Spencers POV
The gun went off and sound of the shots rung in my ears. I tried to protect her from the bullet but I was to late. The doctor at the hospital said that the bullet pierced her lung and they were not sure if she would make it through the night. They hooked her on all of these machines that were breathing for her. As I sit by her bedside that night wondering what i even was doing there. The constant thought of everything that happened running through my head. Constantly asking myself "How could Ashley?". She woke up about a week later and started doing fine but things were never the same between us. Finaly, we broke up and went our seperate ways, I hear she got with Aiden and me well I still love her and havn't dated anyone the five years we've been apart. After we broke up i went back to Ohio and later began to attend LSU medical school. Yet to this day i still wonder how could Ashley. How could she just throw away everything we had for him? The friendship, the love, the good times all for him. I rember when we all use to go out in high school I should have known this would happen by the way they looked at each other. The look of wanting and lust. I saw her the other day on MTV from the looks of she made it big. For awhile i thought i was over her but when i saw her it all came back to me. How she hurt me. How she ripped out my heart and tore it to pieces. Its not that I blame it all on her because I dont. I constantly try to figure out why couldnt i please her? Why didnt she want me? What did i do wrong? Or maybe it had nothing to do with me at all. These questions and accusations are constantly running through my mind. Maybe one day I will ask her that but until that day they remain unanswered and unclarified. Until that day I blame myself for losing her for giving up on her and I will never forgive myself for that. Never forgive myself for letting the only woman that I will ever love go.
alright so im sorry that it is so short but comment and tell me what u honestly think and like idk tell me changes u think i should make...