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Chapter One- Living Pain

Lissa's coronation was beautiful. I know she will be a great queen. A lot of people do. A lot of older Moroi are against it, but I honestly think they will come around eventually. Once everyone sees how great of a queen she is then a lot of people will change their minds. I'm just so glad Lissa has made it this far and she is slowly starting to get along with Jill. Right now they are having some personal talk time and I'm doing my job, guarding her.

All of a sudden Lissa was snapping her finger in my face. I blinked her into focus. "Rose. Rose. Rose! Snap out of it."

"Sorry, you're Majesty." I smiled to myself as she cringed.

"Rose I will personally see to it that you are fired if you ever call me that again. Also, you shift is over. You can go cuddle with Dimitri now." Lissa smirked. I swear someday I'm going to make some evil joke about her getting into Sparky's pants and then we will see who is the one smirking. I smiled to myself.

"Liss, Alright. I'll see you later. Have a good night Jill." I gave them both a hug and started the walk back to me and Dimitri's room.

When I walked in it smelt like Adrian's old bedroom. I inwardly cringed at the reminder of Adrian and mine's current relationship. Well lack of one. I at least wish we were still friends, but I know I have to give the poor guy some time. I will always feel horrible for breaking his horribly fragile heart.

I walked into the bedroom and found Dimitri passed out with a bottle of Russian Vodka in his hand. I sighed. I took the bottle from his hand and he moved. For a second I was scared I woke him up. I feel bad. He's been really struggling since getting back to court. Christian gave him some extra time off because of it, but I honestly don't think it was as good of an idea as he thought. Now Dimitri has more time to himself to think about it all and I'm normally at work so I can't always be here to help him. I covered Dimitri up and then took an extra pillow and blanket to the living room part of our suit. I went and took a shower, got into pajamas and then went to bed on the couch for the second night in a row.

When I woke up I smelt eggs. I got off the couch and put my hair in a messy bun. I walked into the kitchen where Dimitri stood cooking. He was clean the so was the house. I guess hangovers don't bother him much.

"Good morning babe." Dimitri said looking over his shoulder.

"Very good morning." I stood on my tippy toes and kissed him. "I have to get ready for work. I'll eat something when I'm done getting dressed." I walked away and heard him murmur an ok. I went to our room and got into the normal guardian uniform and then walked back into the kitchen. Dimitri was already eating and already had my plate set up and on the table. Dimitri had a glass of milk with his. I walked over and kissed him, but I could smell alcohol on his breath that wasn't there before I got changed.

"Dimitri, what the hell is going on? It's only morning and you are already drinking?" I knew that he was struggling, but I didn't know it was bad enough to drink. I don't even remember Dimitri ever drinking so him drinking this much definitely scared me.

Suddenly Dimitri stood up and started yelling in my face. "You have no idea what I am going through! Why don't you go get turned, kill a bunch of innocent people and then come back? It's horrible. I have every right to drink this much! Don't question me!" I was shocked. He has never talked to me like this over something so little.

I looked at him. I love him so much, but he has no right to talk to me like that. No one does. I don't care what he thinks. A lone tear came out of my eye. I smacked him. It hurt me to do so. Both emotionally and physically, but he deserved it. I stated to walk away from him, but he grabbed my arm and swung me back around. I was about to ask what he thought he was doing, but then I felt something very painful on my left cheek. I realized he just hit me. I looked at him and tears started coming out of my eyes.

"Roza… I-I-I'm sorry. I didn-"Dimitri started to apologize, but I cut him off.

"Its okay, Comrade. I understand and I get it. You're right. You have gone through a lot and this is tough on you. I will see you later." I didn't even wait for a reply. I just walked out. I knew that I would have some kind of mark on my face from him hitting me. I didn't realize how bad till I heard a gasp. I looked over and gave another guardian the death glare. That shut them up.

I went to find Lissa. I went to her room knowing that's probably where she is at this time in the morning. Sure enough she was there, but she wasn't alone. Adrian was in there with her. They were practicing. I walked in and they both looked up. Lissa gasped and ran over to me. She wiped away a tear that I didn't know was there.

"Rose, what happened?" Lissa asked curiously. It was in that moment that I broke down. I forgot all about Adrian being in the room and told Lissa everything. I told her about how Dimitri has been almost continuiously drinking since her coronation and then everything that happened since I left last night till I came here this morning.

Afterwards I stopped crying. I heard some weird growl. It was then that I realized Adrian was still in the room. He looked pissed. I was about to say something, but then Adrian just stormed out of the room.

I wonder what that was all about. Oh well. For the rest of the day Liss and I had a girl's day. We painted each other's nails and had girl talk. We ate ice cream and watched movies. It was fun and I missed this.