Cruel and Clumsy

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Cruel and Clumsy

She was gone again, this time without even a goodbye. Olivia felt the shell of her world crumple again under the absence of Alex. This shouldn't be happening to her. She is a good person. Olivia shivers when she thinks about her loss yet again. Her life has always been one mistake after another. Damn it, why Alex, why God! At this point Olivia is shaking her fists at the heavens.

"Fucking A when it rains it just God damn pours" Olivia says to herself.

Sitting back down on her couch. She turned the music up louder to drown out her thoughts, and she focused on the heavy weight of her gun in her hand. She held her gun just like this the night she thought she lost Alex. Now the gun rests in her hands again because once again she has lost Alex. Olivia is utterly broken. She let the music overtake her body and soul until she literally felt the music drift through her…

You've been low,

you've been thinking about the last time,

but I know

there's still a window that leads outside...

Sweet air through the summer screen,

tall grass and warm stones,

where are you today?

'cause you're missing it all...

You were twisting the lens,

but it never stayed in focus,

so you laid on your bed,

and just lost track of the seasons...

And now you know the feel of cold steel to temple

and you know the feel of razor to wrist

and you're lost in a room

that rocks back and forth like a ship deck...

Sweet air through the summer screen,

tall grass and warm stones,

where are you today?

'cause you're missing it all...

But we never explain

why we treasure our secrets,

how we're in love with our sadness sometimes...

But you wanted something you saw in the sunset,

so don't you leave her 'til you know what it is

and let's turn to the west

and let's turn up the music

and let's hope it's always as good as this...

Life is cruel and it's clumsy

(but we never explain)

I wish I could say that it's better than that

(why we treasure our secrets)

but this is our time

(how we're in love with our sadness sometimes)

this is all that we have 'til we turn out the lights...

Life is cruel and it's clumsy save its very best moments

(but we never explain)

I wish I could say that it's better than that

(why we treasure our secrets)

but this our time

(how we're in love with our sadness sometimes)

this is all that we have 'til we turn out the lights...

She put down the gun for the second time in two years, and then she picked up the only picture she had of Alex and herself. Alex is alive. Alex is alive. Olivia repeats this mantra in her head until she truly believes it. Alex is alive, and one day she will come home to me. Memories are all she has left, but deep down hope still existed. Hope that God hasn't forsaken her or Alex, and hope that love can and will conquer death.

Song by Chris Pureka 'Cruel and Clumsy' Check her out she is amazing.