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A Doctor Who Fanfiction: Broken

Another tear slid down his cheek as he held the hand of the woman he loved. She'd grown so strong over the course of her life. She'd gone through so much. He had ruined what could've been a normal life before it began, and even though she always said otherwise, he knew she wondered what might've happened if he hadn't been a part of her life.
Well, for starters, she wouldn't be on her way to die. They were on Derillium, watching the Singing Towers, and the Doctor couldn't contain himself, crying. He handed River his sonic screwdriver, knowing that at least a part of her could live on without him. She looked at him cautiosly before taking it, and putting it into her pocket safely.
He remembered when he went to pick her up from Stormcage. He had been so excited to take River out on a proper date. He got a new haircut, a new suit, not thinking of what it might mean. He had gone to her, and as soon as the bars were open, she showed him a letter she had recieved. As he read it, pure terror gripped his hearts. She would be going to the Library on an expedition. Trembling, he used every once of stength in him to nod and smile at her, and tell her it sounded like a great idea. Still, he needed to take her on one last trip.
And that's what brought them to where they were now. He turned, embracing her, and crying harder. "Doctor, what's gotten into you?!" She said, wiping away a tear forming in her own eye. "See what you've done! You're making me cry!" He didn't say anything, just took in the moment with his wife.
He let her go, but still kept her at arm's distance, taking her hands in his. "River, I love you. Don't ever forget that." She nodded, somewhat suspicious, but brushed it off. Something was hurting him deeply, and she wanted to fix it. She grabbed his shoulders and pressed her lips against his.
The Doctor didn't hesitate to hold her closer and continue the kiss. Finally, she let go, wiping a tear from his face. "Don't cry anymore.."
He nodded, and they walked hand-in-hand back to the TARDIS. He had to take her back to Stormcage. She had to go to the Library. But that didn't make letting it happen any easier. If he kept her with him, he would die, and never meet River. She could be a normal girl, growing up like she should, being raised by her parents. It would be better for everyone if he had died back in the Library. Donna could live with the man she'd married in the computer world, and be happy, and Amy and Rory wouldn't suffer from him either. All would be fine.
Perhaps he could stop it. "Wait... River." His hair fell in front of his eyes as she reached for the door handle to leave.
"Yes Sweetie?" She hoped he would explain about earlier, she was so worried about him.
"There's something-something you need to know."
"What is it?" She walked back over to him, puttng a hand on his chest.
"I-I... You... I'm sorry-" He broke off into sobs, and she tried to console him.
"Why are you sorry? There's nothing to be sorry for."
"You... the Library... I-I can't-can't..."
"Can't what?" A lump was forming in her throat with phrase he mumbled, and tears threatened to fall. Was he trying to tell her what she thought he was?
"I can't let you go! You can't go... not now... not ever!" He held onto her tighter.
"Honey, it's just a trip. Don't worry, it's completely safe. Remember, I'm Professer River Song now." The words stabbed at his heart like knives, bittersweetly flowing into his mind. He covered his ears, trying to push it away.
"What is wrong?!" Her voice was strained, terrified by his actions. He slowly released his ears.
"River, I need you to do something for me."
"Anything."
"You saved me from my death, on our wedding day. I am going to do the same for you."
"Does that mean-?"
"Yes. If you go to the Library, you will die."
She stayed silent, a silent tear finally falling. "How? How would I die?"
"You know I can't tell you that." Her head lowered. Stupid wibbly wobbly timey wimey laws. This would be the biggest desicion of her life. If she didn't go, what would change? She saw him standing to his feet, walking to her.
"Please River. Don't go. Do this for me. It would spare me so much pain, please stay here. With me. Forever."
"Doctor, I-I don't know.." Suddenly, a device in her pocket beeped. She pulled it out, tossing it into the air. It turned into a hologram.
"River! There you are! We're waiting for you!" A man's voice said. It was the white Dave. His voice made the Doctor shudder at the memory of his skeleton in the space suit. "Hey, who turned out the lights?" The voice in his head played it over and over again.
River looked at the man, another tear sliding down her cheek. "River? What's wrong? Did something happen?"
"Dave, I.." She began hesitantly. "I'm not coming."
"What?! River, we need you! Come on, don't be ridiculous!"
"I'm not going." She said firmly.
"Well, alright. But, didn't you send a message to someone to meet us there? Someone called the Doctor?" River's eyes widened and her jaw dropped as she turned to her husband standing next to her, who smiled weakly. She was about to slap him in undirected hurt and anger as a golden tear streamed down his cheek, and they were engulfed in light.