She was never there you no. she wasn't. She was just that figment of your imagination, you never saw how bad it got for yourself but who her disastrous life unfolded scene by scene. It's quite sad really. They found your cliff, that moment when you couldn't take it anymore. You know whats worse? She was your angel. Your savour. She sent you to that place and made you see using all those other people that, there was a way out. The place where you were it was hell on earth but the place you thought deep in your mind that place was even worse. And it's horrifying that you think that. But then you saw the light and with that the one person you thought was your family the one person you were sure on, you realise she may not have been who she thought she was at all. She didn't mean it. She's sorry. But it doesn't matter anymore. She's dead. They all are.
But you're free.