Disclaimer: I sadly own none of the Naruto characters -sigh- and I do not gain any money out of this Fan fiction, there for, this mean I do not need too get a piece of paper in the mail calling me too court just because you want too sue me. I do own my own plot so go make your own.

Warning: Yaoi if you don't wanna read it then don't If you do don't complain I think I've made this as clear as it can be, wait no here- BoyXBoy, incest, Lemons, language, and probably some rape, I don't know so, now I have warned you if this isn't clear enough you need serious help.

Pairings: Naru/Gaar, Sasu/Ita, Lee/Saku, Kaka/Iru, Tema/Shika, Ino/Choj, a little Kiba/Aka but then eventualy Kiba/Shin, Hin/Nej. Yeah I think that's it may be added too later though.

Note: This is a place that I can test my FanFictions so, here's my very first one that I wrote about a year and a half ago, its about in total 120chapters long, if you let it be. I had spent a whole year writing this and now I'm putting on here. Yes. I have many more too post but I will take one fic at a time.

Freezing Heart, Burning Soul

Chapter 1: The Broken

The tears wouldn't stop coming. I trusted you, when I had locked my trust away, I loved you, when I lost my heart, and I followed you when I lost my way.

Why?

What have I done? I trusted, loved, and followed. Ironically the only one thing that held me together until you showed up, was my path. Not my heart, it was frozen but it melted, not my trust it was locked, but you found the key, the only thing that made me fall apart was the way you led me, then left me.

'I hurt you because I love you'

The dark whispers fill my soul with hate. I'm not stupid I know that no one loves me, and I know that I will never get a chance too feel love, for I will never experience the feeling from another. And yet these words are spoken too make me feel like someone cares.

'I wouldn't do this if I didn't have too'

Another lie spoken into the broken, the defenceless, the lost, and too put it simply, me. Once again showering a weak person with hope and making this person feel like his dreams could come true, false security.

'You brought this upon yourself'

Putting the sins of yourself on a child, is the greatest sin of all. Filling me with dread and making me hate myself, because I think I caused my own pain.

'If you love me you'll do this'

The words that drug me down into this hell full of lies, despair, and darkness.

'Naruto-kun I love you, now hold still so I can take you down'

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The tears that slid down my cheeks burn, the salt is just the memory that keeps me alive, knowing at the same time, I am already dead. I bet your warm snuggled up in bed, I bet you feel better cause you hit me, and made me bleed. My innocence was something precious, I was still naive and still thought you would keep me safe but then...a lone tear slid down the pale cheek as I whispered the poem I made last night crying myself too sleep.

"How many times have I sat in disdain

telling myself too get over the pain

listening too the comforting words echoing off the wall

holding my heart, encased in darkness waiting for me too fall

in one time I would have cried, run straight into your arms

but that was back when my heart was still pure, and still safe from your harm

now where have I seen this picture, of giving another chance

definitely not now I'll leave without a second glance"

By the time I was done reciting it from memory, I felt my heart clench, no one knew what happened in this house, and no one cared. I have always known this, but actually acknowledging it is what hurts more. Then I heard the voice that surrounded me with darkness, silence, and loneliness.

"Oh, Hinata-Chan I need you to do me a favor" That voice was the abuse, and as I was slowly rising only one thought passed through my mind.

'Pay backs a Bitch, Mother'

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Its so cold, I don't know why I have too do this. I just wanna go home, but father says I can't come home until I earn three hundred dollars. Looking around I see cars passing by, and a couple girls get into a black car with barley anything on.

I don't understand why I have too wear this either, its a very short pink skirt, you can almost see my panties, and a blue shirt that only covers half my chest, showing all my stomach. I didn't notice the car that pulled up in front of me, or that this was going too be my hell.

"Hey, how much you want girl?" my blue eyes looked up and stared into lustful brown. How much what? I don't understand, pretty soon though I'll understand perfectly, I am an innocent, about too watch it fly away. He looks down at my body through the window, and I turn away blushing, maybe he means money but, why would I get free money?

"Um, my father says I need too bring him three hundred dollars, and too tell whoever, its cause I'm in..innocent? Yeah innocent." I see him look at me, in his eyes is sadness, he then gave a depressing sigh. I could see pity it them too, but why pity?

"Get in the car, the least I can do is make your first time less painful, but" he looked me straight in the eye and his gaze was soft this time "you need too understand you probably wont get treated this was again" I was confused. What did he mean? I nodded reluctantly and got in. He handed me a wad of green stuff and muttered 'I'm sorry you need this though, and your gonna hate me' I was very confused now. Hate? Pain? What was this?

As the man drove off I saw all of the girl that were next too the ally with me, gaze at the car, and some started too cry. I don't understand. I look at the man and I see his eyes are full of regret, and something new guilt.

"Whats wrong? Is something the matter?" He looked out of the corner of his eyes at me and started talking.

"Do you know what your doing there next too the ally? Do you know why I picked you up?" I shook my head. I had no clue what was happening but his next words stopped my heart, and at that moment I knew love, was only a word, for the parents I once loved, are now my hate, my sadness, my hell.

"You are now a whore, a slut, and your parents just put you there."

'Ino, you've been betrayed. Your a whore'

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I can hear him screaming downstairs at my younger brother, and I know that my brother is crying. I am sitting here doing nothing for him and it tears me apart, because I can't help but think 'Better him than me' I hate myself for that. It started just today, and somehow I know it will last a long time. I know what is happening when I hear my brother cry for us, I can also hear myself say nothing in return.

"Nii-chan, Otouto-san. Help!!" I can hear the pain in his voice, the betrayal but I cant help, I am suffering enough, I remember when I was younger still so innocent, Kankuro too, he would do something on accident and get beat.

I would always take the beatings whenever I could, and soon after the rape, but now I cant do it. It's almost like I want too, need to, but I cant, my body wont let me. So later on when its quiet my young brother will walk by our open doors look at us with hate and lock himself in his room. Each day that will passes so will his cries, eventually it will be like he's numb of it, on his face the first time will be anger, then a couple years later it will be nothing.

Kankuro was going down that path but I stopped him because I protected him, this time though--there is no one who will save

Gaara

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I feel tears threaten too fall in my eyes, my brother's screams echo in my bare room. I close my eyes tightly as I hear him scream for me, and Tamari. I can hear the loud 'smack' of my father's hand, as it probably connects with my brother's cheek. I can feel it in my heart the pain, but unlike me, he has no one too protect him. Temari is probably in her room crying too.

I wish I could help my otouto, but I cant. I could barley protect myself until Temari helped me, I know my brother will hate me when he grows older, hell I hate me right now.

"Nii-chan, Otouto-san. Help!!" I cant contain my tears any more and they slide down my cheeks like waterfalls. It hurts too hear the hate, the betrayal in his young voice, too know your the one who cant stop the feelings of hate from growing, because you cant stop whats creating those feelings. I can hear something break as he is thrown into it, ad I know what it is- the table.

I know what the future will bring I can see it, a hateful boy who only loves himself, someone who shows no compassion, no feelings, except for anger, or hate. He will love only himself, and I will be part too blame for the hateful person he will become. I will be the reason why- reason why he was given the name he was--

Gaara

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It hurts, I can feel the sting in my cheek where I was slapped, the agonizing pain in my back from where I was thrown into the living room coffee table, and I can feel the tears slid down the sides of my head as I stare at the ceiling. I don't know whats worse knowing that you cant help yourself, or knowing no one will help you anyways.

"Your a monster. You took my sweet, and loving wife away from me!!" I can hear his drunken shouts as he kicks me in my side, I can hear myself whimper as he dose it again which changes my position. I stare at the wall in silence letting the tears slid down. I don't know what I did, I cant even remember my mother.

"Well? What do you have too say for yourself!?!" I understand the demand, and I stop crying, now filled with rage, I stand too my feet shakily, slipping once until I finally stood, and looked him in the eye, I put everything I am into the look: Hate, sadness, hurt, anger, abandonment, and resentment.

"I hate you, and when I'm older...You.Will. Die" I can see the fear, of course what do people do when their afraid? I can feel his fist connect with my jaw, searing pain shoots down my spine as I hit the shattered remains of the glass table once again, the dirty boot of my father pushes down on my stomach, grinding the glass deeper into my back.

"The only thing you'll be doing is bleeding the demon out with your blood" He puts all his weight on the foot, my blood is slowly covering the floor, not really caring seeing as he isn't going too let up, I look into his eyes once more and growl.

"You wanna see your wife? Drop dead." I don't know when too stop apparently cause he lifts the foot and stomps on my chest, coughing up crimson blood, he laughs and steps away.

"Go too your room monster" I roll away, spitting the blood out of my mouth then wiping it with my black torn up sleeve, and get on my hands and knees, slowly starting my journey too my room.

"Oh, and Gaara, your mother never loved you, she never wanted you, no one dose, or they would be helping, ne?" I know this is true and don't even turn around, as he walks out the front door, probably too get more drunk. I stand in hallway right in between my brother and sist-- no they are no family of mine-- Kankuro, and Temari's rooms and kicks one open then the next.

I stand there shaking with hate, I can hear both rise, and their foot steps as they walk too their doors. They stopped and looked at me with sorrow, Temari reached out too me, I slap her hand away.

"Otou--" Temari starts, I glare at her severely. I hate her, she..she could hear me calling, but thought only about herself, leaving me too our--their father's drunken rage too face alone, they had no right too call me brother.

"Ga--" I turned on Kankuro with the same hate shutting him up. I turned away from both, stumbling toward my room, which is the last room in the hall way, right next too the bathroom, once there I stop, not turning I spoke the words only someone who could be numb would say.

Your brother died the exact moment his family turned on him. You have no right too call me brother" I turned my head, and looked them both in the eyes "because I have no one but myself." My heart clenched for the last time as I walked into my dark room and slowly closed my door, the last sound my heart would hear, would the 'click' of the key, and the 'ting'--

'as I threw it away'

A/N:Alright the purpose of this is because I wanted you too get a guess of

what later chapters are gonna be like this will tie together with the story at the end.

I'm doing this as a test of sorts so

R&R tell me if you like, and if I should continue!!

And I usually update pretty fast, but I do have too go too Washington so it will only be

three days till next chapter Promise