A/N: all right. this is short preview of a story that i want to write... i don't know if it will be something but i thought i'd try.. so yeah. WARNING: i'm planning to make this story a MPREG fic. got it? this would be my first mpreg and i'm curious if i could actually do something good so yeah here we are.. if you don't like it then you are free to go i don't care too much..

there aren't much information given to you in this first chapter but there will be shit going down soon so if you are interested hit follow .. ok? yeah.

thanks for your attention :)

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Chapter 1

The last thing he needed now was getting his blood pressure up too high, so Kendall breathed in and out deeply while speaking to Logan, his friend, on the phone. "Let's just cancel it, bro. I can't make it there. James has other plans. He fucking fucks up everything lately. I wanted it to be one of the best nights ever, you know. I'm too tired for his shit now. He's fucked this up. We cancel, okay?"

"Sure thing, Kendall. I'm sorry. I've been waiting this day since forever."

"I know, me too." Kendall lowered his voice. He didn't want James to hear any of this. "I'll just let things calm down. I'll try again a few weeks later."

They said their goodbyes and then Kendall put his head onto the table in front of him. It was tough for him to not cry.

"Who did you talk to?" James stood in the door.

Looking up Kendall was a little pale but James was at the moment too big of an asshole to notice it and worry about his boyfriend's well being. "No one."

"Yeah? To me it sounded like I just ruined some important plans with this no one." He didn't move, just stood firmly like he was a built in furniture in their house.

"Don't make shit up, James. You know what plans I had."

"I'm not sure anymore. You were going to get together with someone, weren't you?" Jealousy was a good friend of James'.

"Yeah. I was going to bring you to somewhere we usually don't go just so I can meet someone I don't want you to meet. Do you really think I'm that fucking stupid?"

"I don't think you are stupid." James sighed. "But I know well that if your family is there they could keep me busy while you busy yourself with someone else." He was so calm that it literally disturbed the hell out of Kendall.

"This must be a fucking joke!" Kendall stood pushing the chair aside and about to storm out of the kitchen. He'd had just about enough of James' insane ideas about him cheating.

James stared at his boyfriend speechless, unable to recognize just what he said that got Kendall so mad. "Now what are you even doing?" He grabbed Kendall's arm to stop him from leaving without an explanation.

"What am I doing?" Kendall whispered not losing eyecontact with James. "What ARE YOU doing?" He shouted into James' face. "I told you I wanted to go to Roses tonight, I told you it weeks ago! That's my fucking favorite place in the world and we never go there because it's not a place where the Mr. Fuck-Me-I'm-Making-Every-Decision-In-Our-Life James Diamond would go."

"Don't be so fucking emotional!" James let go of Kendall. "We could go anywhere else but why just there? What's in that place that makes you want to be there?! Is there a hot dude you want to fuck huh?!"

"Just my mother, you asshole! You know I've been looking for her for over ten years. I've finally found her but rather than helping me face the problems you choose to stay out of it. I fucking hate that in you!"

"Oh yeah?" James' anger grew. He hated when Kendall cursed at him.

"Oh yes!" Kendall groaned. "That place is fucking awesome but you don't ever want to make a fucking effort for us. Rather than that you just fucking make up shit and make me get out of every situation badly! We keep fighting because you're so fucking stubborn! I've never cheated on you! I love you! But you're being so stupid about us! I don't even know why we are together at all. You don't want our families to get together, you don't want us to be out in the open. You want to hide me from the world like I am a fucking mistake!"

"You're not a mistake, Kendall, shut the fuck up!" Having heard just enough James couldn't stop himself from pushing Kendall up the wall and kissing him strongly, in his own way letting him know just how much loved him and how much he couldn't live without him.

But Kendall moaning pushed James off of him. "Words mean nothing at the moment. Things have changed, James. We're not teenagers anymore, and our families would like it if we just were finally happy, this way or another."

"They don't like me." James turned away like he was ashamed. "They will never like me."

"I'm sure they like you if they see just how happy you make me." Kendall kept trying. "Please James, let's go there."

For a short moment Kendall thought he had convinced James. There was something in James' eyes that told Kendall he wanted to do it, but then his mouth said the opposite thing. "I can't."

"And just how do you imagine this relationship working in the future if you can't do this?" Kendall asked taking a step back from his boyfriend. Slowly moving towards the door he could already hear James' answer. I don't know. That was the only fucking thing James kept repeating. For Kendall it had been fine that way for a while, but it was time it had to stop. James couldn't always run. It was time for Kendall to run. So that may open up James' eyes. He was going to learn how freaking much it could break a person when someone was running from them all the time.

"I don't know."

"I thought so." Kendall sighed already in the door, ready to get out and not come back for a while. "Then it's unnecessary to keep trying. I don't even want to imagine a future like that anymore." With that Kendall quickly made it out of the house.

"Wait, Kendall!" James yelled but never made a move to come after him. Words mean nothing. Though it nearly broke Kendall's heart, he walked out on James and after jumping in to his car, he drove away.