I don't own any of Stephanie Meyer's characters and I don't have anything to do with the publication of her stories. I did make some of the characters in the story and I'd appreciate it if you ask before taking them.

STORY TIME!

Jacob Black looked out over the water. The wind blew at him on top of the cliff. His dark eyes were unfathomable as he stared. The moon hung low above him, and he felt cloaked by the night. He had been away from La Push and Forks for a very long time. It might have been cold, but he couldn't feel it. At least that wasn't what had him shivering. He had phased into his human form moments before in the first time in months.

Jacob

I hate him, although I have to admit that he loves her. The bloodsucking leech doesn't deserve her. I've argued with myself thousands of times, but I can't help having these same thoughts over and over. She's probably dead now. Gone over to his side. I pounded the rock beneath me. I look at myself in the moonlight for a moment. It's fall, and it's somewhere near the border of Canada, but I'm not cliff I'm on must have reminded me of La Push. I'm shaking like I'll change back any second. I'm so stupid. Changing to my human form is the only reason why I'm feeling this way, why I'm thinking about this at all. I close my eyes and hope that I can find something, anything, to keep the frustration and sadness at bay. I miss Bella. I miss her smell and her laughter. I love her. Why didn't I imprint on her, I can't imagine anyone else in my heart. I remember the half-dream I had, something about my dad and Charlie on our lake in La Push. That's when I hear something behind me. Had I been in wolf form I would have smelled it first. It's a man, with a gun. I stand up and stare him down. I'm ready for a distraction.

"Jesus boy I thought you were an elk. What're you doin' here naked? You all right? They say there are wolves in these parts…" I almost laughed as he trailed off. Of course the locals would've heard me howling at night. I'm not ready to hurt other people to make myself feel better. I'm conflicted as much as I was when I left. Only now I feel lonelier without the trees I know and the pack. I've been quiet for a while, not answering his questions. I don't think I'm ready to go back, but staying here is not an option.

"I'm fine mister, just sleep walking again." The look on his face says he doesn't believe me. That's tough for him. I go to pass him, but he grabs my arm. He shouldn't be remotely strong enough to hold me, but I stay still and watch him.

"Look boy, if you're in trouble you can come to the town and we can find your folks. You don't have to run away." He looks up at me, I guess re-thinking the boy part of his offer.

"You wouldn't understand. I have to go now." I shake my head at him and he lets me go.

"Everything has a silver lining son, why don't you stick close to your family. You do have family don't you?" I think of Sam and the others. I think of my dad and I realize that it's time to go home. Even if I'm not ready at least I won't have to be alone.

"Yeah, mister. I got family. Thanks for reminding me." I run away before he can say anything. It's been awhile; I'm not sure how long. Time passes differently for wolves. All I know is that Bella is gone, and I need to go home.

Bella

As soon as I tasted Edward's blood I started feeling sick. The cold and windowless room phased in and out. It was just the two of us. I could barely choke a mouthful or two down before the burning started. His mouth was red from where he had taken my blood, and for some reason I was fixated on it. I had no clue the screaming was coming from me until I realized my throat was raw from the force of it. Or maybe that was from all of the stuff that I was throwing up. I could barely breathe and I was begging someone to do something about the pain. Edward was there suddenly and I swear I could feel tears burning paths into my hair. I was on my back and he lifted me to his lap. I had tried to be strong, but it was too much.

"Oh, Bella." He said quietly. Even with his whispering it hurt my ears. The fire in my body was still burning, but it had dulled to a smolder instead of a roar.

"Are you sure this is what you wanted Bella? I can't stand to see you like this."

"I want to be like you Edward. I've waited a year, I've become your wife, we've shared our bodies, and I've gone to school. It's past time that I did this." I thought I sounded sure to him, but I was so scared, was it supposed to hurt this much? Edward wiped away my tears and pulled me closer to him. I winced, I felt the heat of the venom start rushing through my body again. I hoped that Charlie didn't miss me too much. I knew Renee had Phil, and I hoped that was enough. Soon I could join my new family and I tried to hold onto that as I started screaming again.

It felt like eons since I was lucid enough to talk. Edward was in a corner of the room. His eyes were blank and staring at me like I was a monster. I felt a hard lump fill my chest. I had somehow managed to change into something so horrible that even Edward stopped loving me. Leave it to me to become the only hideous vampire. I started crying and I felt the tears run down my face. That should have meant something to me then. Edward immediately came over to me and held me. I tried to push him off and I couldn't. I looked into his eyes and I realized that I could feel him in my head.

"I'm reading your thoughts," He whispered. This couldn't be happening. I watched him frown. I felt his presence leave my thoughts. What exactly had I become? I remembered the tears on my face, and the lack of newborn strength. I could hear him call for Carlisle. I could also hear Carlisle's response and the Cullens two floors away.

"Something has gone terribly wrong," Carlisle said. Someone else said,"Or terribly right."