Here is the sequel I promised to have out last week and then failed to deliver!

I have been struggling with this, the story line has a character doing something very borderline unforgivable. I've gone back and forwards between changing the SL but have decided to just post it and hope that I don't make someone we all love, hated in this story.

So I couldn't think of a title for this story - any suggestions would be great!

You need to read How do we make it back from this? first.

"No Adam" Kim said standing with her hands on her hips

"Darlin, you know this is a really big break for me." Adam pleaded

"So what? All of a sudden you don't want to be in intelligence?" Kim snapped

"That's not what I'm saying, the experience is good for me, and maybe one day I might want to do something more, you were the one who said one day you hoped we could have jobs that wouldn't mean quite such crazy hours" Adam moved closer to her putting his hands over hers on her hips. "Especially if we are going to be making a baby" he winked

"You cannot use us deciding to start trying for a baby as a reason to go undercover Adam. That is precisely a reason not to go. What you only want to try if it works in with your schedule?"

"Darlin, we only decided 2 weeks ago to start trying… You said it would take at least a month or two for your body to get ready… I'll be back before you're good to go, and I'll be more than good to go by then…" he said moving his hands around to her ass and wriggling his eyebrows suggestively.

She narrowed her eyes at him and moved away angrily. "I don't want you to go" she said firmly and finally, storming into the bedroom and slamming the door behind her.

Adam let out a long breath and walked after her, he never understood her need for slamming doors, he never took the hint to stay away.

"It's a shut door Adam"

"Yeah, but it's my door, and my wife is behind it so I don't care"

Kim continued to roughly fold the clothes, screwing Adam's into balls instead of folding them. Adam chuckled, she was the only one that was going to annoy, he would grab his clothes right out of a basket.

"Can we have a conversation about this?" Adam asked cautiously

"I don't want you to go"

"I got that vibe baby" he chuckled but stopped when she shot him an unimpressed look "Is it just cause I'll be away?"

"Being away from me doesn't bother you?" Kim snapped

"That's not what I said and you know I hate being away from you"

"It sounds dangerous Adam" she sighed pushing the basket of clothes into the middle of the bed and sitting down next to him.

"Only if I get made, and we both know I'm especially good at not getting made" he said cockily. Over the last few years he'd really ramped up his UC skills and now he was the best one in the unit. He was Voights go to for anything UC. Probably why the Feds took an interest in him.

"That. Right there. That's what scares me Adam. You are so damn cocky" she huffed and stormed away from him again.

Adams phone rang.

"Ruzek" he said not recognizing the number

"Ruzek, its Sargent Mckenzie. Do you have an answer on this case yet?" He asked abruptly.

"Sargent, Hi. I'm still talking it over with my wife at the moment. Can you give me until the morning?"

"Your wife carry your balls around in her handbag?" He asked gruffly making Adams blood boil.

"Not quite... Decisions that impact both our lives I tend to make with her though." Adam said back through gritted teeth.

"Huh. And if I can't give you until tomorrow morning?"

"Then I'd have to respectfully decline. I won't go unless my wife is on board" Adam didn't want to say no, he wanted to go, but there was no way in hell he was going without Kim's support and blessing.

"Right." He said pausing and Adam could hear him tapping against something. "You have until 9 in the morning Ruzek. I hope you can get that woman to see some sense" he said rudely and hung up.

"Jackass" Adam breathed out as he hung up and chucked his phone on the bench

"You have to be careful. Over cautious. And 4 months. That's the limit. Any longer and they pull the pin and you come home, or when you eventually come home it won't be to this house" Kim said leaning against the door frame, she'd heard Adams phone conversation and realized she was being selfish and just saying no because she was scared.

"4 months. Over cautious. I can do both of those things. Are you sure though?" Adam smiled wrapping his arms around her.

"No. Not even slightly. But they picked you because you are good at it, and I know how badly you want to do a big UC case. So go. Get it out of your system, but don't like it too much. We are going to make a baby when you get home and then you're never doing this again" she grinned and kissed him.

"Wanna practice?" He said lifting her up and kissing her neck.

"Practice makes perfect" she laughed as he headed towards their bedroom.

...

Kim blinked back threatening tears, she'd imagined this moment several times; the moment when they would finally find out they were going to have a baby, but when she'd imagined it, it was very different. Adam would be beside her, they would see the two pink lines and they would be overjoyed together. This. This wasn't how it was meant to be. This wasn't at all how she'd imagined it.

Kim heard her phone ringing and quickly shoved the stick under the basin. She ran after her phone, just as she did every time it rung since Adam left. She'd hoped she would get used to it, but with every passing day she was beginning to realize she was going to be on edge until he got home.

It was Kelsey, Kevin's live in girlfriend. They have been together for about 18 months. While at first Kim was overly cautious, Kevin had never been so smitten by a woman and that made Kim very protective. Kim soon learnt Kelsey was one of the good ones and they'd become close quickly, and now they were best friends.

"Hey Kels"

"Come to Molly's. We'll have a girls night." She said cheerfully skipping the hellos and how are yous. Kim would just lie and say she was good, when it was very apparent she was anything but good.

"Not tonight"

"Kimmmmm you've been saying not tonight, every night since Adam has left. You are sitting at home alone. It's only been 10 days and he could be gone for 4 months. Don't do this to yourself"

Kim sighed

"I can't drink, I've decided to take a challenge at gym. I'm going to try last 8 weeks without alcohol" Kim lied, it would buy her some time. She didn't want to tell anyone before Adam.

Kim listened to Kelsey tell her how terrible of an idea that was, and that she needed a way to let off her steam, she eventually gave up and told her she would stop by in the morning to see her.

Kim sighed and hung up opening her laptop to look for a doctor, another thing she really wished she had Adam by her side for.

...

Kim was out of breath, her lungs were burning, her chest heaving and she had a stitch in her side.

It had been almost a month since she peed on the little white stick and Adam was still undercover, she had been getting the same updates; twice a week, Adam's FBI handler would call her and let her know he was O.K. Aside from that she didn't even know if he was still in Illinois, as every day went past she felt the silent clock inside her ticking.

She didn't want to share this with anyone else until she'd shared it with Adam, until they'd had a chance to be excited together in their own little bubble.

She was 11 weeks pregnant today, her doctor had told her she could continue her job as usual but obviously try to remain away from contact and listen to her body.

Right now, her body was screaming at her to slow down, but slowing down meant telling everyone else.

Adam would kill her if he was here, he would have never wanted her in the field at all while she was pregnant.

"Atwater and I got him… Burgess where you at?" Jay's voice came over the two-way. The three of them had gone after the suspect but Kim had fallen behind, way behind.

Kim took a few deep breaths trying to get the crushing feeling in her chest go away and her breathing less ragged.

"Uh… I'm just back a bit… I'll go back and get the car" she tried her hardest to hide her breathlessness. She turned and started walking back to the car just as Jay and Kevin rounded the corner behind her.

Kevin gave Jay a puzzled look, Kim was fast, she was usually the first to catch a perp with someone backing her up after if she needed it.

"What happened?" Kev asked as he jogged up to her, he looked at her face and noticed how flushed she was and scrunched his forehead up "You feeling ok?"

"I'm fine Kevin" she snapped as Al drove up, they put the offender into the back of Al's car and Kim jumped into the front and left with her partner thankful to have had a distraction from answering Kevin's questions.

"What was up?"

"No idea. She's not taking Ruzek being away well at all… she's barely been to Molly's, she's barely eating too. I brought her lunch the other day and she had a bite of the burger and a few fries and that's it, she usually eats like a horse. Have you heard anything about how much longer he's going to be?" Kev asked Jay concern flooding his voice, he'd promised Adam he would take care of her and he felt like he was failing.

"Erin said she hasn't been to the gym in a couple weeks either which is weird when she claims to be doing some challenge. Said every time she calls her she sounds like she's been asleep"

"Kelsey and I went over there the other day and she was sleeping, Kelsey's tried talking to her but she snaps and tells her she is fine"

"I'm sure she is, we are all a bit on edge with him away. It's a Feds case, the stakes a big and these things can go sideways quickly. She knows that, she's probably just worried"

"Yeah you're right" Kev said nodding.

...

"Kim, my office now" Voight said as he walked through the bullpen and into his office.
Kim felt her breath catch in the back of her throat and walked quickly after him.

"Shut the door"

Kim stared at him nervously, her heart thundering and her palms sweating. Voight looked up when she didn't make a move and instantly felt guilty.

"Sorry Burgess, it's not about Adam. I haven't heard anything"

Kim felt her body relax and let out a long breath, she was on edge and anytime anyone told her they needed to talk to her, or had a worried look on their face her brain instantly assumed something had happened to Adam.

"How are you doing with everything?" Voight had been shocked with how hard Kim was taking Adam being away, everyone had been. She was a shell of herself, she looked tired and she withdrew from the group outside of work. His conversation with Al had just explained a hell of a lot though.

"I'm fine, thanks" Kim replied looking at her hands in her lap.

Voight took a deep breath and leant back in his chair.
"I just had an interesting chat with O, before I ask you outright, is there anything you want to tell me?"

Kim knew Al was onto her, if anyone was going to notice it was going to be him, he helped her get her vest on every day and it was becoming increasingly tight. He'd also made a comment about her kit belt being let out by two button holes and he was forever coping the brunt of her pregnancy hormones.

Kim felt tears form in her eyes and she quickly wiped them away.

"I don't want to tell anyone until Adam gets home"

"Kim, I think you might have too… How many weeks?"

"11"

"You shouldn't be in the field, Ruzek wouldn't want you to be"

"I know" Kim tried to control her emotions, she didn't want to break down to Voight of all people.

"You are officially on desk duty, I won't tell anyone why, I'll say it's because you're distracted, it's not my place to tell. But you should tell everyone, this is a good thing Kim." Kim nodded and walked back to her desk.

A/N - Excuse any errors, I'm not a great editor!