Lena Luthor had to bite back a smile. As elated as she felt right now, she still wanted to retain an aura of calmness and control. It would've embarrassed her, had she come off looking like a lovestruck, starstruck, awestruck child! No, even though Supergirl was here, and wooing the crowd with all of her amazing talents, Lena fought hard to maintain a respectful expression and not reveal how truly excited she felt.
"Woah!" the crowd cheered as Supergirl flew right over their heads, close enough that they could feel the breeze she left in her wake, but far enough away that none of them were in any danger of being hit by her. They began to laugh and clap as she did a few loop-de-loops over the area.
"Wow," even Lena couldn't help but smile just a little bit, covering her mouth when she began to laugh. Supergirl just never ceased to amaze her! She was so wonderful, and in so many ways! But of course, Lena could never let this show... She had a reputation to uphold, after all! She was Lena Luthor! Calm, controlled, cool, professional... So as Supergirl swooped in once again, playfully using her ice breath to send a gust of cold air down at the audience, Lena continued to cover mouth to mask her smile. The crowd, however, fully indulged in their ecstasies, shrieking and giggling as they felt Supergirl's breath hiss down their necks. She looked just as ecstatic as they did.
"Honestly, Lena, learn to have a little fun!" from a few feet away, Lena's personal assistant chided her gently.
"Jess," Lena turned her respectful gaze upon the other woman.
"There's no need to be so formal today!" Jess insisted once again.
"Forgive me, Jess, but this is just how I am," Lena lied with a laidback expression. Jess gave her the barest of smirks.
"No it's not," she said. "You and I both know you're secretly over the moon to see Supergirl again. So why not just go ahead and indulge in it? Just this once?" but no amount of goading, pleading or chiding from Jess would yield any results. Lena only gently shook her head before turning her eyes back up towards Supergirl, who was still dazzling the crowd with all of her amazing skills. Lena allowed the tiniest of smiles to grace her face as Supergirl saluted all of her onlookers, but she didn't go any further than that.
An hour later, Supergirl's little demonstration was over and the crowd slowly dispersed away. Now, only Lena, Supergirl and several others remained in the vicinity. Lena wasn't looking to speak with Supergirl personally, nor was she there to eavesdrop on the conversation the Girl of Steel was having with those few others who still remained. Instead, she stood quietly in the background and simply observed. Although she'd never admit it, Jess hadn't been wrong in her earlier assessment regarding Lena's feelings towards the mighty Kryptonian. Lena did have a little celebrity crush on her, but to be honest, who in National City didn't? Supergirl was the name on everyone's lips and heart and Lena was no exception, she just pretended that she was, maintaining an aura of distance even though she, like Jess had said earlier, was over the moon just to see the Girl of Steel up close and personal.
But because she wished to maintain that high level of formality, and because she was, admittedly, still a bit awed and intimidated by the Girl of Steel, Lena continued to stand hidden as she watched the mighty superhero from afar, just ogling her and taking her all in in a place where no one else could see her indulge in her secret little celebrity crush. She dared to take a few steps closer, then, still just watching Supergirl speak. She couldn't hear a word the superhero was saying, but she didn't need to, just seeing Supergirl made her go weak in the knees, and the head. Gah! Lena was just so in love! But could anyone blame her? Supergirl was just so beautiful! And power and righteous and... good! She was a hero, savior, friend and companion, and she was everything that Lena wanted to be. She represented all of Lena's hopes and dreams and she stood for everything that Lena considered good and noble and moral. What more could she possibly want out of the Girl of Steel?
Well, maybe there was one thing Lena still wanted from Supergirl, though she'd never admit it to anyone. She scarcely even admitted to herself! But right now, just standing there and watching Supergirl talk, posture so proud and strong yet so relaxed and happy, Lena couldn't deny it any longer. What she still really wanted from Supergirl was Supergirl's attention. She wanted her celebrity crush to be a little more requited and a little less one-sided. Did Supergirl even know she existed? Of course, on some level, Supergirl knew about her, but it wasn't by much. Lena wished that the Girl of Steel might one day get a little more familiar with her and maybe turn their formal and polite alliance into a friendship...
But then Supergirl suddenly took off, waving farewell to the few people that had hung back to speak with her. As she left everyone down below on the ground while she returned swiftly to the skies, Lena heaved a sad sigh. Perhaps it was a silly, stupid thing to hope for, but in the very farthest and darkest reaches of Lena's mind, Lena couldn't help but wonder what it might've been like to be Supergirl's Lois Lane. It was her most guilty and unrealistic pleasure. But watching Supergirl fly away so easily made Lena realize that such a dream would never come true. A Luthor and a Super? Romantically together? That was crazy! Surely Supergirl would never truly trust her enough for them to become romantic partners! But even if she did, ignoring Lena's last name and all of its hideous implications and connotations, that still didn't guarantee that she would ever feel anything for Lena. True love didn't always follow common sense, and there may come a day when Supergirl trusted Lena with her life, but that didn't automatically guarantee a romantic attraction.
But even deeper than that, there were days when even Lena doubted her own feelings for the Girl of Steel. Was it really a crush that she had on Supergirl? Or was it just that typical starstruck, wonderstruck feeling that everyone felt when confronted with the heroic Kryptonian? Or was it a strange, slightly twisted manifestation of Lena's own desires, hopes, admirations and envies? That is to say, was it all just a silly little celebrity crush that Lena was unintentionally blowing out of proportion just because she respected and admired the Girl of Steel so much? To be quite honest, she really didn't know. One side of her admitted that maybe she was taking this little crush a bit too seriously, but the other side of her felt as though nothing could be truer than the powerful way she felt for National City's champion... But she just couldn't help it! Supergirl was just too good of a person. How could Lena not fall for such a strong, proud, brave, independent woman? She might've been the Girl of Steel, but she had a heart of gold and a will of iron. How could Lena not fall in love with that?
But then Lena set her sights back down to earth. The few stragglers were finally walking away now that Supergirl was gone. This thought settled back in to Lena's mind and she heaved another sigh. What did it matter how she felt for the Girl of Steel? Supergirl would never ever know and she obviously had no intention of ever figuring it out or becoming more enlightened on the subject. So why did it matter? Why did any of what Lena felt for Supergirl matter if all Supergirl was ever going to be to her was a distant ally? Supergirl could never find out that Lena had a celebrity crush on her! It was too embarrassing! But if Supergirl never found out, what was the point of it all? What was the point in wondering and worrying? And why did Lena still care and dream so much?
The CEO of L-Corp shook her head chidingly at herself, silently telling herself to get her head out of the clouds. Hadn't she indulged in her dirty little fantasy enough already today? It was time to get back to reality! She had to put her stupid little celebrity crush away. She wasn't some dewy-eyed schoolgirl! But even as Lena finally left the area, the very last person to go, she still couldn't help but mask another smile and another thrill as she remembered how wonderful it had been to see her idol and hero once again and she couldn't wait for the next time she would have an excuse to meet the Kryptonian face to face. She really was shamelessly in love!
AN: Just a random little drabble set some time in S2 to muse over Lena's celebrity crush on Supergirl. It's honestly my headcanon that Lena was secretly a huge Supergirl fangirl, she just was too proud and embarrassed to show it. But mostly, I was inspired by the scene in 2x05 when Supergirl attends Lena's party to protect it. When she flies off (to quickly change back into Kara Danvers) you can see Lena just stare up after her with the most awestruck, lovestruck face ever. And this is only one of several other examples where S2 Lena gets really starstruck whenever Supergirl is around. (Another that occurs just earlier in 2x05 is when Lena first asks Supergirl to her party. When Supergirl flies into her office, Lena just says, "Supergirl!" with the most adorable, fangirling tone ever).
And another minor inspiration was a line in 3x19 when Lena bashes Supergirl to Kara's face and says, "Never meet your idols, it'll only lead to disappointment,". Sad as that line is, Lena outright calls Supergirl her idol there, so I genuinely believe that at least during S2, Lena had a celebrity crush on SG. Not Kara, but SG.
I also feel like Lena had a slight celebrity crush on Superman too because who didn't? And she does seem to respect and admire him greatly, even daring to call him a good man to Lex's face during Lex's war against him in 4x15. So I feel like she genuinely likes and respects Superman, but she can't admit it because she, as a Luthor, is expected to dislike him.
Mainly, I just wanted a dorkier, sweeter, more innocent and nerdy side to Lena, and I love the idea that she sort of has a playful, childish, celebrity crush on SG. Besides, it opens up the conversation for headcanons on how Lena feels about Supergirl (at least during S2 BEFORE everything gets really tense and awkward).