A/N: Hey everyone! Here's my first story. I really hope you enjoy it. :)

TPOV

A flash or purple was all that I picture in my head. The stomach-wrenching sound that his body made as it struck the ground. These were the thoughts that would not leave my head. I turned my head so I could glance at the alarm clock. 2:37 A.M. Great.

It had been this way for the past few weeks. I lay in bed, unable to sleep, unable to eat, unable to breathe. It felt as if the entire world was caving down on me.

I had spent the last two months constantly crying to myself at night.

I would cry day and night, but I had more than just me to care about. I had Teddy. My Teddy. The only real thing I have left of Remus…

I left my resting place on my bed and walked across the room. It was dark so I held out my hands in front of me to protect myself from hitting any furniture.

I stubbed my toe on the leg of the crib. "Dammit" I swore under my breath as to not wake up the baby.

I looked down on Teddy in his crib. He was sound asleep.

He looked so much like his father.

A tear rolled down my cheek as the events of the past few weeks began to play through my head…

I was in an intense battle with Bellatrix. Curses were being cast everywhere. Colors of blue, red, purple, and green seemed to fill Hogwarts like a fireworks display. If I hadn't have been battling for my life, as well as the safety and security of future generations, I might have admired this beautiful display of colors.

Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Remus battling with Dolohov. I was terrified of what would happen to Remus if something went wrong. Dolohov was one of the original Death Eaters and was merciless.

I turned toward Bellatrix for just a moment and shouted a curse in her direction.

"Stupefy!" Damn! I missed.

I returned my focus back to my husband to see him struck by Dolohov's curse. The purple lightning hit him right below is heart. He staggered backwards and then his knees buckled as he fell to the floor.

I screamed in horror and pain as I watched my one true love die. I ran to him while Molly yelled at me. "Tonks! Watch out! She's right behind you!"

I couldn't care less what would happen to me. All I wanted to do is to be by my Remus' side.

I threw myself to the floor as I wept beside my husband. He still felt warm to the touch. Was he gone? No. NO. I tried to get him to get up but it was to no avail. He was gone.

I got up from beside him. "DOLOHOV!" I screamed. I was going to kill him.

I scanned the chaos and spotted him dueling with Flitwick. I began to run towards them when Flitwick released a bolt of red light from his wand that hit Dolohov squarely in the chest. It was too loud to hear what curse Flitwick had cast, but it appeared to cause Dolohov much pain.

I hope he was dead. If he wasn't, I sure as hell was going to be the one to take his life.

Duels were happening all around me as spells bounced around the room. I felt lightheaded as the room began to spin. Was this a dream?

I collapsed on the floor and looked over my shoulder to Remus' limp body. I crawled over to him, wishing he would just wake up so we could return home to our son.

But he didn't awake.

I curled up next to him, wishing I was dead as well. I closed my eyes as I wept.

I must have blacked out because before I knew it, Harry had placed a hand on my shoulder. "Tonks? Are you okay?"

"OKAY?" I snapped, "I'm lying next to my dead husband and you ask me if I am OKAY?"

"I'm sorry. Even though all I've been surrounded by is death and destruction, I never know quite what to say"

I looked at Harry. He was a mess. A tear seemed to well up in his eye. I knew how fond Harry was of Remus. Remus vowed to always be there to care for Harry, but now, he was gone.

I looked away from the boy and back to my love. I felt like crying, but no matter how hard I tried, the tears just did not seem to fall.

"Where is everyone else?" I asked. The room was almost empty, apart from a few scattered bodies of deceased Death Eaters.

Harry gulped and looked at the floor. "They… um… They're trying to console Molly."

My heart stopped. "Who is it?"

"Fred."

Finally, the tears seemed to return to my eyes. The thought of losing a son… It was unbearable.

"I don't want to leave him." I said as I laid my hand upon his.

"You don't have to. Not right now at least."

I stared at Remus' face. So peaceful and serene. It made me wonder what his last thoughts were. Me? Teddy? I'm not sure.

"Remus? Remus, honey? Wake up." I whispered, "Remus? Remus? Remus?..."

The rest of that night was a blur. A hazy memory that felt surreal. The next thing I knew, I was at my house, staring out of a window.

My mother sat in a rocking chair across the room, holding Teddy. He looked so peaceful that I almost did not want to say anything as to disturb him.

"Mom?" My throat was dry and hoarse. Talking felt unnatural.

"Oh Nympadora! You're talking again. This is great!" My mother sounded happy but the look of pain was clearly all over her face.

"What do you mean talking again?" I tried to think back to what had happened but everything was so fuzzy. Like it was a dream. Was it a dream?

My mother placed a hand on my arm. "Darling, it's been five days. You've just stood there without a word for the past five days. It was almost like… like…"

"Like what mother?"

"Like you were waiting on him to come back."

The image of Remus lying on the floor returned to my head. I shuddered trying to think of anything else to get the horrifying picture out of my head.

I looked down into my mother's arms and looked at my baby.

"May I?", as I outstretched my arms.

My mother passed Teddy to me and I held him close to me. I gazed into his smiling eyes and all I felt was pain. It was like looking at a very small Remus.

"I… I can't. Take him?" I asked, as I gave the infant back to his grandmother.

Tears started to flow down my cheeks as I returned to my post by the window.

My mother went to lay Teddy in his crib and then moved over to me.

Embracing me in a hug, she said "Nymphadora, you just went through one of the most difficult things you will ever experience. I know how it feels to lose the love of your life. Your father was taken not long ago."

My mother's words stung as I remembered my father Ted. Were her words supposed to soothe me?

"You need time to grieve" she continued, "But, you must remember that you have to take care of little Teddy, as well as yourself."

I stared out of the window. I couldn't think of anything to say. Anything I wanted to say. All I wanted was to be left alone.

Eventually my mother took the hint as she slowly backed out of the room.

I thought of everything I had left in front of me. Raising a child? On my own? Even with Remus by my side this task had seemed impossible. I had no idea how I would be able to manage this…

A/N: How will Tonks cope with Lupin's death? Next chapter Tonks remembers her final conversation with Remus. :( Kinda cried a little writing it. I'm going to try and post regularly every Wednesday or so. Don't forget to R&R. :)