He had to feed the wall.
He couldn't even remember why anymore. All he could remember was that it started with hate.
It had all started with hate, but not his hate. It had been the hate of another. Not him.
Someone else had hated. But he couldn't remember who.
He couldn't be touched.
He didn't know why he couldn't be touched though. All he remembers was that it was because of fear.
It was because of fear that he couldn't touch a human. But not his fear. Someone else's.
Someone else had hated to be touched by things that are "unclean" but he didn't know who.
He never remembered "WHO"!
He should, he KNEW that he should.
It was floating in his mind. The name he had to remember. God knows he had heard it enough. Had had it shouted at him, had heard stupid things attached to it like "Almighty" "wonderful" and "great."
BUT WHO!
WHO did he have to feed the wall for? WHO did he hate for? WHO did he fear for?
WHO was the one that had made him like this? WHO had given him his reason? WHO did he MISS SO DAMN MUCH!!!!
WHO was this damned faceless thing in his memory that he had the need to chase? This need to hate? This need to follow? The over powering need to have this person at the center of his world forever, no matter what happened?
WHO did he need this much?
And why wasn't WHO here?
And when would WHO come back?
Johnny didn't know.
All he knew was that he would have this need until he found this person.
This WHO.
I just read some "Emo fox" and this point was made and it makes so much damned sense so i wrote one, but more of a mild romancy view of it. and if you didn't get who he was talking about then go look up the freaking TV show. (Nny=Dib-soooooooooo much sense.)
this is a oneshot, but review and stuff to make me happy.