Hello all, and welcome to my newest story, the sequel to The Surface, Shadow of a Doubt.
Summary: Cole's still alive, and he wants more darkness, this time though, he'll go through any circumstances to get his hands on it. He's addicted to it. So he goes to Xemnas –who officially decided to step out of our affairs- and demands for more, but won't give it to him. More unfolds as Cole gathers up an army of Nobodies and tries to take over the Organization!
I do not own these lyrics, or Kingdom Hearts, I just like to write about them.
As you can see, the lyrics below are dedicated to my sister, who read all the way through The Surface faithfully –as did soraluver, thank you- and suggested this song to fit it. Except, it's the other way around, Gabriel was the one who died. And I would change it, but that's illegal.
Kamelot - Love You To Death
When they met she was fifteen. Like a black rose blooming wild. And she already knew she was gonna die She got weaker every day. As the autumn leaves flew by. Until one day, she told him, "This is when I die" She said, He said, [Guitar Solo "I will always be with you. I'm the anchor of your sorrow. There's no end to what I'll do. Cause I love you"
"What's tomorrow without you? This is our last goodbye"
"What was summer like for you?" She asked him with a smile "What's tomorrow without you?" He silently replied
"I will always be with you. I'm the anchor of your sorrow. There's no end to what I'll do. Cause I love you, I love you to death"
But the sorrow went too deep. The mountain fell too steep. And the wounds would never heal. Cause the pain of the loss was more than he could feel
"I will always be with you. By the anchor of my sorrow. All I know, or ever knew, Is I love you, I love you to death"
"What's tomorrow without you? Is this our last goodbye?"
1: Love You To Death
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His eyes closed shut, and the last of the blood spilled out onto the gray stone beneath him. I screamed through tears. Would that even be a hope to alert anyone? I doubt it. But I need to get help, if I hurried; there might a reason to love life. If I hurried, there might be a reason….to live life. I have to hurry.
But Gabe's wings would make it harder to carry him…oh well; I've got to get him out of here. I tried pulling him with his arm, but he was too heavy for me. I tried everything, and all failed. I finally gave up, feeling that only a miracle could save me, and that my life was over. So knelt down beside my love, and laid my body over him, in hope it might preserve him or something. I didn't know what I was doing, I was still in shock. "Oh Gabe." I whispered to myself, brushing his pale cheek with my fingers, a certain longing in my eyes.
"This is all my fault." I could hear myself saying, as I cried quietly on his black cloak. The warmth was dissipating from his body, leaving me with a cold, dead lump of my one and only love. I screamed. My heart broke at that moment. Every hope that I had been clinging to: He's an angel, surely he wouldn't die, of course he could come back to life, and wouldn't he have a choice?
And with my last piercing the air scream, my heart ripped in half, and I felt myself die with him. I would never be whole again. Black spots began to enter my vision, and I tried to make out what was happening in front of me. A couple pairs of feet moved to the side of Gabe's body, and felt his pulse, I heard some whimpering and I watched as the black spots got worse.
Everything went black.
"Charlotte! Wake up!" My dream allowed some one's voice to break the shield, and the last bit of horror from my truly frightening dream played. I screamed. "Wake up you dimwit!" He yelled in my ear, I sat up, looking around violently. It obviously wasn't Riku, he would never call me that. Then I let my eyes rest upon the boy next to the bed I lay on. "Cole?" Fear returned to my already sweat stricken brow, and I jumped back. Roxas then walked up to Cole, and slapped his back, where two wings should have been, and he turned back into Zexion.
They laughed.
"Come on Zexion…" Roxas said between laughs, "you shouldn't scare her like that; you know how she is already." Axel and Demyx walked up next, and I tried to figure out where I was. Looks like The Organization found me before Riku. And through all the pain I was experiencing right now, I was somehow glad that he hadn't found me. Axel helped me off the bed. But his help didn't go far, once I reached the ground I fell, falling to my knees. Axel looked at me strange. "Can't you stay up fro three seconds?" He laughed, looking down at my broken body. I didn't respond. So Axel replaced his expression with another, sudden pity shadowing his usual energetic and rough disposition.
A single tear escaped my already red swollen eyes. The laughing stopped. Axel bent over next to me, placing one hand on my shoulder, and bringing me into a small hug. I didn't push him away, but he was not the one I would like to be hugging. I felt the hole get bigger with that thought of him, and my arms loosened. I let my body fall back onto the cold white marble floor, and closed my eyes, regardless the fact I was still awake. I didn't feel as if I was awake, I felt as though I was in a dream, a bad dream. I died again.
And I would every day, for the rest of my life.
Next I found myself on another bed, but not in the same area, in a whole different section of the castle. Not like I cared. They could throw my body over a cliff, and I wouldn't care. If I cared at all, I'd be happy, happy to finally die and be with Gabriel. But alas, I was in a blood red streaked room, lying on a black cotton comforter, with posters of different bands surrounding me on the walls. It wasn't hard to guess whose room this was. These guys didn't have hearts, which was good for me; I don't think I can handle any more love. The last of it is gone, and I am left with my shell of a body, somehow waiting for Gabriel to come back to life, and fill it again. But it would never come. He was gone forever.
Some one walked into the room, but I slowly closed my eyes, just out of my ripped heart's last wish.
"She looks horrible." A soft, soothing voice.
"I know, you should see her when she's awake." Axel answered.
"How did you find her?"
"We escaped from Cid's eyes before the others, and found her first, but then…" Axel didn't finish.
"What?" The gentle girl's voice sounded again, asking him with a certain kindness.
"Xero's probably not gonna make it."
My body went rigid, through all my pain, screaming, and crying, I hadn't been dreaming.My right hand twitched, aching to tough his silk cheek once more….it was all gone. The girl walked over to the bed, sitting down gracefully, and sliding over to where I lay, stroking my hair back. It was soothing some how. Another tear came out, rolling down my beaten face, my dull expression told of my anguish.
I could bear it all?
Would I break?
Was the pressure too much?
I cracked my eyes open, the red and blue puff beneath them rested, always being there, trying to block any unpredictable tears. I raised my hand, placing it to my salt watered cheek, closing my stinging eyes again as I did. This was where he had touched me. I smiled slightly at that peaceful thought. I wish I had gone with him. The stroking stopped, and I started to hum a tune Gabriel had often hummed around me back in our Earth days. He liked to play Final Fantasy as well, and he knew I liked Aerith's theme, Pure Heart. Of course, that was just me, remembering him so sweet, so easy to like…and love.
But I had never love loved him then, he had been much more of a kind brother. It hurt to think about him, but since the wound never healed, I might as well think about him. Every inch of him, from his naturally bleach blond hair, to his usually Etnie covered feet, it brought a chuckle to my throat. That chuckle ripped another chunk out, and I stopped suddenly, alerting the girl beside me, and she started to comfort me again. I opened my eyes one more time, trying to see the girl sitting by my side. Namine. Thank goodness.
She only smiled lightly, now running her slender fingers along my bruised arm.
I felt it now, the damage I had taken while Cole was throwing me around. Bruises galore and I think I had a couple sprained parts, they hurt very badly. I hadn't spoken since my last scream, and my throat was as dry as Arizona. Namine noticed my ache, and got up form the bed. "Come on, I'll help you to Vexen." She said gently, every word sounding as soft as fleece and as every syllable coated thoroughly in reassurance. I nodded once, trying to find enough strength, but my body was weak, and I didn't get as far as off the bed, I couldn't even move my legs. My heart really had died, and the pain I was going through right now, confirmed it correct.
Namine only looked over at me with the largest amount of pity and love, and knelt down next to the bed, coming to eye level with me. "I'll go get Axel." She said very quietly, turning away fluidly to go get him. I didn't refuse, my entire being couldn't care less, I wouldn't care if they shoved a needle into my throat, but you've already heard that. You've heard it all, but I still don't think you know the pain I'm going though right now…it's excruciating.
Axel hurriedly ran in, scanning over my ragged appearance on his bed, and rested his finally gentle gaze upon my tear wetted face. My dead expression could not ease the soul. I closed my eyes as he walked up to the bed, and next felt his arms glide underneath of me, picking me up. I did not go through the trouble of hanging on to him, I only fell limp in his arms, and I heard him make a portal. My mind spun with such dizziness, and darkness clouded my vision as he stepped through the portal, and my mind swam.
Next I heard a grunt of disapproval from the older member.
"Portal? Axel, you should know better, not only is she hurt, she's sick from broken heart syndrome. That will not help her mind to continue to keep working." He said, directing Axel to an empty bed beside another, which was occupied by some unknown lump of a body. My heart broke again, and I tired to reach over to the bed next to me. With some strength I had not had before I reached across –before anyone could stop me – and tore the white sheet off, to see what was underneath.
And I as soon as I did, I felt two things: One, regret, two, a feeling, I had known that I would see him under that sheet. And his cold, lifeless body only struck at my soul again, just before Axel could pull me back. My usual lump in my throat rose unrepentantly, but no tears came, I was all out. So I did something else. I screamed. It scraped my throat to its last string of flesh, but I needed some way to get out this unexpressed feeling out. Or it would claw at behind its prison of ribs, and attack at some undiscovered moment.
Next thing I knew, I felt Axel beside me, trying to do something through my screams of nothingness. I was nothingness now. So he found that he that tune, that hum, and desperately tried to mend my broken soul. I stopped screaming.
"Get Demyx! Tell him I've got a good job for him!" Axel ordered Namine, taking a second to stop humming. Then he went straight back to doing it, the blond girl running away with a task at hand, almost silently calling out Demyx's name, or number nine. I tried to turn my head to look over at Gabe once more, but Axel stopped me, by suddenly putting his hand to my shoulder. I used some more of my strength, to touch Axel hand on my shoulder, basically telling him I'd be fine. And I carried on. When my eyes finally laid on Gabe's white, peacefully still body, I noticed the large hole in his middle, just like mine. But his scar had been form that Shadow Ball Cole had thrown.
He had them in his chest, right where his heart should be, but my heart had died along with him, leaving my own gaping hole to be hurt from. Demyx came rushing into the room then, carrying his Sitar, with an anxious look plastered to his usually sunny and playful face. It made the world seem out of place. Axel quickly told him the tune, as I continued to stare over at Gabe's life deprived body.
Demyx started to play the song gently, lulling me to an unknown place, a place of nightmares. Sleep.
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