Wonder What's Next Chapter 1: Sad Songs for Dirty Lovers, an inuyasha fanfic

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha or "Halo"by Haley James Scott or "Sad Songs for Dirty Lovers" is the name of the 2003 album from the band, The National.

So I posted the first two chapters of this story awhile ago, but I got no reviews so I abandoned it. I'm reposting and hoping you all enjoy. If I get any review I'll post more chapters. Basically this chapter is Kagome singing at an open mike night as a way of public apology (or non-apology, more of a justification) to the people she's wronged. The next few chapters will go to the story that led up to this event.

Chapter one:

Sad Songs for Dirty Lovers.

Kagome squinted as the stage lights flashed in her face. She scanned the room and located a brother, a lover, an ex-best friend, an ex-boyfriend and Kikyo (she's indescribable) . The lover or ex lover, she really wasn't sure, stared back at her, then at her enemy then at her again. The ex boyfriend looked away. Her former best friend and her enemy stared blankly at her, with no emotion, which hurt her most. Indifference was way worse than hatred, she decided. When her younger bother smiled at her encouragingly she felt a little better.

She also saw a crowd of at least seventy people in the crowded bar. She looked up at the banner above her that read "Open Mic Night" and closed her eyes. Sure she was nervous. She never sang in public. She was usually the whispering observer. The one who whispered curiously and joked about how fucking awful the nervous person would be. No, Sango would say fucking awful. Kagome would tell her to stop being mean even though she really agreed with her. Kagome just hated the work fuck. It sounded dirty and wrong.

(Whores say fuck)

Well, fuck fuck fuck, let's get the show on the road. She thought to herself. Now that she was dirty and wrong she should be able to say it. The audience stared and began their judgmental whispering. Fucking losers. She took another deep breath and closed her eyes.

(Now or never you whore, go on you slut!)

She opened her mouth to sing.

I never promised you a ray of light,
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday,

I give you everything I have, the good, the bad.

Sango and Kikyo, new best friends sharing an inside joke scoffed and rolled their eyes.

Why do you put me on a pedestal,
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below,
So help me down you've got it wrong, I don't belong there.

She looked down and paused nervously. Her brother gave her an encouraging nod and she continued.

One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

I always said that I would make mistakes,
I'm only human, and that's my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded

See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don't belong there.

Her ex-boyfriend Hojo put his coat back on and stormed out of the bar. A few people looked to stare, but most of the audience listened to her voice.

Why you think that you know me
But In your eyes
I am something above you
It's only in your mind
Only in your mind
I wear a
I wear a
I wear a Halo

Inuyasha, her lover or ex, whatever he was stared unsure. He stared at Kikyo again, who turned away, trying to be strong, but she was ready to cry. Inuyasha turned again to Kagome who was to into the song to notice.

Haaaa ha-ha halo

Kagome remembered that last few months.

Haaaa ha-ha halo

She remembered her and Sango laughing together.

Haaaa ha-ha halo

…her boring yet stable and nice relationship with Hojo.

Haaaa ha-ha halo

…seeing Kikyo showing off the engagement ring Inuyasha gave her at a party.

Haaaa ha-ha halo

…getting the call that her brother might have…

Haaaa ha-ha halo

…hugging Inuyasha.

Haaaa ha-ha halo

…kissing Inuysha.

Haaaa ha-ha halo

…making love with Inuyasha.

Haaaa ha-ha halo

…getting caught.