My Prison, My Curse
By Bonekhan123
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Rated PG-13 for some implied rape.
I try to talk, but no words come out.
I try to breath, but my lungs will not.
I try and move but I can not break free.
This is my prison, to contain me. My curse to control me.
I was put here when I betrayed the Titans.
I was put here when I broke Beast Boy's heart.
I was put here for following Slade.
The thought of his name would make my blood boil if I wasn't trapped here.
I was confused, my powers were new, and I was trying to control them.
I sought help, and found the Titans, but I also met Slade.
I thought he was there to help, and he did for awhile.
But it got too out of control.
I remember that, in between practice sessions, he had brushed his hand between her thighs, or some other places.
And they night he had pushed her on the bed, removing her clothes in the process and…
She would have shuddered if she wasn't encased in this stone.
She was foolish, she had betrayed her only friends, showed her allegiance to that bastard Slade.
She missed them all so much.
Robin, the leader of the group, strong and agile, charming and strategic. He was the leader for a good reason and, although always showing some signs of suspicion, was trustworthy.
He had trusted her, and she had still betrayed them.
Then Starfire, so innocent, so pure. The orange-skinned Tameranian was probably the least to expect Terra's betrayal. She was the fun-loving one, and Terra had often enjoyed her company.
And Cyborg, he was like a brother to her, like a brother to them all. Caring, passionate, and always concerned for their well being, there was truly a heart behind his metal exterior.
But Raven, on the other hand, was not like any of the others. She was always mysterious, the calm cynic, Terra had always imagined she would be the most likely to turn on the Titans. She kept to herself a lot, seldom parting from her room.
One part of her wanted to tell her that Raven was jealous of Terra and Beast Boy, but another part said that she could not feel emotions, and yet another part said that that again was not true.
The answer was as difficult as getting three halves to make a whole, but she would probably never know now.
And then lastly there was Beast Boy. She had loved him more than any of the other Titan's, loved his wit, jokes, charm, everything about him just made her love him.
They had went out on a date once, she had even told him about Slade and he hadn't told…
How could she have ever broken a bond like that?
She would probably never know what had driven her to do the things she did, but she could take guess; but that was all they were, guesses.
She had seen the way Beast Boy had looked at Raven, and she may have acted out of spite. But Raven couldn't love, it just didn't make sense…
Some things were better left unknown, a line that Raven had once said to her.
Even though Raven didn't show it, she sensed the psion could feel, but just didn't want to. Her powers were controlled by emotions after all, and keeping them check could be the difference between the extinction of the human race, or the life of the Titan's.
This was here prison. She imagined what it would be like if she hadn't betrayed the Titans. Would Beast Boy still love her? There were so many questions, and infinite time to boggle over them.
This was her road to redemption, paying for her sins, for her mistakes. Maybe one day she could live again, maybe not. She had betrayed the Titans, she was paying for it.
This was her prison, her curse.
-Bonekhan123