Alright. This is a little piece I wrote for a friend who was going through a very tough time to show her that she could make it through because she is strong. Depression is a very serious thing. I have lived with it since I was thirteen and I'm about to turn thirty in a few weeks. I have been on and off medications and been through therapy and have the scars to prove that the struggle to find the will to keep going is real. I dedicate this story to those that have ever suffered from depression, or those that have loved ones who have. Keep fighting.

~Noxy

Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural. I just borrowed them.

Prologue: Goodbye

"It wasn't like that!"

"It was from where I was standing."

"It really wasn't like that!"

"You had your tongue down her throat! You were kissing her like no tomorrow! You were looking at her as if she was your entire world wrapped up a red dress!"

"How many times do I have to say it before you believe me?! I never saw her! I thought I was with you! I thought it was you I was kissing."

"So now you're mistaking a random girl for me?"

"That was no girl as you saw. That was the thing we were supposed to be hunting. I'm sorry that I stupidly fell into it's trap!"

"Maybe if you didn't go chasing after every little hot thing that catches your eye maybe it wouldn't be a problem!"

"I thought we talked about this! It's just the way I am. It's my nature."

"Oh really? Being a man-whore is in your nature? Which one would that be, hmm? The Trickster part or the Archangel part?"

"That's not fair and you know it."

"Since when do you give a damn about playing fair?"

"Maybe since I found someone that I care about."

"I think you're both being unreasonable about this so why don't we just cool our jets before someone says or does something that they regret?"

"Stay out of this Dean."

"He's right you know. Let's just calm down and talk about this like two rational adults."

"Oh so now you're taking my brother's side over mine?!"

"No! I'm just saying-"

"But you agree with him?"

"If it means working this out between us then yes!"

"Why? You going to fuck him next?"

"..."

"That was uncalled for Sammy."

"Didn't I tell you to stay out of this Dean?"

"He's just trying to help."

"Help what? Find you the next notch on your bedpost? If so then at least you went to the right person. Dean only knows how to do one night stands."

"Sammy!"

"I told you I haven't slept with anyone since the beginning of our relationship. Loyalty is one of the base traits of an archangel."

"You wouldn't know what a real relationship was if it walked up and slapped you right in your smug face. Maybe that's why all of them failed."

"One could say the same about yours."

"At least I didn't sleep with my brother!"

"What do you want from me Sam? Why are you making this into such a big thing?"

"Maybe because I don't think I can trust you! You flirt with everyone you come across and then you make it seem like it's no big deal! I mean what happens at night after I go to sleep? Do you rush off to them and try to coax them into bed? Are you hoping to find a quick fuck to get your rocks off? What?"

"I never have and I never will cheat on you."

"Then what happened tonight? You had your tongue down her throat and her hand was in your pants! What do you call that?!"

"I call it being caught in a trap that you saved me from."

"..."

"Sam?"

"I can't do this anymore. I can't handle watching you flaunt yourself for everyone to fawn over."

"Are you serious?"

"Yes I'm serious! I can't do this anymore!"

"Sam if we just-"

"Get out."

"What?"

"I want you gone. I want you to leave."

"You want some space then? Time to work this out?"

"No! I want you out of my life."

"You can't mean that."

"I can. I never want to see you again."

"Sam please!"

"Get out Gabriel! Get out and never come back! Ever! I don't want you in my life!"

"Is that what you really want Sam?"

"Yes."

"Fine. I'll leave but I want you to know that making me leave won't change how I feel about you. I will always love you."

"I hate you."

"Goodbye Sam."

SSSSSSSSSSSSS

18 Months Later

"You're sure about this?"

"Yes. I was checking the area for any signs of the monster and I saw him there."

"What was he doing?"

"He was at a den of iniquity. He was drinking and indulging but he seemed strange."

"How so?"

"I walked right up to him and said hello but he didn't seem to realize it was me. He seemed almost dazed. I fear what this could mean. He may have been injured or worse to be in such a state."

"What could be worse?"

"You said yourself that he took the break up rather hard did he not?"

"He looked like he wanted to rip his heart out of his chest and lay down and die right there."

"Maybe he was just very drunk."

"I don't know Cas. It took a liquor store to get you drunk. Something tells me it'll take more then that to get an archangel drunk."

"What are we going to do Dean?"

"Well if we do find him then we'll just have to keep him out of Sam's sight until this case is over. Maybe get him a nice motel room and put him in a ring of holy fire. Then once the case is over we'll let him out and everyone is happy."

"And why is everyone happy?"

"No reason Sammy. Cas was just telling me about this bar slash brothel place this creature went to. Looks like we'll have to hit it up."

"Alright. Car's packed so let's go."

"You go ahead. We'll meet you in the car."

"Okay."

"..."

"..."

"..."

"..."

"Whatever happens we cannot let Sam find out that Gabriel's there. I don't care what we have to do but they can't run into each other."

"Why are you so intent on protecting Sam?"

"It's not Sam I'm trying to protect. Now let's get out of here. Hopefully we can gank this mother before it does anymore damage."