He was standing out there in the rain, all alone, uncovered. It
was so rare for me to see him standing, much less outside.
He
looked beautiful.
For a moment I forgot everything; that sight
filled me with a million questions, a million emotions I rarely felt.
for just a moment of silence, I stood there watching him.
The rain filled my eyes and my ears. I felt small and wondrous at the beauty I could see. I had gotten soaking wet, and I hadn't even noticed. I was thinking of nothing else but him. Suddenly I had become weak, so weak that I barely recognised myself.
I walked over to him silently. He didn't even turn to look at me, as though he had seen me already. His black hair was sleek with the falling rain, and he was looking at the sky, at the clouds that glowed with an eerie green-blue light. My god, he was breathtaking.
"Hey," I said. I didn't know what to say, my heart was
overwhelmed and anything I might say would sound stupid and
inappropriate.
"Hey," he said, and looked at me with
his head still turned towards the sky. I said nothing, just reached
up and took his face in my hands, and brought his lips to mine. He
didn't respond, but he didn't pull away either. He just stood there
and allowed me to kiss him.
When I pulled away, we stared into each other's eyes for a while. I wasn't thinking of anything at all, and neither was he. Even the expected surprise wasn't there in his eyes.
He spoke softly. "What was that for, Light-kun?" he asked me with an expressionless face. Everything came back to me at that moment; my plans, the Death Note, L... I looked down. I couldn't believe how weak I had let myself become.
"I don't know," I said, looking back into his eyes. I started to move away, back towards the stairwell. I was unforgivable for this weak moment. For some reason, it almost felt as if I was saying goodbye.
"Ryuuzaki," I called out once under the roof, "please
head back, you're soaking wet".
He started walking towards
me. I went down the stairs alone.
What was this feeling... in my heart?