ripped my heart in two and tossed my mind into chaos.

Me or Gene?

Me or Gene?

YOU! It was always YOU! It will always be YOU! How I wanted to tell him. But when the fatal question was asked, my lips were sealed. They betrayed me and refused to open. So I cried in frustration and confusion and heartbreak and grief. He stayed there, leaning against the tree, throughout the whole thing. He thought I was crying because I loved Gene! He even told me I'd probably meet him again! Why did he have to be so kind? Why? I knew how horrible it must feel to be the one in the dark. To always have your twin preferred over you. No one ever noticed you, did they? They wanted you to be like Gene. They didn't understand that you were someone else. And then, he thought I probably wanted the same thing!

I'm sorry. So sorry. I should have known the answer to that question. Should have answered that question right away. But I didn't. And you didn't ask. Instead you left, leaving me broken and horrified at myself. I didn't know at that time. I got confused. Of course it made sense. He was so cold to everyone and his twin was so warm. It was natural. But it felt so wrong!

Naru was the one who was always there. The one who always saved me. The one who made my heart race and become happy at the mere thought of him. He was the idiot scientist who always annoyed me by treating me like a moron. The one who was addicted to tea. The one who I wanted to smile.

His smile was so rare. I had seen it only once on his face. It was during the case at Yasu's school. When we were stuck in the well, he had been playful and smiled. Smiled at me. I want to see that side of him again. The one that was kind and compassionate. Even if that side still treated me like a little kid.

It was when he was gone that I realized that the one I loved was him. But he was gone, and probably never coming back. All I was left with were the keys to the office and a photo. A photo of Naru and Gene. The miniature Naru in the photo had the same expression as the real one. A cold, aloof expression. I wanted to see that face again. I wanted to hear his voice again, even if it was to call for tea. For three months I was miserable. I didn't know what to do with myself, I had forgotten what my life was like before Naru. So I buried myself in school and work. I kept in touch with the other members, but it wasn't the same. They all had other things to do and their own lives to go live. Soon I only heard from them once in a while.

And then he came back. Naru came back! I was ecstatic, he was coming back! I could answer that question. I could tell him it was him. When he came to the airport, I couldn't go, but the rest of SPR showed up. They told me later that Naru had asked where I was. I was in school, thinking about the fact that he was probably reaching soon (I got in trouble for not paying attention). Later that day, he showed up at my apartment and asked if he wanted my job back.

YES! Of course I did. I couldn't believe that he actually came all the way to my home to ask me! I didn't say all of that out loud, but just nodded and he left. The reason he gave for coming back, when I asked him, was 'Japan has more supernatural occurrences than England'. Yeah, right. I'm not that stupid Naru. I knew that he liked being in Japan with the rest of the team. I could see the amusement and content in his eyes when he had been in the office. But I just decided to agree with whatever he wanted to say, even if I knew better. He has a really hard time admitting his feelings, after all.

And now, everything is back to normal. Naru is back in all his black glory. I finally have a chance to tell him the answer to that question. I take a deep breath. I slowly walk into his office and set his tea down.

"Hey Naru?"

Naru looks at me with an emotionless face. "What?"

I summon up my courage. "I have the answer to the question you asked."

He knew what I was talking about. Of course he did. Slowly, a beautiful smile showed itself on his face. "And?"

I take another deep breath. "It's..."

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