Dear Maxie,
I pretend that I'm glad you went away, that I've gotten my freedom back. However, I spend my nights alone in our old apartment staring at nothing and these four walls close in more every day. Still like a clown I put on a show, the pain is real, I'm crying inside and it hurts when I breathe. Longing for home again, but home is a feeling I buried in you.
All I can think about is what I could have done or said differently, why didn't I say the things I needed to say? How could I let my angel get away, now my world is tumbling down. I can see it so clearly but you're nowhere around. The nights are lonely, the days are so sad and I just keep thinking about the love that we had and I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me.
How blue can I get, you could ask my heart, just like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart. A million words couldn't say just how I feel, a million years from now, you know, I'll be loving you still.
Watched my life pass me by in the rear-view mirror. Pictures frozen in time are becoming clearer. I don't want to waste another day stuck in the shadow of my mistakes. I've been dying inside little by little. Nowhere to go I'm going outta my mind. An endless circle runnin' from myself.
I'm falling fast, barely breathing. Take what's left of this man and make me whole once again. Cause I want you and I feel you crawling underneath my skin. Like a hunger, like a burning to find the place I've never been. Now I'm broken, and I'm faded and I'm half the man I thought I would be. You can have, all that's left of me if you'll have me.
All my love,
Alec