Kitty was in the shower when she felt it.
She froze and ran her hand over her breast again. There it was again!
She placed her hands against the wall and let the water hit her head and run down her back. She closed her eyes tightly.
'This can't be happening. Not now! Maybe it's all in my head. Yeah that's it. I'll just ignore it...at least for a while.'
"Kitty!"
She jumped.
She poked her head around the curtain and saw Red "what is it?"
Red smiled "are you alright? You've been in here for a while."
She looked at him and finally nodded "I'm fine."
"Are you done or would you like some company?"
Kitty quickly said "I'm done! I was just about to dry off."
Red grabbed her towel and held it open. She forced a smile and stepped into his out stretched arms. He wrapped the towel around her and attempted to dry her off but she grabbed his hand to stop him.
"I can do it!"
Red raised an eyebrow "what's wrong?"
She touched his elbow as she passed him "nothing. I'm just tired."
He watched her go into the bedroom. He gazed at the empty space and thought 'I wish she would tell me what's bothering her."
He followed her and saw her putting her rollers in her hair.
He walked over to her and gently squeezed her shoulders "Kitty. Talk to me honey."
She looked at the mirror and saw him looking back at her "what do you want to know?"
Red said "I know something is bothering you. You've been tired for the last couple of weeks and you're not yourself. Hell this is the most I've gotten to touch you in weeks. You keep avoiding me. I miss my wife!"
She wanted nothing more than to fall into his arms but instead she glared at him and snapped "well excuse me. I can't be tired? I have needs to you know!"
Red was taken aback. He let go of her "I'm sorry I asked! When you're ready to talk you know where to find me!"
She felt awful.
Red grabbed his pillow and blanket.
She frowned "where are you going?"
"To the couch. I'm obviously not wanted here."
She blocked his path "wait! I'm sorry I snapped."
Red looked at her.
Kitty reached up and cupped his face "it's not you Red. It's me."
She reached up and kissed him softly "don't go."
Red smiled and tossed the pillow and blanket on the bed.
"I know it's a little early but can we go to bed? I'm tired."
Red nodded "alright."
They laid in bed and spooned. She held his hand against her face and snuggled as close as she could get.
She whispered "Red?"
"Hmm?"
"Can we talk?"
He kissed the back of her head "sure."
She bit her lip and said "I found something."
Red said "found what?"
She said "a lump on my breast."
The dam broke. She turned around and buried her face in his chest. He froze. He could feel her body shake as she cried.
He waited until she calmed down and asked "are you sure?"
She nodded.
He closed his eyes and said "have you made a doctor's appointment?"
She bit her lip "no and I don't think I want to."
His eyes flew open "excuse me? You're making one!"
She pushed him away "you can't tell me what to do Red! This is my body. I've seen how the cancer treatment makes people feel. I don't know if I'm strong enough to go through that."
He gazed at her and said "we don't even know if you have it. It could be benign."
She sniffled "and if it's not..."
He said "then I'll be right there with you. Kitty, I don't want to lose you and have to raise these dumbasses alone."
He heard a small giggle and she playfully slapped his side "they're not dumbasses!"
He grinned.
She whispered "I guess I will make doctors appointment tomorrow."
Sternly, he said "you guess?"
She sighed "I mean I will."
He nodded "good girl."
She looked up at him and whispered "make love to me."
He leaned down and kissed her. He knew she needed him now more than ever and he was willing to give her whatever she needed.
He slid his hand under her shirt and right cupped her breast. As he massaged it sure enough there was the lump.
He felt her pause and she pulled back "you feel it to don't you?"
He gently pushed her on her back and looked her in the eyes "yes but I'm not going to let a lump keep me from pleasuring my wife."
He got a small smile out of her and proceeded to undress her. He finally got her shirt off and kissed her breasts. He slid his hand down her pants and cupped her. She whimpered. He slipped his finger inside her and rubbed her clit.
He quickly took her pants off and undressed himself. He placed himself at her entrance and coated himself in her juices. He pushed himself inside her and she cried out. He paused letting her adjust to his size. She wrapped her legs around his waist. She thrusted against him and began moving.
He kissed her and nibbled her bottom lip begging for entrance. She opened her mouth and he slipped in his tongue.
She whimpered and he began thrusting faster. He could sense she was close. She ripped her mouth away from his lips and screamed her husband's name "Red!"
He shot his seed deep inside her and grunted as he collapsed on top of her.
She panted and ran her fingers over his head as he nibbled at her neck. She sighed and closed her eyes "I love you Red."
He whispered against her ear "I love you too baby."
He rolled off of her and she snuggled up against him. He rubbed her shoulder and said "everything will be alright Kitty."
She whispered "I hope you're right."
He kissed her head "close your eyes and try to sleep. I'm here."
Red reached over and turned off the light. The moonlight came through the curtains and hit her face. He smiled and held her tightly. He breathing eventually evened out and he knew she was asleep.
He looked at her and up at the ceiling 'please let her be alright.'