A/N: So this story is plain angst from start to finish. What can i say? I'm addicted to the stuff. So this goes out to all the angst lovers out there. I know the first chapter isn't sad at all but it was just a sort of introductry thing but it'll get better. So yeah enjoy, read and reveiw.

Oh and the song for this chapter is "6 months" by Hey Monday. It's a great song and I love the lyrics so check it out if you don't already know it.

Disclaimer: Twilight isn't nor will it ever be mine. Life sucks dosen't it?

I was the first to arrive as usual. I always came early mostly just so I could be the first one to see him.

I know it's completely pathetic but that's just the way I feel.

Presently I was standing in the bar on Christmas Eve waiting for my best friend Edward to show up so that we could spend the evening together.

I had a crush on Edward since the day we met and my feelings for him kept growing stronger as the days passed by but for him we were just friends, nothing more.

I had never told him about my secret crush because I always thought it might end up ruining our friendship. Everyone could see how I felt about Edward except the subject in question.

Sometimes I thought that maybe he could see it but he purposefully ignored it.

I often wondered as I did now, what I would do if he didn't feel the same way about me.

Could I possibly move on?

But I cringed away from that thought, I could never do that, I was stuck being the best friend forever.

He never had a girlfriend and sometimes I teased him about it.

He always claimed that he was waiting for "The One" as he put it. The one who would love him just as much as he loved her, the one he could do anything for.

I secretly hoped that he would somehow see that I was the one but of course it was vain hope.

I knew Edward inside and out and I could tell that he thought of me nothing more then a friend.

Maybe someday…. Nah it was never going to happen and I knew it.

Oh well at least he didn't feel that way about someone else.

I could live with that.

I was lost in my thoughts and so was very surprised when I felt someone's hands cover my eyes and a velvety voice say, "Guess who?"

I laughed and turned around to face the god himself.

Honestly Edward's glory put the Greek gods to shame and I'm not even being biased.

He pulled me in to a hug and I felt the familiar spark of electricity which coursed through me every time he touched me.

How could he not feel that? It was so strong!

He surely had to have felt that.

Apparently he didn't feel it because he just pulled away to get a better look at me.

"My, my Isabella, how much you have grown."

I smacked him on the arm.

This was our inside joke.

I was really short. I mean no I wasn't that short, my height was normal but I always looked really small next to Edward and so he teased me about it every time.

But I loved the way my name sounded like music on his tongue.

He led me to a table and sat down opposite to me.

I could see the people in the bar looking at us.

Everyone thought that Edward and I were dating because we spent so much time together but no matter how much I wanted that to be true it wasn't, but today I vowed to myself that I would tell him how I felt.

I had written it down in my New Year's resolution every year for the past who knows how many years but I always shied away from it, but not this time.

Today was the day I would finally tell him.

I'll just let the chips fall where they may because I'm tired of pretending that I don't love him when I do.

After we had ordered our drinks we talked for a bit about our jobs and such.

I was a physicatrist because "I saw the stuff people never put in to words" as Edward once put it.

I can't say that I agree with that statement.

It's just that I always see people's emotions written clearly on their faces even if they tried to lie about it.

I guess I was just really observant or whatever.

But I found that it was really rewarding for me to help others. To be there for someone when there was no one there for them.

I can't really explain it right but all I can say is that I'd never want to be anything else.

Edward on the other hand followed in his father, Carlisle's, footsteps and he was now a well known doctor and was famous among the ladies partly because of his good looks.

I joked to Edward sometimes that if he ever had the misfortune to kill a lady he could just flash the corpse a smile and she would sit right up.

But he also found peace in the fact that he could save another persons life because of what he did. I guess Edward and I both found it rewarding for us to help others.

Can't he see how much we have in common? It's like we were destined to be together as corny as it sounds.

I have never really been a great believer in happy ever after's but when I was with Edward I felt like anything was possible.

When he and I were together we were in a different world altogether.

Yes we were surrounded by people but we were always some how separated from them.

I know that sounds horribly cheesy but that is just the way it is and I love each and every second of it.

I don't know what I ever did to deserve a friend like him, even if he doesn't love me. I desperately wanted to be near him. It was like a magnetic pull, something which simply can't be ignored. I will not ignore it any longer.

I deserve to be happy too right?

I hadn't dated any one in hope that maybe Edward would ask me out. But apparently that wasn't going to happen and I was going to have to take matters in to my own hands before it would be too late.

I knew that he could get any girl he wanted and he probably doesn't, nor will he ever want me but I couldn't stop small buds of hope from sprouting in my chest. Even if he didn't feel the same way what's the worst that could possibly happen?

It would be awkward for a while but we would still remain friends right?

I just had to tell him. I felt like it was something I needed to do, for almost three years I had been helping other people with their problems but I had been blatantly ignoring my own. It was time I had straightened this out. And who knows maybe it'll be okay after all.

After we had ordered our drinks, or rather he ordered it for me because he already knew what I wanted he turned to me and his face was all serious but I could see a hint of something in his eyes. Excitement maybe?

"Okay so Bella I have to ask you something really important."

I just nodded curious as to why he was being so formal about it. Maybe…., No I will not let myself hope for something which will only be crushed.

"I have to tell you something too." Yep that was my brilliant way to start to tell him I loved him. I can almost hear the Dun Dun Dunn in the background.

Anybody else hear it?

He raised his eyebrows questioningly but I told him to go first. What can I say? I was curious.

My heart almost stopped as he pulled out a light blue tiffany & co. box from his pocket and placed it in front of me.

Oh shit. I'm dreaming right? Crap I just hope I don't wake up before I get to open the box. Oh god please please don't let me wake up before I open the box. I will kill myself if I wake up now.

I pinched myself once just to make sure I was still awake because I do have some really convincing dreams. Ouch ok defiantly felt that, this is the real deal.

I couldn't stop the tears of joy which began pouring down my face, wait till I tell Renee and Esme, oh they will be so happy, they've been waiting for this to happen for years and Charlie and Carlisle will be simply over the moon with joy.

Mrs. Edward Cullen, I must say I like the sound of that.

"Open it Bella". His velvety voice broke through my thoughts. Oh come on as if I didn't already know what was in the box. Even an idiot would have been able to tell what it was.

I opened it anyway just to appease him and there sat the most beautiful engagement ring I had ever seen. It was simple yet elegant and there was simply no other way to describe it, the ring was Edward. It showed his taste in it.

At that moment I knew that I was one of the happiest person alive. Little did I know how very wrong I was.

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