(Barry's Motel – Somewhere)

Dean? – Whispered Castiel with a bit of melancholy in his voice, Dean was taking a nap on a couch – Dean? Are you asleep?

Yes, Cas – Said he a little drowse, standing up and rubbing his eyes… - Which time is it?

It's midnight – Said Cas looking at Dean, his blue and deep eyes staring at him it felt like home – I need to talk

So talk Cas – Said Dean a little grumpy, he opened his eyes to see Cas standing there like always – Sometimes I forget you freaking angels don't sleep.

Dean – Said Cas looking at him, his silence spoke much more than he wanted – Do you remember the first time we met?

Why are you asking that out of the blue Dude? – Said Dean opening the refrigerator door, Sam was sleeping on the bed, Dean didn't remember how he slept on the couch – Yes, I do… You scared the freaking hell of Bobby and me, what about it?

Why did you tried to kill me? – Said Castiel still staring at Dean while he sat and drunk a sip of a beer

That's old, Cas – Said Dean now curious, he looked right at the angel, Cas wouldn't give up until he gave him a real answer, Dean knew that – We were scared.

Why? – Asked Cas, for one second he was like a child, his eyes wide filled with curiosity

I dunno Cas, you seemed to me like a monster… or a Super demon – Said Dean a little upset – Why in the hell you want know about that?

Castiel just stood there in silence looking at Dean's face, searching in his green eyes for something, after a long pause he said looking at the window – Do I still look like a monster to you? Dean?

Dean took another big sip of beer and looked at Castiel – No – said Dean looking at him again – I didn't know you that time Cas, what brought this up?

I shouldn't have disturbed you, I'm sorry Dean – Said Cas looking away again and there was something definitely wrong with him.

Hey, don't go disappearing on me now dude! – Said Dean putting his right hand on Cas shoulder making eye contact

I sense you are angry – Said Cas looking at Dean's eyes again – Why?

Cas you know that humans need to sleep, drink, eat, don't you know that? – Said Dean drinking another bottle of beer

Yes, I do Dean – Said Cas looking at Dean now sitting on the couch – I don't understand why you are upset.

Because you woke me up this time to ask me something and disappear – Said Dean drinking more beer for the next bottle

I wasn't going anywhere - Said Castiel coming close to Dean, a little too close – I'm always here.

Cas, too close dude – Said Dean getting a little space for himself – So tell me, why did you ask me that?

I was thinking – Said Cas turning his back on Dean and looking thought the window once more – If I didn't help you that day, would it be better to have the apocalypse?

Of course not Cas, Are you freaking crazy dude? – Said Dean Taking another sip of beer

I don't know anymore Dean – Said Cas putting his hand on the window – I could've avoided killing my brothers, I still… - He wanted to say something, but the words became too heavy for him – I've done so much damage, Dean…

Ok, you made some mistakes – Said Dean resting his beer on the coffee table – Who doesn't?

I'm angel, Dean, I'm not supposed to make mistakes – Said Castiel looking at Dean's eyes – If that was a mistake, does it make me a monster?

Cas, stop that! – Said Dean walking towards him and holding his both arms – There's no use to think about it now, it's done and you must move on.

Don't you ever look back Dean? – Said Castiel looking at Dean's green haunting eyes with a somewhat sad smile – Not even for one second?

I try not to… Ok? – Said Dean realizing how softy was to touch Castiel's Trench coat, he smiled for one second and released him a little spooked with this feeling – I'm glad you are here, with us.

Castiel simply smiled back at Dean's face when he turned to see him – Don't get me wrong, Your powers are really useful… - Said Dean looking at Cas eyes, trying to somehow don't be emotional with this talk , he could felt Cas got a little sad for it – And you are like family.

Am I? – Said the angel with a softy smile, questioning, but faintly happy expression on his face – Like your family?

Yes, Cas – said Dean padding Castiel's shoulder slightly – You know that.

I know… - Said Castiel smiling, his eyes wide and bright a faint smile again on his lips – I just wanted to hear it from you again.

Dean coughed a little nervous; Castiel knew how to say things like this and embarrass him without noticing or wanting.

Last time you told me, I was like family… Weren't good times… - Continued Cas while his smiled faded away for one second and came back a little weaker than before - I just need to hear it again, Dean.

Is it just that? – Said Dean drinking his beer again and sitting on the couch his cheeks a little blushed; maybe it was the beer, maybe it was Castiel that made him feel a little fuzzy inside.

No – Said Castiel softly – There's one more question.

Ok, shoot it – said Dean resting his feet on the coffee table

Am I forgiven? – Said Castiel walking close to Dean, stopping in front of him, a surprised expression rose on Dean's face, he tried to hide it looking away

For what, Cas? – Said Dean crossing his arms and resting his back a little further on the couch

I did let you down a couple of times, Dean – said Castiel looking down on Dean, his eyes following his jaw line, watching Dean's mouth move, Dean felt a little uncomfortable under Castiel's gaze

That's past, Cas – said Dean now looking at Castiel again, he still felt a little fuzzy and some kind of happiness burned shyly on his chest, maybe it was the beer, he drank it too fast – We are good now.

Dean – Said Castiel now looking at Dean cheeks realizing a little blush – You look a little… Strange.

I guess that beer scaled quickly – Said Dean feeling Castiel's hands on his shoulder, a warm touch, that made him almost jump from the couch – What a hell? Cas!

I can heal you If you like – said Castiel in a normal tone, Dean would say something, but he was a little drowse, he rested back on the couch, Castiel's hands on his shoulder felt like what he just needed right now.

No Cas, drinking help me sleep better – Said Dean resting his head against one of Castiel's hands, it's smelled good like some kind of wild flower, maybe Castiel was picking up flowers again.

I can give you a massage – said Castiel with his hand on Dean's shoulder slowly pressing them, It was all too natural for Castiel to take care of Dean, watching over him was a natural instinct.

That would be nice – Said Dean resting his head on the couch again, Castiel hands felt good, felt like knife coming down on a piece of pie for Dean, He gave Castiel a hint of his smile

Castiel stood silent and moving his hands on Dean's shoulder with rhythm and the right strength to make him relax, looking at Dean's face his eyes closing with pleasure – Hun, that's the spot – said Dean while Castiel gave him a soft smile.

Dean realized he was getting aroused, before Castiel could see it, he covered himself with a pillow, closing his eyes again – That's enough Cas – said Dean, but Cas ignored him this time pressing a little harder, listening to Dean moan a little more

I'm almost finishing Dean – said Castiel pressing his thumbs on Dean's shoulders, and gently pressing whispering on Dean's ear – I just need a minute.

Cas… Hun… I said stop... Dude – moaned Dean, things were getting complicate for the pillow on his lap. Finally Castiel stopped gently slowing down his moves, Dean felt a strange wanting and relieve after he was done – Thank Cas – He mumbled

You welcome Dean – Was the last thing Dean heard before closing his eyes and falling asleep.