A/N Hi guys! This is my very first time ever publishing a story of mine... so please help a fellow writer out. I figured for my first ever published story I would take my tragic year and turn it into a story and use Jace and Clary as my lead characters. I do not own these character and some parts of the story but most of the story are my memories that I am sharing with you all. Now this story I must warn will throw some people back into their preteen years because the songs I have listed to use for Clary's new musician life are Avril Lavigne and some Gwen Stafani songs. Haha what can I say the preteen in me can't let them go. Much love 3
Clary's POV
It was raining hard and with each drop banging against the window pain was deepening the sadness in my heart. I'm trying to get better as the weeks go by especially since I am no longer responsible for just my life. Except I cannot stop the what ifs and the "How could I have let this happen" thoughts that race through my mind. How did things get so bad? I thought he loved me… I thought we were forever but I guess I was wrong. I guess I was too far up fairytales ass to see the reality of my life.
"Get over yourself Clary. Pick your ass up off the floor and finish packing and get on with your new life." I muttered to myself. I had less than 12 hours to finish packing my life before I left this place for good. I finally got signed at a record studio and am about to take off on my new career. I laid my hands on my stomach where my new additions of life were growing. But no matter how hard I try to lock away the past I couldn't stop the memories from taking over…
FLASHBACK
5 months prior
"Come on Izzy I need to hurry home before he gets there! It will ruin the surprise if he beats us there!" I huffed.
"Hmph Clary he won't beat us there Simon told me they're busy with practice right now so slow your ass down before you run into something" Izzy sighed.
"Isabel Lightwood I can not believe you are the one who isn't more excited over this!" I said as I hurried up the steps of the institute. We reached the foyer and began to head to his room when we heard a scream come from that direction. We looked at each other worriedly and ran to his room. I flung the door open and was shocked to see what was in front of me. All feeling left me as my heart began to break into a million pieces…
"WHAT. THE. FUCK." Izzy growled.
There in front of us was no other than Jace Herondale-Lightwood and Aline Penhollow in bed naked and all I can do is stare with a blank face. Stare at the boy who was supposed to be my forever. The boy who claimed I was his light and his only love.
"Izzy… Cla-Clary what are you doing here.." Jace asked nervously.
"I'm gonna… um.. ya.." Aline pointed behind her and escaped to the bathroom but before she made it to the door I finally found my voice.
"No Aline don't. Sorry for barging in we heard a scream and didn't realize it could be from this. I just came to drop this off. Izzy and I will be leaving." My voice sounded dead, Izzy flinched from hearing it. Jace wouldn't even look at me while Aline threw on Jace's robe. I slowly walked over to the man who killed me and handed him the present I had once been excited to give him. He slowly extended his hand out and took it from me. I was careful to not let our skin touch. He slowly lifted his beautiful gold eyes to mine and I knew if I didn't leave I would lose it.
"Happy Birthday" I said and turned around and walked out the door. Izzy stayed behind and I could hear her shouting profanities at the two but I didn't care. I made it to my room and packed what little belongings I had and left everything that touched Jace. Pictures, drawings, presents, clothes all left wherever they lay and I wrote letters to my parents, Simon, Alec, Magnus, and Izzy and placed them on my bed and left New York and the institute behind.
END OF FLASH BACK
No one new about my babies.. Not even Simon but that's okay. Maybe one day they will meet them but right now I just can't face them. Right now I have to think about my kids' life and my own. I got up from off the floor of my apartment and brushed off all the negative energy and dust and finished packing what was left of my things.
"Tomorrow babies we will be in Tennessee and mommy will have a better job for the 3 of us… Mommy loves you more than life." I said as I smiled down at my bulging belly. The only good that came from all of this. 5 more months till these monsters and my singing career take off and our new life begins. I didn't get the happy ending I thought I was going to have but I guess I'll just have to figure out how this new one will be.