A/N: Hopefully this can tie you over until the next update of Try to See it My Way. I promise I'm working on it.

I was thinking about Season 7 "Hit (Part 1)" and "Run (Part 2)" and I came up with this, I haven't seen the episodes since they first aired so forgive me for any discrepancies.

Edit: This has been fixed since originally posted the idea is the same just some slight reworking has been done.

Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds

Summary: Their chance had been there; ready for the seizing but one false move had broken two hearts almost a one year ago.

Wanting You Instead

"There's a love between us still. But something's changed and I don't know why."

JJ knew she should be packing her bags for the evening after a long, exhausting case; as the thought of heading out for the night was looming over her head. She didn't want to go home because she knew that her one year wedding anniversary was soon approaching and Will kept insisting they go away to celebrate. So instead JJ relaxed back in her chair at her desk to work on another case file but as she did so her mind began to wander.

The blonde knew that she shouldn't have agreed to marry Will in the first place. They had been doing perfectly fine for around five years with an arrangement that involved minimal commitment. It was perfect, especially with their careers. They were simply there to lend an ear or a shoulder after a tiring case with the possibility of something more but never expected. It's what they had agreed upon until she had gotten pregnant, and even then, they lived together but really it was only for Henry's sake. Will had tried to make their relationship more serious, but that was never what JJ wanted. Sure, Will was a great guy, he was her friend and he had given her Henry, and for that she would always be grateful. But she had never felt that he would be her forever.

Before that crazy bitch unsub decided to come in and tear JJ's life apart, she and Will had settled into a routine. They were no longer in love, which had been acknowledged by both parties. It was just easier to not mess with the status quo. When JJ was at work, Will was home with Henry and vice versa. Will had even taken up sleeping in the guest room. At this point, it was basically two roommates that had a child together.

In the first few years of Henry's life, Will had proposed multiple times, but the frequency of his proposals had dwindled to only once a year after Henry's second birthday. Will claimed he wanted to do right by her. But JJ continually shut him down each time because she knew deep down inside he was not the right person for her.

He was not the person that made her heart speed up every time she saw them. He was not the one she wanted to hold her. And he wasn't the one she wanted to grow old with. That spot in her heart was reserved for someone else. So why had she agreed to marry him?

It must have been that whole hectic day, the threat of losing Henry, Will and Emily all combined. It played with her emotions and ruined her mental state. In retrospect, she realized she could have lost everyone that meant something to her. So when Will had brought up marriage, JJ had seen it as a sort of way to never lose someone. Although with her work she knew that marriage was not the simple prevention of disaster and as the saying goes, "sometimes bad things happen to good people". For some reason JJ threw herself into the man's arms almost in hope that cementing them together as a family could protect and shield Henry away from future danger.

Now JJ found herself married to a man she didn't love. It seemed everyone in her life was happy with her decision; well almost everyone. Her mother was pleased to see her daughter finally wed, the woman kept bringing up the idea. Hotch and Morgan were the protective, yet pleased big brothers, and Rossi the proud uncle. Even Reid was glad and everyone knew that Penelope Garcia was the happiest woman alive on that day, even happier than the bride, simply because she was involved with a wedding.

Only Emily had seemed dejected. JJ knew that she had had a rough day with a near death experience to add to the brunette's very long and depressing list. Maybe Emily had just faced death too many times and was reaching her breaking point. It happened to many good agents. JJ had seen it multiple times before.

Although during the day Emily had seemed content, even when Penelope had told JJ of Emily's offer to run the London field office for Interpol. The technical analyst had been the one to help Emily come to the decision that she was going to remain at the BAU, even though she was having a rough time. Penelope had then accidently spilled the beans to JJ in hopes of getting the worried mother to calm down. So when Emily was dancing with the members of her team like it was the last time she would see them, JJ knew that somehow, for some reason, Emily had changed her mind.

At first for the life of her, JJ could not figure it out, and for a profiler that may seem pathetic. Then it hit JJ towards the end of the evening. The only thing that had changed after they apprehended their suspect was the proposal and spur of the moment wedding. It had to have been the wedding that had offset the brunette.

JJ knew she shouldn't have married him because it was the action that sent Emily to London, it broke her family in two, and it tore them apart. It destroyed her and her heart.

As JJ sat at her desk missing the brunette, she knew that if she could redo that day a year ago she would only switch one thing. It would not be when she kicked the shit out of their crazy unsub, it wouldn't even be her wedding. The only thing she would amend would be the person waiting at the end of the isle for her.

Instead the brunette woman that would forever hold JJ's heart would be waiting, and wishing for the blonde from across the ocean.