Little voice of Love Chapter 1 one sweet love, an icarly fanfic

Little Voice of Love

A/n: This is a seddie story based on the songs of Sara Bareilles in her CD little voice. It shows the ups and downs of Sam and Freddie's relationship.

Chapter one: one sweet love

Disclaimer: My name is not Dan my name is Paige. I am not a middle age producer dude I am a teenage fanfic writer chick. I DO NOT OWN SARA BAREILLIES OR ICARLY, OK PEOPLE.

Wind rushed around me. Thoughts spun in my head. Raindrops streaked my windshield like tears. Blurring colors and memories. "Just get out of here. Get out of my room. Get out of my apartment. Get out of Seattle. Get out of my life!" The harshness of the voice was imprinted in my memory forever. It was Freddie's voice. Then pain in relization was worse then the first time he broke my heart. I knew I could never go back.

I was nine years old the day I met Freddie Benson. It was a regular summer Seattle day. It was warm and plenty of muggers and hobos were on loose. I was looking out beyond the observation deck of the space needle at all the tall buildings and when I got bored looking at that side of seattle I would move to the side with the waterfront or the side with the mountains in the distance includind Mt. Rainier. As I looked through the telescope I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned around to see a boy about my age smiling at me.

"Will you stop smiling? You look like a major dork when you smile like that you know"

The boy ignored my rudness and continued to smile "My name is Freddie. I just moved here."

"Oh, I'm Samantha"

"Can I look through the telescope?" The boy said pointing to the telescope.

"Go ahead I've seen so much Seattle that I could tell you what street I'm on blind folded." The boy looked throught the telescope but continued to talk to me while he discovered the secrets of seattle.

"I think I will go to your school when school starts again"

"Ridgeway?"

"Yep"

"Cool."

"Don't you just love seattle?"

"Yeah it's awesome. Maybe I can show you around sometime"

"Sounds cool" The boy said moving from the telescope.

"You know what my favorite thing about Seattle at night is?"

"What?" he asked.

I began looking throught the telescope again."The thrill you get from knowing that you might get mugged in a dark alley at any time." He was silent for a minute so I looked from the telescope again to find him giving a scarred creeped out look. I burst into laughter. He actually was gullible enough to believe me. After a few seconds of confusion Freddie realised I was joking and joined in on the laughter. After a while we were rolling on the floor laughing even though it wasn't really that funny.

2 years later

"Hey sammantha" he said with a big kiddish grin.

I gave a smile in return and he just grinned bigger.

"Can I walk you home after school again?" Does he really have to ask anymore?

"Sure Freddie, but only if you carry my backpack"

"Like always" he laughed and I felt like I was on a cloud. Nothing else mattered when I was with him. It was magic.

This was when we were only young kids and I had not yet become the Sam that you know now. Not only were Freddie and I best friends but he also had a major crush on me like the one that most people know as the crush he has on Carly. Back then I kind of liked his puppy crush. I loved having him love me. One day I relized I felt the same way toward him but I was to late.

"Freddie are you ready to walk me home?" I asked excited that I would finally tell him.

"Sorry I'm walking Carly home" He said looking distracted and distant.

"Oh" My smile left and so did my excitement. I watched as he left the school with Carly, carrying her backpack and looking at her longingly the way he had to me so many times before. That was the day he broke my heart and I became Sam Puckett the tough girl.

"Who is taking you to the dance on Friday?" I asked Carly in history class as I turned around to face her. She grinned up from her notes that she had been busily taking.

"Oh no one just Griffen" she replied as if it was no big deal but her excitement wasn't hidden very well.

"Griffen?" I asked confused thinking about the reason they broke up and the whole pee wee babies problem.

"Well after dating Shane when he got out of the hospital I relized that Griffen's creepy obsession was nothing compared to Shane's"

"Why didn't you tell me that you and shane hooked up after he was out of the hospital?"

"Well not only did I think you were still crushing on him but I also tried to block him out of my memory because of his obsession"

"Why? What was his creepy obsession?" I asked getting more curious but acting like I didn't really care. Carly looked around to make sure no one could hear.

"I was getting ready for a date with him and he came early so I told him to wait in my room while I got my coat in the coat closet. But when I came back he was wearing a dress out of my closet!" My mouth dropped. Who would have known Shane was one to dress in girls clothes. Not even Gibbys do something as weird as that.

"That's… majorlly messed up" Was all I could choke out as I thought of how I could have possibly liked him.

"I kicked him out of our apartment so fast that he never got a chance to change and so he still has my dress." Carly sighed and I rolled my eyes. She cares way to much then she should about clothes. It's funny that she is even my best friend, we are so different.

"Carly it's only a dress. Your so melodramatic."

"But it was special because I saved it aspecially for this dance." She began doodling Mrs. Carly Masters on the margins of her notes. I smiled. At least Carly has a date with someone for the dance.

"What about you, Do you have a date?" Carly asked as if she read my mind.

"No and I personally don't give damn" Carly flinched when I sweared.

"Sam don't swear!" I rolled my eyes. Carly has been trying to make me a better person by forbiding me to swear, steal, or any other Sam like behaivor. Trust me it's hard.

"Sorry Carls I forgot." She rolled her bell rang and I jumped out of my seat and dashed out of the classroom quickly. As I ran I ran into a certain nerd who broke my heart.

"Ouch!" Freddie yelled out.

"Sorry freddorkus I don't know how I could have avoided your big head." He rolled his eyes.

"So you got a date to the dance?" he asked.

"No" I couldn't help but seem disappointed when I said it this time.

"Well I wondering if…"

"If?…"

"If maybe you would do something for me" I got extremely excited all of a sudden like I did when I almost told him I love him back when we were kids. Except this time he was going to tell me first.

"What do you want?"

"Can you find out if Carly will go to the dance with me?" My heart sunk again.

"I'll ask her but there is no way she'll say yes." I said

"Oh" he says gloomily. It will always be like this I love him, he loves Carly, and he will never love me back.

Freddie POV

What was the point of liking Carly? At first it was to make Sam jellous. Then it was because I thought I loved Carly. Now I think I'm just denying my feelings for Sam.

I already gave my heart away back when I was nine and I never really got it back.

Just about the time the shadows call
I undress my mind and dare you to follow
Paint a portrait of my mystery
Only close my eyes and you are here with me
A nameless face to think I see
To sit and watch the waves with me till they're gone
A heart I'd swear I'd recognize is made out of
My own devices....
Could I be wrong?

[CHORUS]
The time that I've taken
I pray is not wasted
Have I already tasted my piece of one sweet love?

Sleepless nights you creep inside of me
Paint your shadows on the breath that we share
You take more than just my sanity
You take my reason not to care.
No ordinary wings I'll need
The sky itself will carry me back to you
The things I dream that I can do I'll open up
The moon for you
Just come down soon

[CHORUS]
The time that I've taken
I pray is not wasted
Have I already tasted my piece of one sweet love?
Ready and waiting for a heart worth the breaking
But I'd settle for an honest mistake in the name of
One sweet love.

Savor the sorrow to soften the pain sip on
The southern rain
As I do, I don't look don't touch don't do anything
But hope that there is a you.

The earth that is the space between,
I'd banish it from under me...to get to you.
Your unexpected love provides my solitary's
Suicide...oh I wish I knew

A/N: So Sam loves Freddie but never got the chance to tell him because he is to in love with Carly. Freddie loves Sam and was just using Carly to make her jelous. Basically there is a communication problem going on between the two.

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