Hello all!!! This right here is my first Tokyo Ghoul fanfic but it wont be the last, I'm actually planning a multi chapter AU fic for later. Speaking of AUs, I started a TG community thats based on AUs of the the Touken variety! Ooh, I see that got your attention lol. Check it out, its called Touken AU Love, there's a link to it at the end of this story!!!

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-000-

I've been staring at the ceiling of my room for the past few hours and it's honestly starting to get a little boring. Today is my day off from school and work so I want to spend it with Yoriko because ever since the fight with Aogiri and the CCG, I haven't been able to get any real free time.

I tell myself that it's because I've been working myself to the bone, but that isn't even close to the truth.

Rolling my seemingly still slumbering body out of my bed, I head to the bathroom and shower. I had already showered the previous night but doing so in the morning is just part of my morning routine. After drying myself off and brushing my teeth, I comb my hair forcing the unruly purple threads into something more presentable. If Kaneki was here, he would probably lie and say that my hair didn't look that bad.

I shake my thoughts of Kaneki out of my head. He's been popping up in there a lot more lately, I guess his absence is a bit more noticeable than what I thought.

That's what I tell myself at least.

I pick my phone and type in the only 10 digits I punch in enough times to memorize them and put the phone up to my ear. It rings a few times before she answers.

"Hello?"

"Hey Yoriko, it's Touka."

There's a laugh on the other end. "I know, caller ID silly." She giggles again. Now that I think about it, Yoriko giggles almost every time I talk to her. "What's up?"

"I'm all caught up on my school work and it's my day off from work, so since we're not in school, I was thinking we could hang out just you and me. It's been such a long time since we did anything together just for fun."

"Yes it has been ages and I would love to go but I can't."

The bubbly happy feeling dies in my chest. "What? Why?"

She sounds forlorn. "I'm not actually in Tokyo right now, I'm out of town visiting family."

I breathe in deeply and exhale deeply. "That's okay, I know you don't really want to hangout with me anyway." I say just to mess with her.

"That's not true!" She exclaims.

I laugh and we have a long talk about how lame her family is and what some of our classmates are doing. She mentions Kaneki a few times though and it's strange because I get a slight chill from hearing her say his name. Probably because I associate him with my life as a Ghoul and I don't want her finding out about it so I try to keep it vague.

Yeah, that's why I feel this way every time I think about him looking at me with the eye that's not covered.

We talk on the phone for a few more hours before her mother pulls her away for "family bonding". We say our goodbyes and I hang up the phone.

"Family bonding huh?" I say out loud alone in my room. "I can only imagine how well that would go over with Ayato." I let out a dry laugh to myself as I check the time.

4:00 pm

I must have woken up much later than I thought I did. Dressing myself, I decide to go find Hinami as I haven't been able to spend much time with her either. I really need to work on not neglecting my friends.

-000-

She's not in the apartment we've been sharing since her parents passed. The bird she loves so much squawks at me as I pass through the living room. I stop at the doorway and briefly consider doing away with the vile thing but decide against it considering Hinami has already lost enough.

I go downstairs and it looks as though business at Anteiku is in full swing. The cafe is filled with Ghouls and Humans alike sipping coffee and laughing, smiling, and looking like they're having genuinely happy conversations.

I spot Hinami at one of the tables with her nose in a book. She looks just like Kaneki when he used to come here with his human friend all the time. I stride over and slide into the seat across from her. She looks up in surprise at me but then she relaxes when she sees who it is.

"Oh, you're up."

I raise an eyebrow at her. "Why do you sound so disappointed about that?"

She laughs and it makes me feel a little better. "Sorry, I've just been so wrapped up in Takatsuki's new novel. It's called Nova Light and it is so good, I know that Onii-san will love it!"

I smile a little but it fades when I remember who her "Onii-san" is.

"He'll come back soon and when he does I'll be prepared to have an intellectual discussion with him about it!" She smiles so hard I'm sure that it hurts her.

I don't smile, don't speak. I just stare at the innocence in the little child before me. She buries her nose back into her book, studying for a test that may never come. I can't stand there and watch her anymore. I stand from the table, seething.

I feel my kagune and my Kakugan reacting to my emotional state. I want her hurt someone right now, I want to tear apart his limbs for making her wait. For changing all our lives and then walking away without ever looking back. I want to rage.

All of a sudden, I feel someone grab me and I prepare myself for battle.

"Get yourself together!" I hear Nishiki whispered quickly into my ear. "Your Kakugan is showing and there are humans in here right now!"

Sure enough, a few of the patrons I don't recognize are looking over at us with questioning looks on their faces. I can't tell if my Kakugan is still showing but I assume it is because Nishiki tells me to close my eyes and drags me to the back.

"What is up with you? If you need to eat, get something and calm yourself down!" He chastises me and angrily storms back into the front area.

My hands are shaking and my forehead is sweaty and I'm hot and cold all over. My head is pounding and I don't know own why, all I know is a second ago I was discussing my plans for the day with Hinami and then Nishiki is dragging me into the back so I don't expose my Kakugan.

"Is everything alright Touka?"

I whip around to see the Manager standing behind me with a semi-worried expression on his face. My checks turn especially warm and I turn away from him. "I'm fine," I lie.

There's a long pause in which I'm sure he's trying to figure out why I'm lying to him. "Touka, what's wrong? You can tell me anything."

I consider telling him about Hinami but I decide against it. "I'm fine sir, is there any way I could pick up a few hours today?" I need a distraction to help me get myself together, work seems like the perfect one.

"Hmm," is his first response. "I think your day off would be better spent relaxing."

I look up at him and my mouth drops open, staring at the jovial expression he somehow always wears. "You have been working so hard since our encounter with the Aogiri tree and I'm starting to see a negative effect it's taking on you. I don't think you working overtime today will help that."

Normally, anyone who tries to tell me what to do would have been impaled with so many shards by now they would be able to breathe comfortably. But since it's the Manager, I blow off the anger in a another way.

"Ugh!" I exclaim and storm out of the room and out the front door.

I slam it behind me and keep going, not sure where my feelings and lack of understanding them will take me.

-000-

I don't know exactly how long I've been gone but it's dark now. The sun has left and the moon is the only thing keeping me company in the deserted park right now. Well, that and the thoughts I keep having of Kaneki.

At first they were kind of random, a sight here, a sound there, a smell everywhere. I even thought that I saw him walking up and down the streets. It turned out to be someone with a slightly similar jacket as him.

After that came the fantasies. The first I distinctly remember was what he was probably doing right now. I imagined him in a fighting position, Kagune poised to strike, his mask covering his entire face except his one ghoul Kakugan.

There many after that, too many to count. Most of them were just imagining what he was doing right this moment. The few the weren't were more like wet dreams I guess you could say. There was a lot of soft speech and more intimacy than I'd care to admit. All those thoughts pointed to one logical conclusion which was really quite simple once I'd thought about it enough: I had developed feelings for Ken Kaneki.

Every time I thought the words in my head, I got dizzy and nauseous. These were signs enough that maybe it wasn't true, that maybe there was still some type of hope for me. But no matter what I told myself, no matter how I reasoned it in my mind, along with that sick strange darkness, was just a little warmth. Just a little of the emotion I've learned as love and because of that, I can't deny it.

"I miss you," I whisper to the park, imagining me and Kaneki living happily together, like Jack and Sally. "I miss you Ken Kaneki."

-000-

On one of the buildings high up above Touka, a figure stood watch over her. The figure had changed very much in the short period of time following the last time he'd seen Touka but there was some things that never changed, like the feeling in his heart when he thought of her.

The figure smiled, having been the only one to hear her words. "Don't worry Touka," the figure whispered to himself. "You can always find me."

With that, the figure focused on his task. The faster he finished it, the faster he could run into her loving arms. He jumped down off the building into the darkness, eager to fight the monstersbetween him and his love.

-000-

Thanks for reading this guys!!! I've spent the better part of the last hour writing this because it wasn't even the idea I planned on writing today lol! I'll post the other idea I had later. I was inspired by the song I miss you by Blink 182, there are a few references in it if you look closely!

C2: https/community/Touken-AU-Love/128582/

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