My Pathetic Life
Possesion : My original characters are : Yagami Ayami, Laura Wind, the Winds, and Kitamura Rou. The death notes are not belong to me.
Note from author : It's my first fanfiction so it might be not really good, but I beg you please review this story....
I'm Light Yagami, an extraordinary 17 years old guy. I would supposed to have a normal and boring life if I hadn't had choosen the decision. What's the decision? You mustn't know now. First of all, you must see how is my family.
I have two sisters. One is my elder, she is 2 years older. The second one is my younger, I'm 3 years older than her. My younger, Sayu, is like my mother, they are really talkative. She is a bit naughty and coquettish. She likes Hideki Ryuga -a dumb but cool singer- a lot. She collects all his posters and CDs.
I have a similar personality with my father. Yeah, we're wise, mature, heroic, and of course smart. We both like detective stories,and we love our family a lot.
My elder sister, Ayami, was similar to my father until the miserable occurence happened. And that was my fault.
Ayami has become the quietest one in our family. She hardly ever spoken any words. That's very reasonable, she has schizophrenia and hikikomori syndroms. Anytime you see her, you will find a strained, messy, and aware girl. She isolates herself from society almost all the time. She hardly ever puts any attention to but her circumstances.
Well, Ayami used to love me a lot until the accident happenned. I really regreted my idiot decision. Soon after the nightmare happenned, she hates me intense. I have no idea how could she changed so fast. I'm pretty sure, she loved me more than everything, even more than her own life. And I love her too. I love her with all my life and my soul. I'm sure she knew it. But now, she always sream histerically when she feels my presence. That's why she often being mad anytime I pass her room.
That's not all, it's only...about five sixths of my suffering. My little sister is lame, because of me too. Luckily she copes well, it helps me a lot. It reduces my mental burden. Yeah, my siblings are extreme. One of them became really crazy and the another returned her joyful life successfully.
Honestly, my little sister makes me feel more and more guilty day by day. The accident makes me desperated and feel really really guilty. To redeem it, I try to help my sisters as much as possible. Sadly, it's impossible to help Ayami. She always avoid me, and I know that my presence will make her worse. It hurts, but I always try abandon my egoistic. I always tell myself, "If you really love Ayami, you must keep away from her"
Of course I also try to help Sayu, the cutest girl in home.I deliver and pick up her to and from school every day. I accompany her anytime she needs to go. I bought her lots of magazines, comics, and even CDs and movies 'cause she must be really bored. Yeah, she used to go to cinemas, or shopping malls with her friends. But lately she becomes more and more independent day by day. Sometimes she refused to be accompanied. She tries hard to manage her disability well, and she's succeed.
Yeah, I've tried to help them as much as I can. I've effort everything. Seems like it's enough to redeem my mistake. No, it isn't. Deep inside my heart, I've promised not to stop until they truly cured. And a man always fulfill his vow.
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