Eh… I've been feeling a bit down lately for personal reasons hence the light angst in the beginning of this songfic. Song is "Pale" by Within Temptation. Sorry if it seems short and sucks.

Pale

It has been the same ever since that day we were revived back into this cruel world. Every evening, she would come over to my apartment so I could help her with her studies. I'd tease her a bit here and there. She'd blush and yell at me like usual. However, something was missing. I felt… distant. Or rather, that SHE was becoming more distant with me… like she was avoiding me.

Then I found out one night… apparently, she had been seeing another girl… a new 'friend', according to her. She had been seeing that girl more than she sees me.

I tell myself that we're just friends.

The world seems not the same
Though I know nothing has changed

But in my mind, I'd like to think we're more than that… then again, I'm the one who's in love, not her. Love can make you delusional sometimes as proven.

It's all my state of mind
I can't leave it all behind

Tonight, she didn't come at all. Instead all I got was a text message saying she's out with that girl again. I could feel my heart breaking.

I have to stand up to be stronger

I felt so sick to my stomach, due to my biggest fear overwhelming me. The fear of losing her forever. The fear of her forgetting me. But then I remind myself that we're not even dating. She's not mine. She's allowed to have friends and hang out with whoever she wishes.

I have to try to break free
From the thoughts in my mind

Another text message from her. This one… I never expected to hear from her.

'I miss you. Please wait for me later. I need to talk to you.'

Use the time that I have
I can't say goodbye

I felt a bit better, but my mind still lingered on the fears. A drink would help me probably. I went to my room to change into a casual outfit. After, I grabbed my wallet and keys then left my apartment. Where bittersweet memories remained where they belong. It wasn't a long drive to a club I've been visiting a lot lately since she made a new friend.

Have to make it right
Have to fight, 'cause I know
In the end, it's worthwhile

The music played loudly, drowning out various conversations and laughter. I know it's hard to picture me in a place like this, but I do enjoy my freedom too, you know. I can be a bad girl too, mind you.

That the pain that I feel slowly fades away
It will be alright

Actually, think of this as my little 'runaway' place, where I find my solace.

I know, should realize
Time is precious, it is worthwhile

I smiled a small yet genuine smile. My favorite band was playing right now. All I needed was my favorite drink then I'm good to go.

Despite how I feel inside
Have to trust it will be alright
Have to stand up to be stronger

White Russian, now that's one delicious beverage. I'd chug it down, lick my lips and get up like I have done for the last few days. As the song played on, I headed towards the dance floor where a large crowd of bodies swayed along, dancing to the music. I easily became one of them and let my body follow the bass as I danced without a care in the world.

Oh, this night is too long
I have no strength to go on
No more pain, I'm floating away

Completely lost in the song, I had my eyes shut as I resumed dancing along. I could feel the effects from the alcohol kicking in, just a bit but I didn't care. I felt good right now. Then I felt a pair of arms snaking around my waist, throwing me off guard. I figured it was just some lust-ridden guy wanting to get into my pants. Disgusted, I turned around and started to tell the guy off… but except, it wasn't just some guy. It was her.

My Natsuki.

Through the mist, I see the face
Of an angel, who calls my name

"Shizuru…" Emerald hues bore into my eyes, they were ablaze with something I have never seen. Something good. "…I love you. Please… don't leave me."

I finally cried. For the first time in a long time… I was happier than ever. She whispered soothing words in my ear and held me close. I held on tight to her and never let go till the song ended.

I remember… you're the reason I have to stay

-Fin-