Hello. This story idea came to me earlier tonight and I decided that I had to get it all written down. Don't you just love it when an idea pops into your head when your in the shower, and there is no way at all to write it down at that exact moment. Well here I am 2 hours later, and I still have a towel on my head. So I hope you like it. Ill try to update at least once a week.

The Twilight Series and all it's characters belong to Stephanie Meyer.

Why couldn't I get these thoughts out of my head. I love Emily, I imprinted on Emily. But lately all I could think about is Leah.

Its happening more and more often now, in my dreams, while walking, even when I was laying in bed with Emily..I just keep imagining Leah laying there next to me, just like it use to be.

Damn imprinting, such a painful, heartbreaking thing.

Luckly for me, since I am alpha, I can control my thoughts more around the other pack members when on patrol. Unfortunally for me, Leah is part of the pack, which as you can guess makes things soo much worse. Thank god I have not slipped up yet and let my thoughts wander into the others heads.

We all say, there are no secrets in the pack, I felt as if I was using my status as Alpha to my advantage..but at the same time what they don't know wont hurt them.

Emily walking into the house broke me from my train of thought, I looked up and smiled at my fiance.

"Hello dear, your home earlier that I expected. I thought you and Rachel would be out all day shopping?". Rachel was Jacob's sister and Paul's imprint, oh theres that blasted word again. Shaking my head I went back to listening to what Emily was saying, at least trying to look like I was somewhat interested, unfortunally she noticed my absent mindedness and called me out on it.

"Sam!, God you never listen to me anymore, it's like your somewhere else. This is rediculous, I cook, clean and do everything for you and you can't even listen to me!" She rolled her eyes at me and huffed, clearly very angry with me and then walked out of the room and into the kitchen. The sounds of pots and dishes clanking around violently warned me I was in alot of trouble.

I started tiding up the books and newpapers sitting on the coffee table when she yelled, " You know what, can you please just go for the night and think about what it is that is going on, because I dont understand and you wont talk to me anymore." Sighing I went upstairs, changed into a pair of shorts, went back downstairs, kissed emily on the cheek, she ignored me, not that I was suprised, and walked out the front door.

Once deep enough in the woods so that no one could see, I took off my shorts and phased. I needed to call a meeting, to ensure that tonight my thoughts would be to myself. I had alot to think about.

Letting out a loud howl to signal the rest of the pack, I layed down on the ground and waited.

After 10 minutes they all showed up, none of them were phased, knowing that this was going to be a short meeting. I phased back, pulled on my shorts and looked at them all, realizing that someone was missing.

"Wheres Jacob?" I looked at them waiting for an awnser, as if the awnser wasn't already obvious enough.

"Are you stupid, you know where he is, and you also know that he can't hear you from Bella's house." I looked up at the face of the only female there, her voice dripping with snarkyness and bitterness. She wasn't looking at me, she instead was looking up at a tree, leaning aganist a rock with her arms crossed. The expression on her face, a twisted,unhappy scowl, telling me she was trying to pretend that I didn't exist. But at the same time I thought she looked beautiful, even thought she acted no longer like the girl that I love...loved...who am I kidding, I still love her.

Ignoring her remark and presence, I adressed the rest of the pack, informing them that partols tonight are cancelled, a statement that got a happy reaction from every member of the group, and that I would be running patrol tonight alone.

After addressing that the meeting was over, I looked over to Embry.
"Embry can you please make you to let Jacob know about tonight, I'm sure he won't mind extra time with Bella."

Embry smiled and me and nodded, "Sure thing, thanks for a night off, Sam".

Soon after they all went back to the reservation, as it was late now, I finally had some alone time to think.

I walked through the woods for 7 hours, it now was 4 am, yet my mind was still racing. I knew how much I loved them both, but I could feel my love for Emily slowly dissolving, like a sugar cube in water. Our love felt artifical, forced and unconfortable. Wasn't Imprinting suppose to be perfect love? It had been at first, but now it felt like nothing.

My love for Leah had never felt like this, it had always been special and magical. Yet after mauling over this for hours, I knew what choice I had to make. I chose Emily, I made myself believe that we are just going through a rough patch right now and things would soon go back to normal. I also decided that what I felt for Leah was just pity for hurting her, though in my heart I knew that was not true, but it had to be, I had no choice. I did not love Leah, I could'nt love Leah.

It wasn't untill to late that I realised that someone else had been phased, and I was not keeping my thoughts to myself...I had thought I was alone. I turned around just in time to see the intruder phase back and run through the woods, dropping a basket that had been in there mouth. I could not make out who they were, that had been to far away to noticed the scent before they fled.

Walking over to the basket I sat beside it and phased back after noticeing a very familar lilac scent. My heart jumped into my throat as I bent down to pick up the basket, I knew then that they had heard everything I was thinking. Inside was four sandwiches and a bottle of water, along with a note saying

Sam, I know you have not eaten in a while so I decided to bring you a snack. Thank you for doing all of the partol tonight.

- Leah.