A/N I do not own neither Death Note nor the characters that I used :(

Destructive Love

"You never loved me," Near whispered. "You loved the self-destruction that came with loving me."

Mello couldn't believe what he was hearing, but deep inside him, he felt that his lover was right.

He never really enjoyed talking with Near... He never enjoyed touching Near... He even hated to look at Near, but still the blonde spent all of his time with the younger boy.

Mello looked at Near's gray eyes. They were emotionless. N's face was blank. There weren't any real feelings inside N, he had faked them all in order to not let out the darkness that filled his soul. Near was always wearing white, he was always nice to everyone, he always did everything perfectly... he had such a good mask... But M finally saw through it. The blonde saw the monster inside what seemed to be an angel.

"Oh well, now you know," Near sighed. "I'm a bad person, a real monster, so stay away from me."

M remembered how many times Near had told him that, and now he realized that every time that was just a warning.

"I'm a very bad person," Near said while looking at the sky. His voice was full of sorrow. Mello rapped his arms around him, and gave him a tender kiss."Of course you're not. You are the sweetest person I know..." M couldn't finish his sentence because the other boy's velvet voice interrupted him. "Someday you will see..." Near's tears burnt M's skin like acid. The golden haired boy just kissed passionately his rival. "Shhh Sheepy... "

"I've warned you so many times, but you didn't understand," N's voice returned Mello to reality. The blond couldn't believe that this was the same velvet voice once full with emotions, not empty and cold... He didn't want to believe it. "Now get out."

"You cannot just tell me to stay away from you !" Mello screamed.

"Don't you just love how you can clearly see the pain moving through one's body when he experiences great pain caused by the one he loves."

"You're a monster!"

"I've told you that so many times, but you didn't want to listen..."

"But I still love you, I will never leave you," Mello's eyes were full with tears.

N was shocked, he didn't expect this. There wasn't any logic in what M was saying. He was a creature made by darkness, dressed in light. He was cruel, manipulative, emotionless, soulless.

How could anyone love him? How could anyone love self-destruction so much? "When I fall, I'm going to take you down with me..." those were words of desperation.

"You won't, but I'm going to take your hand, and jump with you," Mello was confident in his words.

"You cannot do it! I won't let you."

"Then you will stay right here with me."

N couldn't move, couldn't speak, couldn't breathe. "You need to go. We still need to finish the Kira case."

"Well, see you tomorrow."

"Yeah, just leave."

Mello, turning around, opened a chocolate bar and waved it.

"Be good, Sheepy, and have a nice night."