With my headphones blaring the tears flowing from my face and the sobs with them were blocked out from my ears. They didn't understand and they never would. My parents had split up when I told them I was gay. Mom hated me and didn't talk to me for a year and even now it was only a phone call on my birthday. Dad said it was a phase and that I would grow out of it. When his new wife found out she kicked me out telling me I could only come back when I had "Straightened out". That wasn't going to happen so I had packed up my laptop and the money I had saved up. Dad told me that he would put me though school. Maybe he felt bad or it was just to make him look like not a bad man for letting the step monster kick me out.
Music was my confort all my life and now was no expection. Dark music about killing people and tell them to fuck off was just what I needed at the moment and my old friend Itunes helped me find just that. Guitar riffs and drum solos helped make the trip to the coast pass quickly. If only they hadn't given me the seat next to that old guy that snores and head falls on your shoulder so he drools on you.
Once off the plane, I wiped off the pool of wet man ick off me, I sat down and waited. My dad never was on tiime, something that I gladly did not inhereit from his gene pool. People walk pass and I wonder about their life. Do they have people that they have disappointed? What was their life soundtract. Was it a list of happy love songs with that one hard rap song that would make you scared for a moment before everything went back to normal.
Finally I was sick of waiting and waved a cab down. The driver looked at me and I told him that I wanted to go to the campus. He was nice and tried to talk to me, that was more than I could say for anyone else. Waiting in the cab I notice someone coming to a stop by us and some kid was playing air drums. A closer look I could see that it was Jesse. Well that was a suprise... He smiled at me and waved before driving way.
Jesse had been a good friend when everyone had decided that me being gay wasn't cool. Maybe this college thing wouldn't be so bad. No one here knew I was gay, but I wasn't scared. I was going to let poeple know the real me, if they didn't like it then they could go fuck themselves. I wasn't looking for love, I just wanted to get my dream job and get away from my family.
I whispered to myself as I got out of the cab, "Here I come."
