AN: This is songfic based off of Prisoner of Love by Utada Hikaru Italics are lyrics and regular is Bellas thoughts this is entirely in Bella's point of view.
I do not own Twilight or Prisoner of love by Utada Hikaru.
I'm a prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
I'm just a prisoner of love
A prisoner of love
I'm a prisoner to my love for him even after he left me. I was well aware of being a prisoner to my love toward him before he left and I was I happy prisoner believing he felt the same.
With an indifferent face you tell a lie.
I still remember the day he left and How he told me he didn't love me. He never loved me how he could he? When he told me his face was blank and his eyes were cold and emotionless. It showed to me that he didn't love me or care for me he never did and never could but that's my fault not his.
Laughing until you feel sick
" Let's have nothing but fun" you said
I remember the happy days as well. Like last summer on a sunny day when we went to the meadow and we spent all day there just he and I. I remember that we happily talked and teased each other. We held hands and kissed. It hurts so much for me to even remember the happy things but I never want to forget them either.
Feeling blue over desining the impossible
Everyone is seeking tranquility
You're struggling but you've had enough
I could see back then it was a struggle for him to around me and I could understand if it just got too much for him to bear to be around me. It was easier and less painful for him when I'm not around.
Now chasing after a shadow of love
Now that he's gone I'm just chasing after a love that is long a gone just a ghost of love that refuse to let go of.
Since that day you appeared
My dull "every days" have began to shine
Since the day I met him my every day life changed from being boring and normal to magical and mysterious but I forgot magic isn't real and shouldn't have expected it to last.
Now I'm able to think
"feeling loneliness being in pain. That's not so bad"
With him gone I now have a big gap in my chest that can never be filled again. I always feel lonely without him I always wish he were here with me but that only causes me to be in more pain. But I don't care how miserable and lonely I am as long as he's happy I can continue on.
I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
Prisoner of love I'm a prisoner of love
I continue to be a prisoner to my love for him and always will even though I know that I was nothing more then a problem for him but no matter the pain can't seem to set myself free from that love.
Through painful times and healthy times
Stormy days and sunny days
Let's walk on together
Recently I found a small escape from the pain through Jacob. Jacob has stayed with me since then on my good days and my bad days he's able cheer me up he's a really good friend.
I'm gonna tell you the truth
I chose an unforeseeable painful path and you came to support me.
You're the only one I can call a friend
With Jacob I could be honest and tell him the truth and I did. Even after hearing the truth he chose to stay by me. He is the only real friend that I have .
Fake displays of strength and avarice
Have become meaningless
My act to seem stronger then I am have became less strained with Jacob's help but I think my act is meaningless because everyone can tell I'm still not over him I never will be.
I've been in love with you since that day
When I'm free with no time to spare
There's no life in being alone
I could try to love Jacob so my life could be consider a life still and not just waiting for death because in being with someone there is life but being alone is no life but it would be a forced love on my part.
I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
But I'm still a prisoner to my love for him so can't even to pretend to love Jacob and be able to live again without him.
Oh.. Just a little more
Don't you give up
When Alice said he went to Italy because he thought I was dead I was scared and sad and confused . As go with Alice to try and save him one my thoughts are don't give up. Don't give up on life just because you thought it was your fault.
Oh… Don't ever abandon me ever
When me and Edward finally reunited in Italy . I want to make him promise to never leave me again but I don't. I don't want to be more of a burdan to me then I already am.
If cruelty of reality
Tries to tear us apart we'll be drawn more closely to one another
Somehow I have a feeling we'll be able to stand firm
I want to believe that it was like it use to be with Edward and I. I want to believe that anything that gets in our way would only bring us closer but can't believe only wish for this to be true.
I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
Being with Edward again as only made it even more clear that I'm a prisoner for my love for Edward. I can't even take my eyes off of him for a second terrified that he would disappear.
Every day banalities quickly begins to shine brilliantly
You stole my heart that day
Loneliness and pain
I thought I could deal with
I remember that night when I first realized that I loved him that was the day he stole my heart and today he stole my heart again. I never knew it would end the first time but this time I know it will and I can't bear the pain that will soon come.
I 'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
I'm a prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
I'm just a prisoner of love
I'm a prisoner of love
I know I'm a prisoner to my love towards him and I wish he stay and I wish he love me back but most of all I wish he'd be a prisoner to his love for me.
Stay with me
Stay with me
My baby say you love me
Stay with me
Stay with me
Don't leave me alone again
I silently beg you not to leave me to stay with me to never leave me side again I don't know if you understand but cling to you in my sleep so you won't leave me stay with me.
Stay with me
Stay with me
Oh.. Stay with me
Don't leave me
Tell me that you love me