My love,
You told me yourself that everybody who got into this case is gone. I can't let it happen with you too. I can't lose you. I wouldn't stand it. I watched you die once and I wouldn't be able to live through it again. I wouldn't be able to spend the rest of my life knowing it happened because of me. Josh was right, you know? It IS my fault. And I'm so, so sorry for that. And that's the mainly reason I've decided to do this. Partners take care of each other, right? So I'm going to take care of you. I'm going to take care of this, Kate. I promise you. I'm going to take care of this because I can't stand the thought of losing you. I can't stand the thought of waking up in the morning knowing you won't be there. That I won't be able to talk to you, to hear you criticize my theories. To bring you coffee. You told me not to dig into your mother's murder and I didn't respect your wish. And now everybody is gone, because of me. Montgomery is gone because of me. I can't stand knowing all this and doing nothing else to prevent more kills. To prevent them from trying to kill you again. Because God knows I wouldn't handle going through all that again. I love you Kate. I've being loving you for so four years. Four years of loving you, watching you risk your life and not being able to do a thing to protect you. Now I have a choice. Now I have an opportunity to not only DO something, but also put an end to this madness. This whole thing has gone too far. I'm going to take care of this Kate. And I need you to trust me. Can you? I have some leads I never told you about, I hope you forgive me for that, but I was trying to protect you. If not from them, than from yourself. I made you reopen your mother's case and go through a lot of pain and this has driven you too far. I'm afraid you're losing yourself in the middle of all this. And I can't sit down and watch that. Watch what this is doing to you. You need to let go, and the only way to do that is if we catch your mother's murderer and all of the people involved. But you're not going into this. I'm taking Ryan and Esposito with me and we're going to catch them. We are going to take care of you Kate. Because that's what partners are for. That's what family is for.
I love you Kate. I think I fell for you during our first case together. Do you remember? I was such a self confident ass back then. I always wondered why you didn't just kill me or something, this way I would have left you alone. But I'm so glad you didn't. I'm so glad you allowed me to hang around with you, to get to know you. To fall in love with you. Because loving you is heaven. Loving you is the most wonderful thing I've ever felt in my entire life. And I don't regret a second we spent together. You are extraordinary. You're the magic, the joy, the light of my life. You are my muse, my inspiration. I just thought you should know how much I love you, my dear. And I hope, if we get through this, that you give me an opportunity to show you just how much I love you. You changed me, Kate. You made me a better man. You made me a better person. And there's no way I can repay that. I just hope loving you is enough. I can make you happy Kate, if you only let me try. If only you let me help you to take down that wall. Or at least build a door on it, perhaps even a window.
I have to go now, my love. Duty calls. But I'm coming back for you. I always will. I'll always be here to have your back. I love you.
Always,
Richard Edgar Castle.