"Always"
Just a short little fic speculating on Blaine's thoughts in 5x16… Because he fascinates me.
Kinda angsty at first but the end is fluffy. …
"I… I guess I should be getting home, then," Blaine says softly after they pull away from the hug. He didn't want to pull away, but I was getting late and he didn't want to assume anything.
Kurt just smiles at him and takes his hand. "Whether you live here or not, this will always be your home."
"You're home for me," Blaine tells him earnestly, voice cracking a bit. He sniffles, not quite to the point of embarrassment after his breakdown but nearly there, and Kurt wipes his tears away. "I love you, Kurt. I love you so much."
"I love you, too," Kurt says. "Always," he adds firmly, making the tension leak from Blaine's body until all he can feel is exhaustion. "Stay here tonight. You shouldn't be walking home alone this late at night."
"Kurt, I—"
"Please stay," Kurt repeats, begging Blaine with tired eyes. Blaine nods. He forgot that, while Kurt isn't afraid for himself, he's worried for Blaine. "I don't—"
"I know," Blaine says, swooping in for a short kiss. Kurt seems to relax, squeezing Blaine's hand and tugging him towards the bedroom. They crawl into bed, both lying on their sides and facing each other.
Blaine watches Kurt, his stomach fluttering as he takes in the beautiful man in front of him. He reaches up to brush the backs of his fingertips against Kurt's cheek, sighing softly.
Kurt smiles. "What?"
"I didn't really want to move out," Blaine admits.
Kurt frowns, confused. "Blaine, we talked about this. We both decided it would help us individually and as a couple."
"I know, I know that," Blaine sighs. "It's just… I guess some part of me was hoping you'd ask me not to. Some part of me hoped that you still needed me like I need you. I just wanted to stop feeling like I was holding you back."
"Blaine, honey," Kurt says softly. "I'll always need you and I'll always love you." He looks so sad, like he can't even imagine a world where he doesn't love Blaine. He can't picture it. And it breaks his heart that Blaine can. "I don't know how else to make you see that."
For a while, they don't say anything. Then Kurt starts planting gentle kisses on Blaine's mouth and chin and cheeks.
"Kurt, I—"
Blaine shakily pushes at Kurt's chest but Kurt gently grabs his wrist. "Shh, it's okay. You don't have to feel ashamed of yourself, especially not around me. You've always been the most handsome man in the world in my eyes and that isn't going to change because you put on a few pounds." He pauses for a moment, brushing A few loose curls off of Blaine forehead and pressing a sweet kiss to the same spot. "And I'm not saying this because you need to be ashamed of your weight, because you don't, but maybe we should both be eating healthier. I don't care what you look like but I do want you to be healthy."
Blaine nods, smiling, and says, "So, I'll stop eating out and you'll give up cheesecake."
"Now, now," Kurt stops him, laughing and smacking Blaine's shoulder when he sees the wide, teasing grin on Blaine's face. "You know I can't do that anymore than you can give up cronuts." This time, Blaine laughs. "But seriously, I'll cut down on cheesecake if you cut down on cronuts. No more than two per week, and that's only if you jog to school with me. And I'll keep it to one small slice of cheesecake a week. We all need to indulge once in a while, but it's not indulging if we don't save it for certain occasions."
"I think that sounds fair," Blaine nods. "So we're in this together?"
Kurt smiles. "We always have been."