As he sat in that field, in the middle of nowhere, crying for his losses and the deaths and misery he caused, Cas innocent and pure before he laid siege in hell to find him ,an obedient soldier until he asked Cas to disobey, alive until he asked for 5 minutes to talk with Sam alone and Lucifer blew him up for throwing a Molotov of holy fire at Michael, bobby his adopted dad who was always doing too much for him ,he even shot the devil trying to protect him and also sold his soul to a demon to find out where death was so would now be undergoing torture in hell , dad who sold his soul so he could live and he still couldn't make his dad proud ,it was his one job to protect his brother and he couldn't even do that, mom who loved him and his brother so much she lived in misery as a ghost for over twenty two years hoping to see them again, Pamela who he called in so she could help stop one stupid seal ,which had the same effect of stabbing the devil, and died for it, Jo and Ellen who blew themselves up so he and Sammy could kill the devil with colt, but when he shot the devil he got back up and laughed ,ash who was burnt alive for trying to tell them about the devils gate that colt made, Hendrickson who was tortured by Lilith and watched 5 others tortured before his turn and then was dragged back to life by Lilith to break a seal and also to come after them and try kill them, Samuel his granddad who was stabbed in the stomach whilst possessed by yellow eyes as to hurt him, Deanna his grandma who was killed by her husband who had just stabbed himself as he was possessed because she shouted out to stop him so he broke her neck, Sammy his little brother, who died to stop the apocalypse he started because he wasn't strong enough in hell and gave in and started torturing, everyone dead because of him its all his fault he deserves to be dead not them.
Before he can think of more people dead because of him or do something stupid like kill himself he hears a noise and when he looks up he sees cas looking down at him ,just looking , then in his state of something between shock relief and disbelief he states the obvious that his alive in response cas mysteriously answers back " I'm better than that "and clears up what was starting to confuse him by healing him then he asks stupidly cas if he's God which of course he's not but he can't help hoping so ,as if he is he would have the power to bring Sammy back, cas answers back "no but that's a nice compliment but I do believe he brought me back "which leaves him wondering why ,why would god help dean ,why now. But soon after very grateful as cas brings bobby back.
Afterwards is a massive blur of pain , despair and loneliness because cas leaves to go back to heaven and he has nothing but his car again so he goes to Lisa's just as he promised Sam he would but as she answers the door he starts to allow himself to break down, his voice starts to break when he asks "can I take you up on that beer now" then he completely breaks down and they stand they hugging on the porch.
the end
authors notes: please review this is going to be a remake for series six of supernatural and is my first ever supernatural fic so please review i really Appreciate you taking the time to read this and i enjoyed writting it so thank you