The Fault Is In The Moon
Chapter 1
Ally's POV
When I was little, everyone used to ask me what I would wanna be when I'll grow up. They all excepted the same answer. A dream job that every kid wish he'd had. Boys usually want to be a spy or a police officer. Girls want to be a singer or a dancer or any other professional. But when they asked me all I wonder was; how can you be so sure that we will all live that long? I mean, you can't know what will happen to you in the next second so how do you expect me to think so far to the future?
Nothing is guaranteed. You don't live forever. You just have to use each and every second of your life to do something helpful and not just sit and do nothing. Of course kids don't usually think about things like death. But I wasn't a normal kid. I lost my mom when I was little. She died right before my eyes. I've never knew that much suffer. Well, at that time I thought I knew suffer. But I didn't know that it was only a glimpse of what this life could be. You can be lucky and have a good life or you can have a really bad one. But no one has a perfect life. That's what I've always believed in.
I mean, god plans this all right? And he loves us because he created us all. So why would he want us to suffer? I've given much thought into that and I think that he just tries to tell us what's wrong and right. Because in this world you can get blind. So blind you can't see the truth. So it's like a wake up call. The suffering. Of course there is no better way to do that. God can't give us a good life because if it were like that we will never be able to think deeply. We will have everything we need and we will forget god and his lessons. This all may sounds insane. Believe me I didn't believe in all of those things too. But then god sent me a wake up call.
My whole life felt like a wake up call. After my mom died, my dad was broken and shuttered to pieces. I'm not saying that I wasn't too. But I was a little girl. You can't compare. At first, all the kids started being nice to me. I bet the kinder gardener told them to do that so the little orphan girl wouldn't feel neglected. But then when I got older people stopped being nice because they thought that time heals. They don't know the truth. Time is like a drag. It keeps everything moving so you'll just be busy with everything that's happening around you so you wouldn't feel the pain. So you will forget. But they don't know that when the time stops. When you find yourself alone; you start to feel the pain again. It doesn't heal. You just get used to it. So your pain is almost a part of you.
I thought that my entire life would be like this. I was kinda hoping they will be. Dull. Boring. Never changing. Full with pain and grief. But then when I list expected it. God sent me a wake up call. And this wake up call was called Austin Moon.
It was the fourth year of high school. What can go wrong? You know every one and they all know you. You know the school the teachers. Everyone except the freshmen. But nobody cares about then anyway so... I skated into the school parking lot. Everyone starring. I'm the wired girl. I have always have been and I always will be. I'm wearing my black converse and I have blue dye in my hair. I'm also wearing my blue jeans and a simple blue T-shirt. I'm not wearing any make up. I don't really see the point in wearing make up. I mean, if a girl really want a guy to like her so she should find a guy that like her for who she is inside and not just because she has a hot body. I got off my skate board and started waking towards the school building. People started to get use to me eventually. But the new kids still stared at me. I should be the one staring them considering they are the new ones here. But honestly I don't really care. Why should I? If you'll waste your life about caring what other people are thinking of you, you will be miserable. Most people are making that mistake and I don't wanna be more miserable than I am now.
I walked to my locker and looked at my schedule. I sighed and pulled out the books I needed. I turn around but I hit something. I was about to fall on the floor but on last second a hand caught my wrist and saved me from a public humiliation. Not like I care but I hate when I'm the center of attention. That's what I call humiliation. "Sorry. " I murmured under my breath not even bothering looking at the person before banding to the floor and starting to pick up my books. But the other person doesn't walk away. He kneels down and helps me pick up the rest of my books. "That's ok. " he said. That's when I get curious. Most people usually don't bother on talking to me. They just ignore me. Like I'm some Oxygen molecules that are gathered together. I told you before. I don't care.
We both get up and I looked at him for the first time. He would be a blond guy with hazel eyes. He wears a black T-shirt and blue jeans just like mine. The best part about his look is his shoes. He wears black converse. The guys' style. I like those. I look at him in the eye. He stares back at me. His look is challenging , like he is not backing away from anything. He looks at me. Scans me from head to toe. Just like I did to him. He ends up smiling and
he holds up his hand forward. "I'm Austin. " he says. "And I'm waiting for class. " I said and turned away.
I know what you're thinking. That was rude. Well, I don't really like to associate with other people. Specially gorgeous ones like this Austin guy. I don't see the point. I'm weird. I don't have any friends. I will just bring misery to everyone who is close to me. So why make other suffer if you can bare the pain yourself?
I'm on my way to my chemistry class. I'm walking in the lab and sits in my usual sit. Far away from others. I don't have a lab partner. I have never had. Who would want to be a partner with a weirdo? I don't blame them. Besides, it's for the best. The teacher walks into the class and says:" Hello everyone, I would like you to meet our new student Austin Moon" he waves his hands towards the door probably sighing Austin to come in. As soon as he does all of the girls in the class start to whisper and giggle like stupid monkeys. Austin smiles and says: "Hello." That's it. Nothing else. He doesn't wink at the girls or even look them. Even thought they are waving. He caught my eyes and now he doesn't let them go. He does only when the teacher touched his shoulder and said to him:" There is an open sit next to Ally. You can sit there." I can see that all the girl in our classroom are looking at me. But they aren't worry. They know that nothing will happen. So they're just jealous.
I moved my chair so Austin could have his space. He sits and says:" So.. You're real name is Ally?" He asks and I'm not responding. When he realizes that he smiles and says:" I think I like 'I'm gonna be late for class better'. It's so original. " he said with a smirk. I'm not laughing I'm not even smiling. I know how to blow people off. It's one of the talents you learn when you're a loner. The lesson starts and the teacher gave us an exercise to do in pairs. Perfect.
I look at Austin for the first time in this lesson. He looks back at me and for the first time I can see that there is something in his eyes. Something in a shape if a banana. It's weird. But it's beautiful. It's like a half silver circle. "What?" He asks after realize I was staring a lot. I stiffed immediately and looked away. I cleared my throat and said:" Let's get to work" Austin smiled a devilish smile.
I don't know what is up with this guy.
He is not like the others. The others would probably stay away by now. But he's just full of surprises. That's not good. That's what I hate most.
I don't now what is going on with him. All I know is that I like it. And that's not good. I shouldn't . I couldn't. I don't.
So..? What do you guys think? Should I continue this or not? Please review and tell me what you think... If you liked it you check out my story 'In Love With My Best Friend'. Hope you'll like is as well.
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Love you all,
Emily. :)