Letters for Emma.
Author: Dark Wings Of Imagination
Genre: Angst/Drama
Rating: T
Summary: A series of letters from Regina to Emma, the letters are related to each other. I wish I could say more, but don't want to spoil.
A/N: This is something that popped in my head and just couldn't leave me alone.
Letter #1
Emma,
I don't even know how to start, but I guess I should apologize first. What I did to you, your parents and everyone else it's unforgivable and I know that to say I'm sorry won't change anything, but just so you know I am sorry, although I can't say I regret everything, because I don't, I don't regret Henry.
You, probably, won't get the chance to see this letter as long as I live and maybe that's why I feel comfortable saying this:
I love you, Emma Swan.
I know it sounds crazy, because it is, but is the truth. The moment I looked in your eyes the night you brought Henry back to me I knew I loved you, but I couldn't afford it, I couldn't and wouldn't let love take over me, that's why I did everything and said everything I said, I wanted to prove to myself that I didn't love you, that every time I see you I didn't want to hold you in my arms, that it wasn't because of you I cried myself to sleep. I couldn't let you know I cared about you, I mean, who would want the love and care of an evil witch? And I wouldn't bear the rejection. It was easier to give you reasons to hate me than to love me.
Still, after everything I did, after the curse was broken you went looking for me and said that you wanted us to be friends, for Henry's sake, and I agreed. I thought that would be better, you know, I'd be closer to you, I'd be there every time you wanted someone to rely, and would be as if we were together, but I didn't imagine that I would have you just to lose you later.
I will never forget the day you came and asked me to be your maid of honor. I asked you what you meant and you said August had proposed and you said yes. My heart ached and my tears threatened to fall, you asked me what was wrong but I didn't tell you the truth, I just put the best smile I could manage and told you I was happy for you and would be a pleasure to be your maid of honor and at this moment you jumped in my arms and held me close while thanking me for being the best friend you could have.
While you held me I felt my heart ache even more, and I almost couldn't breathe. I knew at this moment that there was nowhere other than your arms I wanted stay, but I also knew that I could never be there. I could never be with you.
Love,
Regina.