A/N
Hey! This is my first Glee fanfiction, but the third one written... If that make sense. They way I work is when I write a multi-chapter fanfiction i write the WHOLE thing before I post it.
Anyway... this was inspired my Hunter Hays music video for Invisible.
Rachel POV.
I find out I have to walk home after school all this week this morning, but the only problem is that it's a 30 minutes walk to the house and it's snowing outside. I know they don't realize that…
I get to school and I go through my day as normal… and the day was normal to me too. A name call here and name call there and slushie there…
Finally Glee came. the only place I feel like I am viewed like an equal.
I find out that Vocal Adrenaline is doing Gaga, so Mr. Shue make that our assignment.
I sit down at Mr. Shue talks and everyone kept calling me names. Just like they did all day today. I know Mr. Shue is not going to say anything, so I do it myself.
"Just because I may be better than you, doesn't mean you can call me names!"
They all start yelling more than they were before. I just feel like I should be invisible right now, but instead of just sitting there I grab my stuff and storm off and walk home.
"Rachel!" Mr. Shue calls out for me, but I ignore him and continue out the school doors.
I finally get home to an empty and cold house. I turn on the heater and go off into my room and find my journal. My special Journal that I keep hidden from everyone because it shows just how I really am.
I write:
Monday, December 15, 2009
Dear mom,
Hey it's me again it's been three years since I started this and 4 journals are written through and used and re-read. Now i starting to carry around a binder with all of these entries in them wherever I go. And this is all for us. For me mostly. I just feel like if I "pretend" to write this and make it out to you it makes it much better.
I really want to meet you instead of just writing to you… anyways… today… right today…well, today was a normal day. You know, a name call here a name call there, a slushie there. When i got to Glee I thought it would be a better environment, but I guess not. I sang, and they all called me names! I know it's just the 3rd rehearsal, but still! And Mr. Shue doesn't know what to do except stand there and look stupid! I don't know what to do! I guess I'll just act invisible for a couple days.
Dads told me that I have to walk home every day of the week until school is out for winter break, which is the 20th, and I have to make dinner by myself because they are working extra to get more money. It's winter and its cold and when I get home the house is a freezer and it's just… That's why I need you, and I don't know where to start looking for you. Yes, I have the recording I listen to it every day. :) I don't know where you live or anything… just your voice… and let you voice lead the way.
with love and care, your daughter,
Rachel
I finish my homework and make dinner and listen to the type a couple more times before i fall asleep.
~~~~~~~~~~ 3 days later~~~~~~~~~~~~
Normal day minus the slushie, which I am glad for because it make me that much warmer.
I was on my way to Glee when it hit me. We NEED to go and watch Vocal Adrenaline practice today! I grab the first two people I can find and that was Quinn and Mercedes.
"Hey we need to go watch Vocal Adrenaline practice today!" I say. luckily they nod their heads and say:
"I'm in!"
We to the high school and go to the top balcony and watch. The coach is working them hard.
"She's good." I hear her on the stage say.
"Do I need to demonstrate?" Silence "Funny Girl Eb."
"Exactly what i would do. Barbra. I could do it in my sleep." And thats when she starts singing. I heart starts beating out of my chest. I stand up and walk to the stairs I hear Mercedes and Quinn call me back, but i ignore them.
I let her finish the song, then I start to speak. "Ms. Corcoran? I'm Rachel Berry. I'm your daughter." I finish. She looks say and happy at the same time.
She looks at VD and says "Work on this in the dance room I want it perfect or you will be punished."
She waits for everyone to leave. I just stand there and wait until the last person leaves the room. Even Quinn and Mercedes are gone.
I walked to the stage, and I hug her. She immediately puts her arms around me and pulls me in for a tight hug. I feel like I could be here forever.
"honey?"
"Yes?" I ask
"Happy birthday." I started to cry
"You remembered?"
"Of course I did! I couldn't stop thinking about you!" We both start to cry.
"I have something for you… Please wait here." I jog away and get my binder of everything and get back to the auditorium. She is still on the stage. "Here." I hand her the binder and smile. she flips through it and looks in awe. "I started this 4 years ago when my dads started to work more often. I was lonely and i had no one to talk to, so i started writing letters to you and would say that you would know everything that I wrote, so thats what I did. I wrote a letter almost every week. I would write everything good and bad that had happened to me over the years."
"I'll read all of it." She says. "And I'll call you when i do and we can get together. Sounds good?"
"Yes." I smile
we walk out and I wrap my arm around her bent elbow.
"Do you need a ride home?" I look around the parking lot. seeing Quinn and Mercedes left.
"Yeah. My friends left me…" She smiles and walks to her car and I hop in. She drive me home and when we get to my house. I get out and go to the drivers side and just hug her. I am so glad she is here.
~~~~~~ 3 Days later ~~~~~~~~
I know that school is at winter break, but I am happy. I know who my mother is. I haven't told my dads yet… I may never tell them, but I am gonna have to soon.
My phone starts to ring and I get nervous. My dads are working right now, so that's good I guess. I answer it.
"Hello?"
"Rachel?"
"Mom! Hey!"
"Hey. I finished every single one of that journal. I want to meet at my house. I'll pick you up in an hour."
"Ok sound good! See ya then!"
"Ok Bye Sweetie."
"Bye Mommy."
I get dressed to go and see my mother in her house. I wonder what she wants to do and talk about.
There is a honk at the door and i run out the door and jump in the car and we ride to her house. Its very large. And beautiful.
We get inside and she shows me around. 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms and its very large! one of the rooms was made into a singing room. And to no surprise that were we end up staying the whole time.
"I am so sorry about what has been happening to you your whole life, and I couldn't help, but think that it's all my fault that you are going through this everyday."
"It's not your fault! trust me."
"I want to sing this song to you that I prepared just for everything that is happening in your life." she starts to sing.
Crowded hallways are the loneliest places
For outcasts and rebels
Or anyone who just dares to be different
And you've been trying for so long
To find out where your place is
But in their narrow minds
There's no room for anyone who dares to do something different
Oh, but listen for a minute
Trust the one
Who's been where you are wishing all it was
Was sticks and stones
Those words cut deep but they don't mean you're all alone
And you're not invisible
Hear me out,
There's so much more to life than what you're feeling now
Someday you'll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
Oh, invisible
So your confidence is quiet
To them quiet looks like weakness
But you don't have to fight it
'Cause you're strong enough to win without a war
Every heart has a rhythm
Let yours beat out so loudly
That everyone can hear it
Yeah, I promise you don't need to hide it anymore
Oh, and never be afraid of doing something different
Dare to be something more
Trust the one
Who's been where you are wishing all it was
Was sticks and stones
Yeah, the words cut deep but they don't mean you're all alone
And you're not invisible
Hear me out,
There's so much more of this life than what you're feeling now
And someday you'll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
These labels that they give you
just 'cause they don't understand
If you look past this moment
You'll see you've got a friend
Waving a flag for who you are
And all you're gonna do
Yeah, so here's to you
And here's to anyone who's ever felt invisible
Yeah, and you're not invisible
Hear me out,
There's so much more to life than what you're feeling now
And someday you'll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible
It'll be invisible
I was crying and so was she. We hug each other and we don't want to let go a all. I don't think she wants to ever want to let go of me. I don't want to let go of her.
"I think it's time i tell my dads about you." I tell her.
"I think its a good idea." she says
I call me dads and put them on speaker.
This is Leroy
Hey dad!
Hey Rachel! Is something wrong?
No nothing is wrong. but -
No buts! I told you not to call me at work unless something is wrong.
Just hear me out! It will be quick!
Ok go on…
Ok i know who my mother is!
Who is it this time?
Me. Shelby cuts in.
Oh… Hey Shel…
Hey ya… that's what is important.
Ok good. Hiram and I want you take Rachel because she is not very happy with us because we are not home all the time.
Really? We both say as the same time.
Yes please. Go to the house and get all of her stuff, and we will get a lawyer on this tomorrow and you'll have be by Christmas.
Ok thanks Leroy. Goodbye
Goodbye dad!
Bye.
We hung up and we hug we are finally united.
A/N Don't forget to Review and give me feedback on my story... edits and how to get better... this is my third fanfiction, so I am still fresh. I could use any help I can get.