This is bit different than what I usually write. But I hope that you like it.

"Longing hurts. But sometimes it's good to miss because only the longing shows the true importance that a person has in your life." ~Anonymous

Disclaimer: I don't own Fairy Tail or the quote. I own the plot ,and the plot alone.

"Longing"

Natsu's POV

I sat there looking at her smiling, laughing with the company of Sting, Sabertooth's new master and her new boyfriend, who was smirking at her. She looked at me, her ever beautiful smile on her face. I smiled back at her but only a few people knew and understood the pain and sadness behind that forced smile. But she didn't notice, thankfully. I was happy to see her cheery and so, alive with someone that she loved, though it hurt that, the 'someone' wasn't me. I tried to control myself, to keep trying to hold back my feelings. Being best friends with her should be enough, it was awesome no doubt but it wasn't enough for my love deprived heart not then, not ever. But it has to be now, there's not any other option anymore. Lucy's with Sting now and I gotta accept that, as her best friend at least.

I walked to the counter and saw Gray sitting there all by himself, I sat there beside him. He just looked at me for a second and looked away again. "Yo flame brain, you can fool many with that fake face but not me, I know you're not okay with... That" he said in a flash with emotionless face. "Why wouldn't I be, ice stripper?" I replied teasingly giving him a smile which was forced and that clear to the both of us. He snorted in frustration and finally made eye-contact with me. "You want me to believe that crap?". I was surprised by his sudden kickback but I just fake-smiled. I had learnt to hide my emotions quite well in these few days and that had helped well. "Well, stay quiet, I don't care... so, you do love her still, don't you?" He spoke in a low voice, enough so that most of the dragon slayers couldn't hear them except me. I just smiled at the thought, and this time it was genuine. Loving someone is the best feeling. Being loved is even better though, it makes you feel wanted, feel like you are needed by someone, it's ...comforting, to know that someone cares for you. While I was spaced out, it looked like Gray got his answer. He smiled slightly. "You love her that much, eh. Enough to let her go..." "I do and I always will" I replied in an instant. I was smiling, but on the verge of breaking into tears. But I couldn't do that to her. If Lucy spots me then, she'll start worrying about me, cause that always happens. And I don't want that, I wanted to give her the happiness that she has always deserved. And if it is not I who can provide that then I have no authority to get in the way of her happiness. At this point I started to walk home though the guild doors, those who knew my condition stopped anyone who tried stopping me. If they would have seen me like this that who knows what could happen. It started raining and I smiled yet I was crying. At least no one cane see my tears in the rain.

I wish that I was the one you wanted, but it is not so and I can live with that. Until you're happy, do anything and I will support you no matter what. It will hurt to see you with someone else Lucy but I can bear it easily...or try to at least. I had reached home, no one there as expected. I was tired and was still crying, there was no need to stop the tears from flowing so I Let them be and cried myself to sleep where a dreamless night awaited me.

A few weeks later...

It seems the are like weeks are like days when you are depressed. I am heart broken by the events happening but I will continue to smile the brightest I can. It is only fair that I do so, you truly what is happening, you truly deserve the love that you are getting. I'll be watching the whole time though and I'll stay like this, laughing along. I'll hold back my falling tears for you Luce, anything for you.

Alas it is time for it to happen. My nightmare to come true. I'm standing here admiring you in your beautiful white gown. While deep down my heart is breaking shard by shard, as painfully as possible. You walk through the aisle with Gray and I'll just watch from a distance, why? Because I cannot come any closer or someone will see my face and that, I cannot afford. I am in no position to do so, I have tears falling from my eyes, my eyes are red from crying and I want to scream that I love you so damn much and ,that is why I'll watch from here. Now you have reached your aisle and are reunited with Sting and you will be united with him for the rest of your life from today. It makes a smile, remembering when I realized I loved you, I was so dense to not realize sooner and this is the price I must pay now. I have never felt so vulnerable in my life but there is a first time for everything. A first time for love, a first time for heartbreak, a first time when your heart is tore to shreds, a piece at a time.

Your most memorable moments are done now, they will be most memorable for me as well Lucy ,I think even more than yours, oh you will never know Lucy Heartfilia, how much you mean for me, you are more dense than me and people considered me the dense of all, you will never know how much I longed for you...ever.