First of all, thanks for reading! Please review if you have time.
This is just a short piece that I wrote as I was thinking about the guilt Skye might feel looking at Josh. Sorry if there are any mistakes, I was extremely tired when I wrote it. As if that's a good excuse:)
Title taken from the lyrics of "Torn" by Creed.
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Skye's heart pounded—a horrible, methodical reminder of the guilt.
She could see Lucas everywhere.
In the shadows, in Commander Taylor, in the pain seeping from the people of Terra Nova.
In the mirror, when she looked into her own eyes, she could see him.
She hated it.
But something in her also wanted to see him.
She saw Josh everywhere too.
His eyes were so sad.
No, they weren't sad. It was more like there was nothing in them. Empty, lifeless.
Something inside of her did not want to see Josh at all.
The explosion.
Kara's death.
Lucas and his master plan to come back to Terra Nova and ultimately destroy his father.
It was all her fault.
"I want us to be friends."
He had used her nickname. Reminded her of the need to keep her mother safe. Touched her hair.
"I'm so close."
The buildup. The panic had risen in her chest, and as the weight of the possible consequences had hit her full force, she had crumbled.
"It's not safe...they're coming."
Skye had already done it once. But there was no way to go back in time. They were really coming.
"And I have you to thank."
She had told not a soul of her involvement in the impending destruction of Terra Nova.
But she was all to blame.
There had been pieces—pieces—of Kara scattered all of the ground. They'd had to pry her severed, charred hand out of Josh's grasp after her remains were brought back to the colony.
But Lucas had touched her hair. He had said that he cared about her.
Skye used the memories of his touch to block out Josh's desperate cries.
And it was all bearable until Josh walked into the room again. There were no excuses she could come up with to combat that cheerless, coping smile he put on.
Because after all that had happened, he didn't know. While Skye struggled with the guilt that lapped at her sanity, Josh tried to move on.
He believed that his new road led to Skye.
But hers led somewhere else entirely.
A/N: The format didn't turn out exactly as I wanted it to...but I hope you still got through it okay! Please let me know what you think.