Sometimes she visited him in his cage, and watched for long hours as he ranted and raved like a thing gone mad. The wild, soulless look in his eye always tore the old wound a little wider, and though she hadn't known him long, she always murmured to him in his kennel that he had hated so much before she left: "I'm sorry I wasn't quick enough."
Sometimes she visited him in his seat of luxury and extravagance, the highest noble in the Kitty's Court, and watched from the shadows in disgust and pity as the enslaved M.E.O.W.S. agents scurried around serving the lords, ladies, and other nobility that had sprang into being when the old enemy won, though now they all called her Highest and Most Beautiful Empress. The happiness was decadent and mostly fake, but the disappointment real, and it still filled her with sadness and longing every time he looked at her, and she always whispered to him in his throne of luxury: "I'm sorry I'm not the daughter you wanted."
Sometimes she visited the Seat of Power and stronghold of the Empress with her father, though his long white Persian coat always contrasted greatly with her own Russian Blue, and his conniving mind in as great a contrast with her determined forwardness, and she watched in jaded horror as gibbering, maddened canines were dragged out to be bated and killed for sport. Her father the once-upon-a-time convict always kept her out of the agent-cages, as they were called, and out of the spotlight, too, so she never was able to say what she wanted to, but she always thought to herself and the hideous bald cat on the throne: "I'm sorry I didn't take you down."
Sometimes she visited her memories, and longed for the days when everything was as it should be. The humans knew little deviation from the norm, aside from that dogs weren't safe anymore, but the animal world had been overturned completely. The Kitty's Court ruled all, and they ruled it with careless, train-wrecking abandon, and she always said to no one and the future kits she knew she would bear one day: "I'm sorry."