This small story was the spawn of way to many ideas in my head! It's set after Luc dies.

This is in Tru's mind, so it might be weird. This si my first fanfiction story ever, so please be nice if you review.

If Tru Calling was mine Luc would not have died and Lindsay would be with Harrison, so it's not mine!

He was gone forever. Never to see me run out on him again. I still don't get it, I could save Harrison but not him. Why? That question repeats in my head like a slow beat to an old song. I thought I could take all the blows Jack could deal. I was wrong, so wrong. The worst moment in my life was watching Mom die.

Now that memory has some competition Harrison dying in the ER and Luc dying in my arms. I don't know if I can face the world, it seems so hard now. Why do I get up every day?

What keeps me alive. I know the answer, but it's hard to say. Harrison, Lindsay, Davis, Meredith and.. and... Luc! I live because he can't! I think that is why I keep going. I know I can make it. With the people I love by me I can, or I hope. I have to face it: Lucs dead and even I can't bring him back.

That's what hurts the worst is that I can't. In a way I will, I think. I have the memories and the pictures. So in a way he is here, with me. Lucs gone, dead. Yet he will always be here in my heart and that is the one think Jack can't destroy: My love for friends, family and my beloved Luc.

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