She needs to remember. She HAS to, so she runs into the street hoping to be hit by a car and remember. She isn't scared, she's driven. Her only need is to remember. She has no idea who she is anymore. She thought she was Elizabeth but that guy – James - or whatever his name is, called her Effy and fed her crap about the world knowing them but she still couldn't remember. The cars don't hit her, they all try to avoid her but one suddenly comes right for her. She's ready for the crash, but something, someone pushes her off the road. The adrenaline is enough for her to remember: she's Effy Stonem. She kisses Cook, she needs to thank him and tell him she remembers him - he's her friend but that's not what matters now. She remembers EVERYTHING. Every bloody detail. And she needs to tell Freddie something urgent. She asks Cook to take her to Freddie and then passes out. When she wakes up the first thing she sees is Freddie at her side and then notices where they are. She's back at the clinic, back where it started. She tries to apologize to Freddie but he makes clear that she doesn't need to. She's so tired but she absolutely has to tell him. She's so bloody tired ,she can barely keeps her eyes opened and she manages to say I love you a couple of times before falling off to sleep. Her dreams are not pleasant. She keeps seeing a room with a man full of hate and death, just like he had envisioned before. She wakes up screaming and crying. Something is wrong, something is terribly wrong. The first thing she notices is that Freddie is not by her side. She picks up her phone and tries to call him but no answer. She tries again a couple times and he still won't pick up the phone. She knows this is not good and so makes another phone call. Cook answers right away and he assures her he'll stop by Fred's and find him. Effy is worried nonetheless. Her bad dream keeps haunting her. She keeps thinking that this is all wrong. She can't stay in here. She rushes out of bed, gets dressed and quickly escapes from the clinic and goes to Freddie's place but he's not there. Only Cook. She tells to Cook they've to find him but Cook has no idea where to start looking. Then something hits Effy: John Foster's look when Freddie told him to fuck off. But he wouldn't hurt Freddie, would he? She has no time to wonder. She briefly explains this to Cook and they go to the counsellor's place right away. The first thing she see makes her heart literally stop: blood, a lot of blood on the window next to the door. She tries to keep it together but all she really wants to do is scream. Cook doesn't waste any time and smashes the door. What is waiting for them on the other side is something Effy will never forget. Freddie lies on the ground in a pool of blood, his head severely smashed. Effy can't keep it together anymore. She starts screaming and crying holding Freddie and begging him to stay with her. Cook can't bear the sight before him and stars losing it too, but he needs to keep it together because they're not safe here. John Foster had to be around somewhere. So he goes off to find him. Effy can't stop crying. She takes her phone and calls for an ambulance, but it won't do any good. She feels so hollow inside - like her heart has been taken out of her body and smashed into a million pieces. She still hadn't told him. She missed her chance. Freddie will never know he was going to be a dad. She wasn't sure she was suited to be a mother but there was no chance in hell now that she would not keep the baby. It was the only thing she had left of Freddie. She gently adjusted his hair, brushing his skin like the first time they made love in the woods - only this time Freddie won't wake up at her touch. She takes off his necklace and she puts it around her own neck. She gently caresses his stomach and kisses the necklace. Now she will forever have reminders of Freddie.