Bring Me Back To What I Use To Be

By: LovelessLady17

Chapter One: No Longer Alone

Sora Takashi swung his feet from the balcony of his room. His sapphire eyes were flooded with sadness and his hands were clenching and unclenching simultaneously. The idea of jumping was a heavy weight in his mind, but he couldn't seem to move his body off the edge. Recently returning from all his missions, the poor brunette felt cold and alone. Kairi was no longer willing to be his friend, saying he was just a dead weight she didn't want to deal with, and Riku rejected him more than once, saying he didn't want or deserve his kindness and annoyance. Tears streaked down Sora's face when he learned that his parents were dead, but no one gathered him into a hug, like he wanted, and something just snapped that day. He no longer attempted to make Riku feel better or even be his friend anymore, and everyone else just drifted away, not caring.

"No one would miss me," he whispered, repeating the words he felt held the only truth in his life. Looking down at his arms, he marveled at the cuts that seemed to increase in quantity as his life went on. There must have been more than ten on each arm, but he realized just cutting didn't relieve the pain in his heart. No more did the anger and isolated feeling bleed out with the crimson color. Sighing softly, Sora swung his feet back to the balcony, not having the determination to jump anymore. It wouldn't allow him to escape the loneliness, so what was the point. Thanking Kami that tomorrow was Friday; Sora entered his house, unknowingly dropping a few tears on the damp wood of the balcony. It rained earlier, making Sora feel even more down.

Falling onto his bed, the keyblade wielder fell into the abyss of his mind, not even bothering to change from his bloody clothes that he had wiped his wrists on.

Help me…

I don't want to be alone anymore…

I miss everyone too much, but no one misses me.

I don't care about anything else as long as I can be released from this hell.

Help me…

…………………………………BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!

Sora snapped up quickly at the sound of his alarm, slamming on the Snooze button harshly before jumping out of his bed. Dashing into the bathroom, he hoped to dress as fast as possible so that he could visit his parents' graves. Showering and changing, the boy skipped breakfast and snatched his book bag, running out of the house and locking the door behind him.

The cemetery was not far from his home, but he felt like the dread weighed him down, making him walk slow and quietly. He wore a long sleeve shirt-to cover the cuts- and black baggy pants. White shoes were tied on his feet and he had a necklace around his neck. It was a gift from his parents when he was little, but he chose to wear it now more often since he rudely rejected it when he received it.

He shortly arrived at the dreadful place, trudging towards the two graves near a weeping willow tree. Kneeling down to the ground, Sora brushed his hand against the dirt that covered his parents' coffins, but didn't do it for long.

"Hey mom and dad," Sora's hoarse voice mumbled tiredly to the tombstones. They had only his parents' names on them, which angered him, since they were so amazingly perfect that they deserved the little quote that should've been underneath the names, "I still wear the necklace you gave me, but the color seems to be fading. I love the crown on it though." The necklace wasn't anything expensive, but it was still special. It was a heart with a crown in the middle, shining not so much as it had in the beginning. The chain was long, but he didn't care. He would wear it no matter what, and if anybody commented meanly about it, he would ignore them or defend it-depending on the level of rudeness in the comment-.

"I don't see Riku anymore, but I'm not crying over it much anymore. He never really liked me in the beginning," Sora paused at the sound of footsteps approaching the sidewalk he was near. Shifting his head to see who it was, he blinked at the silver haired man. Riku… He had his hair down and was wearing a short sleeve, black tee. His pants were simple denim and his shoes were the same as ever. The male stood only a foot from Sora, the pointy fence of the cemetery being the only thing to separate the two.

Sora didn't finish talking to his parents, standing and walking to leave. Riku said nothing as he watched the boy retreat and leave his spot. Looking at the spot the brunette once kneeled, he noticed little droplets on the ground. Was Sora crying? Why? He didn't bother to contemplate on it for long as Sora passed him, accidently bumping into him and leaving with a muttered apology. Neither one spoke much after Riku walked near Sora to school, but the tension was strong, making both boys fell awkward.

"Uh, hey Riku," Sora grinned weakly at Riku, but didn't say anything else as the boy beside him stopped walking, grabbing his wrist. They were two miles away from school, but both boys were not worried about missing a part of the school day. Pulling the brunette into a nearby alley, Riku stood in front of Sora, but the boy didn't look into the man's eyes. His blue eyes were glued to the ground of the alley, until something made him gasp and look up. Riku had pulled the trembling keyblade wielder into his arms in a tight hug, laying his cheek on the boy's head.

"Please stop crying," Riku pleaded to Sora, who brought a hand up to his own cheek. Slightly shocked, Sora pulled his hand away from his own face to see his fingers wet from his unknown tears. Riku pulled away slowly, grabbing the brunette's chin so that he wouldn't look away. Silent, Sora wept some tears onto his cheeks and onto Riku's hand.

"Please," was the last word Riku mumbled before the most surprising thing happened. Sora had moved to stand on his tip toes, softly planting his pink lips to Riku's. Wrapping his arms around the silver haired boy's neck, Sora felt his heart shatter as Riku didn't respond. About to pull away, Sora gasped when he felt two arms circle around his waist and the lips collided with his again. Riku closed his eyes, smiling into the kiss as Sora kissed back. Licking his lower lip, Riku asked for entrance to the brunette's mouth, which was soon granted. Sora moaned quietly as Riku slid his tongue into his mouth, the pink muscle encouraging his own to play with it. Shyly, Sora slipped his tongue into the kiss as well, not caring that he was losing all his air in his lungs. Kissing Riku was worth it. The longer the kiss went, the more passionate it grew before both boys drew back, panting heavily. Riku didn't relinquish hold of Sora, but the boy didn't care. He loved the feeling of being in Riku's arms so much that he never wanted to move again.

"Please don't cry anymore Sora. I…I love you so much that it hurts," The older male whispered, making Sora gasp [again]. He only dreamed of hearing those words! Especially coming from Riku! Tears of joy fell again, but he smiled at Riku's panicked face. Yanking the boy close to him, Riku grinned as Sora spoke gently,

"I love you, too, Riku!" The brunette sobbed as Riku rubbed his back soothingly, hoping to calm down the boy. After a while, the tears stopped, but neither one of them made a move to get away. Both were content with their position that even the worry of missing school wore down and disappeared. Soon though, the two moved away, but still held the others' hand in a protective and love manner.

Forgetting school, the two walked to the closest home they could reach…which was Sora's. Getting inside quickly, they made sure to close and lock the door before rushing upstairs to Sora's room. Entering the cold area, Riku wasted no time in pulling Sora into another passionate kiss and laying him on the messy looking bed. Never breaking the kiss, Sora giggled happily as Riku licked his tongue and proceeded to run his hands over Sora's body. Riku broke the kiss finally and discarded Sora's shirt to the floor, and then his own. Turning to look at Sora's upper torso, Riku's eyes widened at the number of scars on his arms. Each we about three inches long and some even longer, but the sound of Sora whimpering broke Riku's gaze from the horrendous cuts that seemed to go on forever. Looking at Sora's face, the aqua eyed boy realized Sora's past loneliness and his current fear of rejection once again. Leaning forward, Riku kissed Sora tenderly then pulled back, wiping away a stray tear from the boy's eye.

"Shhh…everything will be okay now," Riku soothed, eventually getting Sora to calm down. Nodding at Riku, Sora assured the man that he was okay. Grinning, Riku moved back to continuing his ministrations (A/N: I have no idea if that is the word I want to use. XD). Moving his face to one of Sora's left nipple, he licked it slowly , then latched on and nibbled softly to the small nub. Gasping and moaning, Sora silently enjoyed the pleasure he was given.

Switching to the other nipple, Riku continued to suck and nibble on it until it became hard like the other one. Running his hand down Sora's stomach to his pants, Riku slowly unbuttoned them, leaving time space for Sora to stop him. When he made no move to, Riku slid his right hand under the dark black fabric and under the silky red boxers the boy wore. Grasping the keyblade wielder's erection, Riku smirked as the boy gasped and moaned louder now. Beginning to pump the cock, the aqua eyed boy quit his ministrations on the boy's nipples and watched as the brunette writhed in pleasure. He began to suck and lick at the boy's neck and collar bone as he pumped faster, not even bothering to rid the boy of his pants.

"Ahhhh! Nnn!" Sora twisted and arched his back as he felt intense pleasure from his cock being pumped. Grabbing Riku's hand, Sora removed it from his pants slowly and pulled down his own pants quickly. Flipping the two over so that he was now on top, Sora repeated Riku's touches and nibbles on Riku's neck, collarbone, and nipples before shyly unbuttoning Riku's pants. Sliding them down the male's hips, Sora also removed the black boxers Riku wore, gawking at the size of the cock before him.

"Like what you see?" Riku smirked at Sora's blush, but arched when he felt something circle around his the tip of his member. Sora's tongue. Holding down his hips, Sora took the tip into his mouth and sucked and licked it harshly.

"Oh, god! Sora!" Riku moaned and cried out in pleasure as Sora took more and more of the shaft into his mouth, deep-throating the older male. Pulling back before the silver haired male cummed, Sora gasped as he was flipped around and pinned to the bed. Gripping the sheets, the boy cried out in shock as he felt Riku lean over him, rubbing his erection against Sora's thigh.

"Relax, baby, or this will hurt only more," Sora nodded slowly as Riku groped his ass cheek. The male slid down until he was looking straight at Sora's ass, contemplating on what to do. Sora laid in silence until he felt Riku spread his ass cheeks, revealing his entrance. Leaning down, Riku stuck his tongue out and circled it around the puckered entrance before slowly slicking it inside the boy. Gasping and moaning, Sora cried out as Riku stuck is tongue into him as far as it would go. It wasn't very far, but the feeling was still incredible. Moaning and bucking back slightly, Sora whined when he felt the tongue retreat, but it didn't last for long. Sticking his fingers in his mouth, Riku coated them with a good amount of saliva before pulling them out and sliding one into Sora.

"Ahhhh! Riku!" Sora gasped at the slight pain and pleasure mixed together. Feeling another finger slide in, Sora gripped the bed sheet in pain as they moved back a forth, scissoring him wider. At last, the final finger slid in, but the pain-sugar coated with pleasure- only lasted a moment, before fully becoming a mind-blowing pleasure. Thrusting his fingers in and out, Riku finally removed them before positioning himself at Sora's entrance.

"Ready?" Sora nodded before Riku slowly pushed in, making the boy scream in pain. Once fully in, Riku let Sora get adjusted to the pain, stroking the brunette's cock as a distraction. He paid attention to Sora until the boy nodded for him to move. Pulling out until only the head of his dick was in Sora, Riku thrust back in as Sora gasped at the pleasure. Moaning, Riku moved faster, thrusting in hard and quickly.

"Oh! Riku! Riku…Riku…" Sora moaned the name like a special chant, over and over, until he felt an intense pleasure consume him. Riku thrust in, slamming into the boy's prostate. Noticing the boy's reaction, Riku pulled out and aimed for the spot again. Repeating this over and over, Riku knew that Sora was close to climaxing, but continued to slam into him until he heard a loud cry of pleasure and his name being shouted to the ceiling. Feeling the walls in Sora's ass clench around him, Riku finally reach his climax as well, filling the warm cavern of Sora's ass with his own cum. Falling down, Riku felt too exhausted to pull out of Sora, but the boy didn't mind. He enjoyed having Riku inside of him, whether he was pounding or just there. Hugging the boy close to him from behind, Riku kissed the pale shoulder gently before kissing up the boy's neck. Sighing in content, Sora mumbled the words Riku wished he heard sooner than just a couple of hours ago.

"I love you, Riku," Sora whispered lovingly, smiling a happy grin. Riku tightened his hold on the boy, still never pulling out of him.

"I love you, too, Sora," The words came to him like naturally, as if he had said them a million times. And so, the two fell asleep like that, neither moving from their positions. But, unknown to the two, this was only the beginning of the long journey of love they would begin together. For someone cold and malevolent was already plotting against them, from the very second he saw the two kiss in the alley.

Yay! I love this story! And I will try to update soon, but I have school, so it may take a little while to be written. Damn teachers give us too much homework…Anyway! This story is kind of gonna be long (hopefully!) and I am just hoping people will review!

Please! Don't leave me in the dust! XD

My next story is gonna be with TENTACLES! Hehe….