/a.n./ I'm just feeling really depressed today, I don't know why…
The story is from Yoh's POV…
Anyway, this fic is inspired by the song "Hello" by Evanescence; I suggest you listen to it while you're reading…
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Note: I do not own Shaman King, I'm just borrowing the characters…
On with the story!
Wake me up
I sat with my head buried in my hands. This waiting was maddening. It had already been three hours! Why didn't anyone tell me anything? Why was it so quiet in this damned corridor? Only the occasional calls from the speaker disrupted the ongoing silence. I wanted so bad to open the door standing before me. I wanted to see…her.
*Flashback*
"Yoh! Come on! Make breakfast already! Hurry up!" His slumber had been interrupted with the icy tone of his fiancé.
"Fine! Don't wake up! I'll just have breakfast alone, and know that you will NOT have any of it!" Yoh heard her footsteps echoing through the narrow corridor, making her way toward the stairs.
Then…
A scream
Followed by a series of thumps
And a deafening crack.
He had flinched out of his futon and ran to the stairs, only to be greeted by the heart-wrenching image of his fiancée sprawled on the floor at the foot of the stairs…
"ANNA!"
No answer
"Anna! Oh Kami-sama please be alright!" he had yelled as he made his way down the stairs. He had knelt down beside her and checked for a pulse. He found it, seconds later; only it was weak.
Too week.
He had stared at her unmoving features for a fraction of a second, before taking action. Practically jumping on the phone, he had called the hospital.
He had watched, paralyzed, as the doctors carried Anna into the ambulance, and called for him to come along.
He had watched the placid face of his fiancé as the doctors checked her. They had looked at him, now and then… Worried glances, some pitiful…
All he could do was stand by her side and hold her hand tightly in his own.
"It's going to be okay Anna, I promise… I won't let anything happen to you…" he had murmured to her, knowing she wouldn't hear, but needing to say those words.
They had carried her into the emergency room, and had been working on her ever since…
*End of Flashback*
The waiting was driving me crazy. I stared around blankly into the depths of the hospital corridor. Was this white décor supposed to be soothing? It seemed mocking to me…
"Eherrm… Mr. Asakura?"
I turned around to find myself face to face with one of the doctors. My eyes widened suddenly.
This was it…
"How is she?"
The man looked down, taking sudden interest in the pale tile floors.
"She fell down pretty bad… Broke five of her ribs, and they damaged her inner organs. Particularly her heart…" His head hung lower.
"W-we tried to stop the internal bleeding, b-but the broken bones had already done so much damage… W-we tried…B-but I'm sorry Asakura-san…. She's…"
He couldn't finish.
But I knew what came next.
Gone
I pushed passed him and ran to the room. There she lay. Motionless. Like a statue. Thought there was something missing about her.
She wasn't breathing.
I could tell. The steady rise and fall of her chest was absent. I took a step closer to the bed, touching her ice-cold hand. It wouldn't move again… Ever. I could feel tears burning in my eyes as I looked at her face. She was…
Gone
Gone
Gone forever
I didn't want to believe, even though the evidence was laying rightbefore me.
No, she wasn't gone! She couldn't be gone! She just couldn't be…
She is…
NO SHE'S NOT! This is… this is just a dream! Any minute now, she'll wake me up, and tell me to make breakfast!
She's gone Yoh..
Shut up stupid voice!
I'm your mind, I can't shut up…
Why are you here?
I'm just giving you someone to talk to…
I couldn't accept it…
Anna…couldn't be..dead…could she? Anna? The ınbreakable itako? I couldn't take it. I couldn't bear to see her in front of me like this.
Motionless…. Detached…
Dead…
Dead?
"She's not dead!" I yelled, not caring who heard. I rushed out of the hospital room.
I won't believe it!
I won't accept it!
She can't be dead! She can't be! I'll just smile, I'll smile like nothing happened and it'll all be over with!
This is just a dream… It's only a nightmare! I don't believe it… I have to wake up! Come on Anna, wake me up already!
I ran to the front door and yanked it open, throwing myself out. I stood under the pouring rain. It soaked through my clothes, but I didn't care.
It's only a dream…
I let the raindrops flow over me as the events of that morning replayed themselves, over and over again like a broken casette…
The scream.
The crack.
The image of the blond girl sprawled on the floor.
The cassette seemed to have broken atthat scene since it didn't go forward from there.
My mind was stuck on that picture, it couldn't let it go.
Then realization hit me. It hit me hard. Like a ten ton boulder it ran over me.
I limped in the general direction of the highway, remembering her unmoving body, cold hands… The images flashing before my eyes, Crack! That stupid sound echoed in my fried brain.
I wished I could pour bleach into my skull and let my brain burn on the spot.
My legs pulled me instinctively.
I was too numb to think of where to go.
I wasn't dreaming… she was really gone…
There was no point in pretending it was a dream…. But I still couldn't accept it…
Wouldn't believe it.
My legs had unknowingly carried me to the edge of the road.
Without a second thought, I walked to the middle of the asphalt and sat down, cross legged on the wet ground.
I could barely make out the two headlights of the car coming my way through the thick mist.
If I could only just make them out, they certainly wouldn't see me.
I shut my eyes tight as they came closer… and closer…and closer…
I'm coming to you Anna…
/a.n./ Well, that's it… Please don't kill me for killing Anna… and Yoh… I don't know, I just felt like it… I promise to write more cheerful fics after this, more like my previous ones…
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