No one told Katherine how she would know. No one told her that she would wake up one morning with Sean's arm comfortably around her, his face pressed against the back of her neck and she would just know.
The first time, she had known it wasn't right. She was unhealthy, and even without the doctor she would have lost the baby. That baby wasn't meant to come into the world, this one was. She could feel it. This baby was full of life already, making her sick to her stomach as she sat up.
When she had felt that feeling with the first child she had slipped out of the house, throwing up in the gutters, a hat pulled down and her wearing Sean's clothes as she made the way to Adrinana's house.
She didn't hate Magic, not at all. She would never be like Magic, she would never smile coyly or have unflappable faith in anything.
But Magic would know how to get rid of this child that wasn't supposed to be. If Cards was being honest she wanted Spot to ask her to marry him, then have the baby. She knew that in all honesty in Brooklyn marriage went both ways just as easily. But she wanted to have it the normal way.
Magic had seen the desperation in her eyes, the hurried way Cards knocked on the door and had sighed, looking over her shoulder at Bumlets who was sleeping in their bed.
She had gulped, taking Cards to a doctor who she knew did good work and who didn't ruin you chances for having another child. They had talked for the first time.
"You done this before?" Cards had gulped, wanting to cry.
"A few times" Magic nodded "One was Spots" She whispered. "The first one"
"Ever tell him?"
"And ruin what we had? No. I had one of the others though, not Spot's, or Bumlets' I don't know whose. When I disappeared for a few months. Gave it up for adoption"
Cards turned looking at her, nodding.
"It not his?" Magic whispered.
"Might not be" Cards lied. Magic knew her too well, they hardly talked but Magic knew her. Knew that she wanted Spot in a way that Magic never did. And knew that Spot and her couldn't fuck things up. Magic wasn't involved in the gang work they did, she stayed out of it. Preferring to stay with Bumlets, and the way they were together rather then the reality of the world Cards and Spot lived in. Magic knew that if Spot found out and it was his, he would never forgive Cards.
She had done it anyway. Because she couldn't deal with loosing it without it being her choice.
But this baby, Cards could feel it, this baby was meant to live and this baby was going to survive. She turned, moving Spot's hand and looking at his face.
He was so peaceful in sleep, looking like an angel. She wouldn't tell him now. But she knew now.
She would tell him.
Because she could feel this baby needed them.
Author's notes: AWW Little Leo! To clear things up, The middle is Cards getting an abortion from the first time she got pregnant. the begining and end are her being pregnant with Leo.