Ch. 1

Fiona sketched away on her notebook. She wasn't really trying to pay attention to her class. She had re-taken this already a year ago and knew mostly everything the teacher was talking about. She had to repeat her grade on more time due to her troubles that she had, not to mention the trouble that had occurred only a month from this day. She was sitting in the back of the class alone. No one wanted to sit next to her and she felt like an outsider looking in. Like always she thought to herself. She sketched on as the teacher talked. The room went silent for a moment and Fiona looked up to see them all staring at her. "I'm sorry?" she said, not knowing what question the teacher had asked. "Never mind, Ms. Coyne." he told her as he went back to the lesson and Fiona went back to drawing. "That was a very easy question, Princess" she heard someone whisper in her ear. She drop the pencil on the table and froze in place, not wanting to look to the side, but she eventually turned and came face to face with his blue eyes. "Wh-what are you doing here?" she asked him, feeling a shortness of air at the moment. "I'm here for you of course"

"Adam…"

"Hey Princess"

"You shouldn't be here"

"Why because it a grade 12 class? I think they'd let me slide on this one." He joked and gave her a smile.

"That's not what I meant" she said, feeling her throat closing a bit from the lump developing. "Why are you here, Adam?"

"I already told you, princess. For you"

"Stop calling me that"

"Sorry I thought it was ok for me to call you that" Adam stood up and was about to leave. Fiona grabbed his hand, surprised that she could do that.

"It was ok…I mean its ok for you to call me that, Prince" she told him back, fighting back some tears.

"Hey now, no tears, Fi. Last thing we want is for your beautiful eyes to get watery" He said to her before bringing his hand to her cheek and wiping the tears. She grabbed his hand and was shocked. "I feel you" she said out loud.

"Of course why couldn't you?" he looked at her curiously.

She didn't care if she was in class and that she might look like a fool. She pulled Adam in for a hug and snuggled her head on his chest. She could smell what he smelled like before and feel his arms around her, holding her and kissing the top of her head. "I could stay like this forever" she heard him say before he started to play with her curls. She slowly retreated back from their hug and looked deeply into his eyes. "How is this possible" she said out loud, not wanting to know the answer. She grabbed him from the back of his head and quickly brought him in for a kiss. She felt the way it had felt all those times they had kissed. She never wanted to break this moment, but suddenly her thoughts got the best of her. After they kissed, she saw Adam with a hug smile on his face.

"That was great, Princess."

"I miss you, Adam"

"I miss you too, Fi"

"Why did you do it?" she asked him. He retreated his hands from her. "What did I do?"

"You left me Adam. Alone here in this place. You left us all behind."

"Fiona I'm right here"

"No you're not! Stop playing with me!" she shouted. "Ms. Coyne?" she heard in an echo before lifting her head from her desk. "The class is over and you managed yet again to fall asleep." The teacher told her. Fiona paid no attention to him as she raced out of the room, leaving her stuff behind, but not caring if she did. She had to go and talk to her and tell her what had just happened.

"CLARE!" Fiona shouted as she came up to the junior girl grabbing her books. Fiona was out breathed as she came up to her. "Fiona, what's wrong? You look pale"

"I SAW HIM! I FELT HIM I KISSED HIM"

"Lower your voice" Clare pulled the girl to the side. "Ok who did you see?"

"Adam! I saw him Clare"

Clare froze. She looked at the girl in front of her with wide eyes. "Fiona this is no time to play this sort of joke on me" Fiona could tell she was getting angry at her

"Why doesn't anyone believe me? I saw him. He sat right next to me and had a conversation in class. We...we even kissed, Clare"

"Fiona shut up and go to class." Clare turned and left Fiona standing there

"I know what I saw! I saw him. I saw Adam"

"Adam is dead, Fiona" Clare said coldly to her before turning and making her exit once more.

Fiona stood there, blindsided by Clare's words. "I know what I saw" she said to herself. Fiona felt the pain returning. The pain that she felt when she saw him there lying lifeless in a pool of his own blood. She started to breathe harder and harder, trying so hard to catch her breath but couldn't take any air in. She ran, bumped into a few people before turning down the hall and through the utility doors and up the stairs. She needed to breathe.

The doors ricochet back from the sudden force that she had used to open it. She was on the roof of Degrassi to get some air that she so badly needed right now. She had never been up here before. She steadied herself and felt her chest un-tense for the moment. She felt the small rock underneath her feet as she moved closer to the edge of the building. She could see down to the teacher parking lot that had no one in it right now.

She closed her eyes for a moment and lifted her arms out to her side. Her memories went back to Adam. The way he held her when they first kissed. The way he made everything in her world so right and how when he left, it all went back to being broken. "I love you" She said out to the wind, hoping that in some small way he would hear her.

"I love you too" She heard from behind her and felt her knees go weak as she stumbled off the edge backwards and feel on her back to the small pebbles on the roof. She felt a hand on her head and opened her eyes, she burst out crying. "WHY? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? Leave me alone…" she said started to scream before whispering.

"I can't. You need me too much princess"

"I don't need you now! I needed you when you were alive"

"I'm here for you, Princess"

"Stop saying that!"

"Fiona, I love you and I'm here. By your side" Fiona felt him touch her hand and help her up gently.

She looked at him before studying him. He looked so real to her. She touched his cheek. It felt as though he was right there in front of her. Se touched his brown hair as she ruffled it with her hand. She saw him close his eyes as she touched them. She touched his cheek and could feel bone underneath. She gently touched his lips and left her hand there. She felt him lean to her forehead. She closed her eyes and felt him embrace.

"This isn't real" she said out loud.

"I need you to do something for me, Fiona"

"What?" She asked, her eyes still closed.

"I need you to live, Fi. I need you to live" She was confused to what he meant. She was about to ask him what he meant by that but before she could, she felt his lips in her, passionately kissing her. She let go and kissed him harder as their tongues came in contact with each other. She felt like all those times she had felt kissing him. She brought him closer to her, her own lungs out of breathe but not wanting to let go off him or their kiss. She never pulled away. She only pushed herself closer to him. Then nothing.

She opened her eyes and saw no one in front of her. No foot marks on the pebbles in front of her. No sign of anyone there. She looked around and paced out closer to the door that she had used to come up and saw no one.

She didn't know what to feel. Nothing hurt, but nothing felt right. She felt numb for a second.

She went back down stairs and to her locker. She still had to go and pick up her stuff from her class that she had left behind, but she didn't care for that at the moment as her mind circled around what had just happened. Was she going mad? Why was he here?

"It's just in my head" she said, letting out a few tears as she opened her locker. A note fell to the ground.

"Live" she repeated what was written. "Live"

End of Chapter 1