We were never close before you left,
But now you're gone and I'm hopeless,
I'll never understand why you left,
The words you left with I'll always remember,
"The pain, it's always been there",
I never told what happened that day,
And that's how I wanted it to stay.
And now you're back after all these years,
I don't know what to feel,
Pain, regret, happiness, sadness, joy,
But still I can't move,
I'm hopeless when you're in the same room,
It's like I was drowning and you came to help,
You offered me you're hand,
And helped me up,
I could never confess I wanted you so much.
Now I can't have you,
It makes me want you more,
Now you're out of my reach,
Im drowning worse then before,
Now you're taken,
And I am so lost,
So here I go,
My last effort,
My last words,
Im gonna say it,
"I love you"
You standing there shocked made it all worse,
"You don't have to say anything, because the truth is that I'm leaving"
I can't stay here any longer,
The memories are dragging me under,
At that point I turned away,
Afraid of what he might say,
I turned away from his deep blue eyes,
And did the hardest thing in my life,
I walked away from the love of my life,
I could never hear him say those words,
No matter how much I wanted him to,
I could never be as good as her,
I was no saint, no use to anyone,
What did I think he saw in me,
I know,
I wish he would say he loved me,
I began the slow decend of the stairs,
Not looking back afraid of this.
I felt something warm around my wrist,
And my whole world began to twist,
"Just let me go" I screamed at him,
Hearing his voice would make it all the worse,
I tried to tear away from the hold he had on my heart,
But with his firm grip he kept it locked up tight,
"I love you" he whispered in my ear,
I spun around and met his gaze,
His deep blue eyes sparkling with emotion I couldn't gauge,
"I love you" he whispered again,
I peered deep into his soul,
I saw my angel,
My everything,
My soulmate.