I shouldn't have said it. What the hell was I thinking?! Obviously I wasn't. God damn it, now she won't even smile. The rain has yet to let up. It's been days since I opened my stupid mouth and spouted all that awful shit to her. How do I make it up to her?

I never thought that I'd go so far to keep these feeling bottled up that I'd cause this much pain to someone who meant the world to me.

She came into the guild this morning, looking as beautiful as ever regardless of the depressive look on her face. She didn't even acknowledge me, but then again, why should she? I'm the worst. Still can't believe how I could say something so hurtful.

It's coming to the afternoon now. I've been sat here waiting for a moment, just one, where I can apologise but every time I think I have a chance, someone is always there.

My heart breaks every time I think about what I said and the look on her face. I overhear her say that she's going to take a long mission far away from Magnolia. Far away from me. What can I do?

I go back home. Tired of the constant fights and bickering with everyone. I know I messed up, they don't need to keep ramming it in my head. The rain is pouring harder now as I lean my head against my bedroom window. She leaves in the morning from what I understand and doesn't know when she'll be back. Have I missed my chance?

I bang my head repeatedly against the window chanting 'stupid, stupid, stupid'. If this is the last chance I have, then I have to do something! I'm not letting her leave on this mission without knowing how I feel about her.

Grabbing my radio, wallet and keys, I dash out my door. Fuck knows if this will work, or if it's too cliché to even attempt it, but fuck it! The nearest flower shop is my next stop. I buy as many flowers as possible that have the meaning I'm looking for and run.

I'm not stopping until I get there!

Why the hell does Fairy Hills have to be so far? Fuck sake I'm completely out of breathe here in the pouring rain with a fucking heavy radio and a bunch of flowers that now look like they've seen better days.

I refuse to give up!

I've got the speakers on loud, throwing rocks at her window and holding a sad looking bunch of flowers.

Please. Come on…

(Black Stone Cherry – Stay)

I'd sell my soul just to see your face
And I'd break my bones just to heal your pain
And in these times I need a saving grace
'Cause time is running out and I'm starting to lose my faith

But if I told you I loved you would it make you wanna stay
I'm sorry for the way I make you feel day after day
And if I wrote you a love song and sang it to you everyday
Would it ever be enough to make you wanna come back home to stay
Would it make you, make you wanna stay

My hearts on my sleeve but it's turning black
And without your touch I'm not gonna last
It feels like my walls are cavin' in
And I'll do anything to have you here again

But if I told you I loved you would it make you wanna stay
I'm sorry for the way I make you feel day after day
And if I wrote you a love song and sang it to you everyday
Would it ever be enough to make you wanna come back home to stay
Would it make you, make you wanna stay

The days are cold the nights are long
And I can't stand to be alone
Please know this is not your fault
And all I want is to tell you I love you

And make you wanna stay
I'm sorry for the way I make you feel day after day
And if I wrote you a love song and sang it to you everyday
Would it ever be enough to make you wanna come back home to stay

Would it make you, make you wanna stay
(I'm sorry for my ways)
Would it make you, make you wanna stay
(Will it ever be enough)
Would it make you, make you wanna stay

I see her silhouette through the curtain. Open the window. Please. Come on Juvia. Please let me make this right.