A/N My redemption piece. :) I have written one other fanfiction, But I deleted it. So i decided it was high time to put another one up.
Summary: Ninja contemplating her feelings in a battle. OC new generation based on Naruto.
-Emi of ShioriAyano
I hate feelings.
That exact thought ran through my mind as the familiar ache settled into my chest. No matter how often it happens, I will never get used to it. It is the worst feeling that I know of, and it gives me a good reason to hate it.
Guilt.
My conscience is one of the worst qualities I possess, possibly THE worst, especially as a ninja. I am a ninja, I was taught since I was young that a ninja should never show emotions. Damn well doesn't mean they don't have them. If anything should be taught at the academy, it's that emotions are a far worse enemy than anything of actual substance. Every time you kill, every time you injure, every movement against another human being, you will feel emotions that will almost rip you apart. Only the strongest of people can withstand them. Me? I barely tolerate them when I have to, and when I don't?
I more closely resemble an infant than a war-hardened ninja.
I had just killed another weak rock nin on this blood soaked battle ground outside the walls of Konoha, that was the reason for my excessive guilt. I scanned the area for my next unfortunate victim. Ahh..there he was. His back was turned as I plunged my bloody katana into his back. I heard the pathetic lsat breaths as he whispered... "Yuki..cough...my baby girl...gasp...let her li..." and he collapsed in another heap, one of the many adorning the battle field, never getting to finish his dying words. Rock and Leaf nin alike...together in peace only at death, it seems. There would be time to morn later.
Another Rock nin made himself evident as I sliced my way through ninja after ninja, spraying the bodily contents of more nin at once than I would have ever cared to have seen in my life. I stabbed another nin, praying to Kami that he would get to see his long lost family in whatever sort of heaven he believed existed. I felt sorry for myself in that instant, a bad thing to do in the heat of battle. All my loved ones had died when I was young...I have been and orphan for many years...and done fine. I've remained loyal to my village, a diligent ninja who served her Hokage with pride. Unlike that traitorous Sasuke. I wore my hitai-ite with pride. But I still felt empty, despite all.
Pain struck my body and by breath got stuck in my throat as searing heat ripped it's way from may back to every other place in my living shell. I'm dying. I, Uzamaki Akirahikari, known as Akira to family and friends, the granddaughter of the most honorable Rokudaime Hokage, Uzamaki Naruto, was about to die.
I gasped for my last breaths of this life I clung to by a thin string of mere luck as I thought about all the wonderful people I would see when I left this earth. "The great leaf will never fall, I swear by all the power in the world..." I said as I finally collapsed to join the bodies of my comrades on the battle field...I don't want to die... was my last thought as everything faded to black...
A/N How'd you like it? Kinda dark...but it was the first good inspiration in a while. I though it was good...:)